For my baby...dead now for twenty years

[melanie2]

Where are you tonight
I long to hold you tight.
My arms enfolding you close
Your sweet smells drifting towards my nose.

Where are you tonight
With the stars that shine so bright?
You chose to leave these earthly cares
I look at your picture and smile thru my tears.

Where are you tonight
The sunshine that was my light
Do you remember me at all
Or was that memory much to small.

Where are you tonight
While the world carries on with might
Do you receive Christmas gifts in Heaven?
For a short time, you were my best gift given.

 

[AnnoXanti]

It's a very moving/touching poem... It brings back one last week of March and sad April... memories much too big. Thanks for sharing.

 

[melanie2]

It's a very moving/touching poem... It brings back one last week of March and sad April... memories much too big. Thanks for sharing.

i've lost three babies all in all..it's something that, although you move on..and live your life..you never quite get over those losses..i don't dwell on it..but at times..like now especially..i do remember..and wonder why...you have to have experienced it yourself to truly understand that it is something you never completely recover from..

 

[Dr. Bill Kobb]

A beautiful and touching poem, Isabeau. There's nothing i can do or say to assuage your loss, and as you pointed out - without experiencing it I can never fully grasp the sadness, but, as a friend, I wish I could hold you and make the cares all go away. :hug:

 

[Hootus1]

Izzy, I am sorry for your loss. Old wounds never heal when they happen around the holidays. I lost my brother on Christmas eve, 2001. I helped carry him to his grave on dec. 30th of that year. Needless to say, I don't look forward to the holidays anymore.

 

[Frost King]

I always enjoy your poems izzy

 

[Journia]

al as al ack

 

[Dave2112]

Very touching and timely. My own have been gone 13 years now, and it's pretty much why I avoid the holidays. It's one thing to sympathize, another to empathize...and I do.

 

[AnnoXanti]

i've lost three babies all in all..it's something that, although you move on..and live your life..you never quite get over those losses..i don't dwell on it..but at times..like now especially..i do remember..and wonder why...you have to have experienced it yourself to truly understand that it is something you never completely recover from..

That one miscarriage I had almost made my 'other half' a widower and 1 child an orphan. Then there was a hollow space after and no one could ever make up for it no matter what...

So I can't imagine losing 3 babies on your end. That would be too much.

 

[vmandude1]

Isabeau....your sorrow shows greatly within the depth of that poem. my sympathy goes out to you in the hopes that your pain may one day be soothed

 

[melanie2]

Thank you guys..and girls..i sometimes get inspired to write a poem..my husband had me create a file of all the poems i've written so far..he thinks they are that good..wow..and yesterday well..it's almost Christmas..and i've never experienced the joy of watching my child open presents...and although it's been quite a while now..some things you just never really get over..deep in your heart i mean..o trust me, i don't dwell on this..of course i don't...and we went the adoption route..which didn't end well..it's just at times like this..and also looking at my great neice's pictures..she's such a cutie..and she is exactly how i had pictured my last baby to look...so sometimes i get reflective..

I'm glad you enjoyed it..and i'm sorry if i brought up bad memories..life is full of good and bad..tragedies happen unfortunately..i've had more than my fair share..but i can tell you from the bottom of my heart...

I have never been happier in my life than i am right now...

 

[Smade1]

A very moving poem.

 

[kopfhorer1]

You're a lot stronger than I thought, Izzy. Three consecutive losses would totally crush me.

I'm glad you've moved on. And I give you my condolences.

 

[babinsky1]

Wow...Great poem..
So sorry to hear of your loses..
Thanks for trusting us enough to share this with us....

 

[HOLLYWOOD]

the hollywood brother is normally all about fun fun fun but after reading your post the hollywood brother can not even begin to imagine the power and strength that you have to keep movng on. the hollywood brother is sorry for the fact that you have had losses but at the same time the hollywood brother admires your ability to keep going in.