Darlin', there are gents out there for any type of woman who respects herself and means well (there's also guys out there for those who don't respect themselves, but you don't want them, so be the former and not the latter). Don't try to compare yourself with something that's specifically designed to be marketed and sold, because the point of sales is to sell a fantasy. Be the reality. Be you. Be the best version of you you can make yourself in your mind and personality, and of course, don't neglect your physical health either, but don't hold yourself to some video-girl fantasy standard.
Frankly, that you're a real, live woman looking to be tickled is enough for some guys here to be knocking down your inbox door with all manner of questionable salutations. Be patient. Be selective. Participate on the forum so folks know you exist. You'll find what you're looking for.
Be well.