findingstrength
Registered User
- Joined
- Sep 10, 2024
- Messages
- 1
- Points
- 1
Hi,
My partner has expressed that tickle torture is a fundamental part of them and it hurts them to repress it.
I misunderstood at first, I thought their kink was for tickling itself, and we've enjoyed playful/bedroom tickling that feels positive, lighthearted and makes me feel happy.
But they revealed to me that they're unhappy because it's not fulfilling the part of them that wants to torture me.
I'm ok with roleplay where I pretend but really I'm comfortable, but I'm confused how much tickle torture content seems to be around experiencing genuine distress and torture and pushing through it.
We tried to have a longer session, and I could enjoy 20 minutes of light gentle tickling and it felt pleasant. I was laughing and happy. But they weren't satisfied because they wanted to be more rough with me, to dig in hard and make it hurt (but they want me to enjoy being hurt).
I tried to push myself and I thought (they agreed) that I needed to be trained to endure painful tickling, and to endure it being actually distressing, because this is what pleases them. They emphasised they do want me to enjoy the distress.
But I'm suffering after effects even after the small amount of experimenting where they tickled me in ways I didn't like that felt violent, and feeling pressure that I have to learn to endure it. Otherwise it won't satisfy the torture part of them.
I'm confused and even though they try to assure me they're educated, they've mainly just watched a lot of porn and read forums like this one a long time ago. I've asked for many years for them to learn about BDSM principles and how to negotiate with me, but they insisted on a trial and error approach even when I really didn't want that.
Sometimes they say that I don't have a tickle kink, because if I did, I would simply be asking them to torture me and it would be easy.
Please, if you can respond, please can you be more nuanced than assuming I'm abused and telling me to leave them. If you can see both me and partner in good faith, maybe ignorant but able to learn, I would appreciate that.
Thank you for any input.
My partner has expressed that tickle torture is a fundamental part of them and it hurts them to repress it.
I misunderstood at first, I thought their kink was for tickling itself, and we've enjoyed playful/bedroom tickling that feels positive, lighthearted and makes me feel happy.
But they revealed to me that they're unhappy because it's not fulfilling the part of them that wants to torture me.
I'm ok with roleplay where I pretend but really I'm comfortable, but I'm confused how much tickle torture content seems to be around experiencing genuine distress and torture and pushing through it.
We tried to have a longer session, and I could enjoy 20 minutes of light gentle tickling and it felt pleasant. I was laughing and happy. But they weren't satisfied because they wanted to be more rough with me, to dig in hard and make it hurt (but they want me to enjoy being hurt).
I tried to push myself and I thought (they agreed) that I needed to be trained to endure painful tickling, and to endure it being actually distressing, because this is what pleases them. They emphasised they do want me to enjoy the distress.
But I'm suffering after effects even after the small amount of experimenting where they tickled me in ways I didn't like that felt violent, and feeling pressure that I have to learn to endure it. Otherwise it won't satisfy the torture part of them.
I'm confused and even though they try to assure me they're educated, they've mainly just watched a lot of porn and read forums like this one a long time ago. I've asked for many years for them to learn about BDSM principles and how to negotiate with me, but they insisted on a trial and error approach even when I really didn't want that.
Sometimes they say that I don't have a tickle kink, because if I did, I would simply be asking them to torture me and it would be easy.
Please, if you can respond, please can you be more nuanced than assuming I'm abused and telling me to leave them. If you can see both me and partner in good faith, maybe ignorant but able to learn, I would appreciate that.
Thank you for any input.