duderino84
2nd Level Orange Feather
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Basically what I'm saying is, what drives you to it? I mean, beyond it turning us on, which is really more just neurological/ emotional confusion. Like do you think you're vulnerable in this position? Is it kind of like a revenge fantasy? Is it about the lee/Ler, or just yourself?
I think about this sometimes when people get confused about me trying to explain my preferences. I think in a way it's a crutch for building socially, or not being registered socially how I'd like, so in a way it's kind of like a blowing off of anxiety by looking at other people with their guard being flaunted. Like yea I like all the laughing and smiling it causes..... but on a deeper level, I think understanding it is crucial to "growing up" while "growing older". Like if everything is meant to lead to sex, why do I specifically just want this? Why don't I go for that and take that when people literally offer it at times?
I realize life could be so much easier than I've made it by wanting "tickling".
It's a hard pill to take sometimes.
I think about this sometimes when people get confused about me trying to explain my preferences. I think in a way it's a crutch for building socially, or not being registered socially how I'd like, so in a way it's kind of like a blowing off of anxiety by looking at other people with their guard being flaunted. Like yea I like all the laughing and smiling it causes..... but on a deeper level, I think understanding it is crucial to "growing up" while "growing older". Like if everything is meant to lead to sex, why do I specifically just want this? Why don't I go for that and take that when people literally offer it at times?
I realize life could be so much easier than I've made it by wanting "tickling".
It's a hard pill to take sometimes.