Breathless Addiction.

[starburstz91]

Another one I wrote, dudes.

Oh.

Comments welcome. 🙂
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I want to know something.
I know it will never be answered
But my mind wanders.
I wander
Because I feel I need to.
Because I want to.
I want to know
If I will always be like this?
Live like this?
I suffer in pain and
Sorrow
And- God-
I'm getting sick.
My mind is eating itself
And my memories are killing me.
I can't take the pain...
I can't take the unbearable pain...
I scream in pleading cries to make it go away...
Please.
Make it stop.
It hurts me so fucking much.
I can't cry anymore.
It hurts to shed my tears.
It hurts to breath in
And stretch my tired lungs
Back out.
It hurts me so much
I can't even hold myself together.
I can't control my actions.
I can only cry...
And cry...
And scream...
Oh- God-
Make it stop.
My eyes plead for surrender.
I shriek out in surrender.
I don't want this anymore.
Get out of my head!
I scream
And scream
And fucking scream.
I don't care that nobody hears.
But I want myself to listen.
I hurt myself
I'm killing myself.
I scream and my throat is red
With pain.
I cry and my eyes are red
With stings.
I reach out...
I'm holding it out.
I strain to reach for it.
I strain to reach for the door.
So close... so close...
I can make it stop.
I can make it stop.
This pain of mine.
I can feel the grasp in my hands...
And then
My arm falls
In failure
Because I cried out.
Because I'm soaking my face with tears again.
My fragile heart can't take these
Dreams anymore.
They can't take this emotional pain that
Kills my physical comfort.
Will I ever stop feeling like this?
I know my own answer.
I know it will go away.
But for now
I can't do anything
But stay locked behind the door
In this small space
And cry out
And scream.

 

[KrazieDog]

Powerful as usual. I always want to give you a hug Aubrey. 🙂

 

[ticklishscribe]

Awesome, I loved it.​

 

[Dave2112]

I'm so glad you pointed me at these, hun. I've been getting so jaded lately...

Your writings are so rare, because they don't pretend to be anything other than what they are. They're honest and touching, raw and angry, sensitive and vulnerable...without being pretentious, whiny or overwrought.

You already know what I think of that mind and heart, so I shan't go on here. But writings like this just make it moreso.

 

[xionking]

Really beautiful poem, Aubzz...

-Xionking

 

[Marquis De Sade]

Beautifully painful. I can relate to this right now. The trick is to use this as fuel, if you can figure out how. Then again, you did write this so perhaps you already have.

Touched a nerve with this one. Excellent expression. Thanks for sharing.