thank you all so much, I love you guys and gals. I sat in the baby's room tonight in the rocker...all nice and lilac, put on the little ceramic music box my parents bought and listen to a lullaby version of wind beneath my wings. My son crawled up in my lap and just rocked with me as he did when he was a baby. Miracles happen, one was in my lap and one is waiting for me...how overjoyed I am right now. I will be sending updates and pictures when I can. I can receive E-Mail, [email protected] for anyone interested.