Another unpopular(?) opinion - "nonconsensual" tickling

[mch5]

Because of my extreme disability, the main sources of my enjoyment of this fetish are Cyberspace and Media.
I buy videos, which are hard to find, because of my kind of unique desires, and also I visit Chaturbate for the hope to stumble upon some tickling, or even better, finding a couple who are willing to "experiment".
[Yes, I know, it's sad, blablabla... but it's my life and I will use whatever I can to live them]

The thing is [mostly in Chaturbate] that most of the time, when the "experiment/torture" ends, they say "thank you it was funny"... which just kills it for me.
Yes, I am into the "nonconsensual" tickling, at least for the appearance.
It doesn't mean I want to kidnap an unwilling lee and torture her, even if I could, that is not my desire. but since in our world it is mostly a game/acting [and I don't mind if it's a fake as long as it fulfills my desires], why not going a bit farther and show the "resentment"?

It's an unpopular opinion because I have read here many posts&comments of people need their lee to want/enjoy it. I guess what I am looking for is a level of "suffering" that almost only exists on in bdsm videos.
And I did got to see this... extreme suffer-laughter (yet Laughter undoubtedly) , though it is very rare, in a few videos [mostly nonEnglish speaking].

Does anyone get it? Do I make sense?
I would appreciate your thoughts and/or advices.

 

[WickedTouch]

Yes, this makes sense to me. Fantasy and reality are very different things. People kill other people all day in video games, eat popcorn while they watch others get brutally tortured or eaten by zombies on the big screen, and read stories about great wars involving elves and wizards all the time. 99.99% of those people don't want that as their reality. It stimulates a deeper part of them, sometimes intellectual, but often something deeper and more primal that's hard to explain–but is a big part of what makes us human. There are just as many who won't like those things but have their own unexplainable quirks. In fantasy, I enjoy a lot of themes and ideas around tickling that I want nothing to do with in reality. Even when it comes to intensity and extreme tickling, which I love, I go out of my way to make sure the lee is safe and getting what they want out of it. But I can easily enjoy certain fictional non-consensual content. Some of it rubs me the wrong way, so I avoid it, but that doesn't necessarily make it wrong.

There's a lot more that like this than you'd think. I feel this is a guilt bias playing out, where those that like this sort of thing struggle with these kinds of feelings at some level, and so are less likely to bring it up in community, while those that don't carry that guilt or apprehension post more often and freely leading to the impression that liking this is super rare. It may be that it's more rare than not, but I've come across it a lot in private talks with ticklephiles. I don't think it's normal, but I do think it's okay.

Hope that helps!

 

[mch5]

Yes, this makes sense to me. Fantasy and reality are very different things. People kill other people all day in video games, eat popcorn while they watch others get brutally tortured or eaten by zombies on the big screen, and read stories about great wars involving elves and wizards all the time. 99.99% of those people don't want that as their reality. ........................................................................................
I don't think it's normal, but I do think it's okay.
Hope that helps!

Thank you very much, I appreciate your thoughts.

Do you have any suggestions for where I can find more people like... me?

 

[WickedTouch]

Thank you very much, I appreciate your thoughts.

Do you have any suggestions for where I can find more people like... me?

You're welcome 🙂. They are found just about in every major tickling community online–TMF, reddit, discord servers, Tumblr, etc. I guess it depends upon what you want to accomplish when connecting with them–everyone wants something different. If you're just wanting to chat about the topic, I'm sure there's at least a few on each of those platforms. Do you frequent the TMF chat much? I feel like I've ran into a few in there. The thing is, I've never really looked for people into this. They just seem to occasionally show up as I'm talking with different people. Just interact with different individuals and hopefully you'll run into them too. One piece of advice if you post on other platforms is to continue to lead with the disclaimer that this is just fantasy and not reality. Otherwise, people may misinterpret it and you'll get off to a bad start. Other than that, just share what you're into, what you're looking for, and hope for the best. Good luck!