I really need someone to talk to.

[voided9]

Does anyone under 30 have Skype? I really need someone to talk to right now, but my friends and family are mostly asleep. I'm having a really, really horrible night

 

[Jagermeistered]

Why under 30? I am 30 and will be 31 in a couple of weeks. Why Skype?

Young people are so emotionally complex.

 

[JohnM87]

I'm alexander.moore45 on Skype but I can only do a text based chat

 

[bri908]

Does anyone under 30 have Skype? I really need someone to talk to right now, but my friends and family are mostly asleep. I'm having a really, really horrible night

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hey there, I'm sorry.................... HUGS

 

[voided9]

Why under 30? I am 30 and will be 31 in a couple of weeks. Why Skype?

Young people are so emotionally complex.

Skype because it's the only chat I have. You want to know why under 30, honestly? Because I am SO TIRED of that question. I was sexually abused as a child by men old enough to be my father so older man make me uncomfortable, is that alright with everyone?

 

[voided9]

Never mind, sorry I even asked for help. Being 1300 miles from home makes things fucking hard.

 

[Jagermeistered]

Skype because it's the only chat I have. You want to know why under 30, honestly? Because I am SO TIRED of that question. I was sexually abused as a child by men old enough to be my father so older man make me uncomfortable, is that alright with everyone?

That is terrible that you went thru that traumatic experience, seriously! I am not saying those wounds will ever heal! However, what will happen when you pass 30 years old? Will old crippled men be your "new disease"? The present will always be the new past, and the future is a new daring day. The past are just demons; they can be in the closet, or out in the open. You have two choices: entrapment or evolve.

 

[Ticklerguy4u]

Skype because it's the only chat I have. You want to know why under 30, honestly? Because I am SO TIRED of that question. I was sexually abused as a child by men old enough to be my father so older man make me uncomfortable, is that alright with everyone?

Sorry to hear you are having a bad night. hopefully you find someone to talk to soon. I can understand why you would keep away from older men. Guys over thirty-- the more you push about it the more uncomfortable she is going to feel---leave it alone.

 

[Gothika]

sorry you had a bad night ..i understand where ya coming from with the under 30 but you gotta face your demons if you ever want things to get better ..we are not here to hurt ya by telling ya this we are a community and are here for each other hope you feel better

 

[maniactickler]

Skype because it's the only chat I have. You want to know why under 30, honestly? Because I am SO TIRED of that question. I was sexually abused as a child by men old enough to be my father so older man make me uncomfortable, is that alright with everyone?

I would suggest professional help for that issue. it will do wonders for you.

 

[bri908]

Skype because it's the only chat I have. You want to know why under 30, honestly? Because I am SO TIRED of that question. I was sexually abused as a child by men old enough to be my father so older man make me uncomfortable, is that alright with everyone?

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Although I am 42 - to hear of this - sickens me -Im sorry it happened to you -here, a HUGE Hug - Hope it helps in some way🙂🙂🙂🙂

 

[voided9]

Thanks guys. I apologize, I don't mean to discriminate. That's not even the problem I was having last night, I have moved 1,300 miles away from ALL of my friends and family and when shit goes down, I have nobody to lean on. I have nobody to go to right now. It was my choice to move, I know I have to live with my mistakes, but I had no idea how awful this was going to be. I'm just a mess sometimes. I have a lot of things I need to deal with, and I will deal with them.

 

[TropicThunder]

That is terrible that you went thru that traumatic experience, seriously! I am not saying those wounds will ever heal! However, what will happen when you pass 30 years old? Will old crippled men be your "new disease"? The present will always be the new past, and the future is a new daring day. The past are just demons; they can be in the closet, or out in the open. You have two choices: entrapment or evolve.

Wow dude.

that's a new level of douchebag.

 

[kopfhorer]

Sorry to hear about what you've been through and what you're now going through.

 

[24hourphil]

Brandi, I'm really sorry to hear of your struggles. I don't know your situation, but I know what it's like to start over in a new place. Great job on reaching out for support. If you ever need a friend to talk to send me a pm. I've always been called Dr. Phil 😛

 

[voided9]

Wow dude.

that's a new level of douchebag.

Thank you for sticking up for me. However, I don't think he meant it to come across as mean. I think he's just saying that, even though things like that are traumatic, it's better to try to work through it than let it affect the way you feel about people for the rest of your life. And he's right.

 

[kis123]

That is terrible that you went thru that traumatic experience, seriously! I am not saying those wounds will ever heal! However, what will happen when you pass 30 years old? Will old crippled men be your "new disease"? The present will always be the new past, and the future is a new daring day. The past are just demons; they can be in the closet, or out in the open. You have two choices: entrapment or evolve.

Have you taken the time to re-read this?

I think you meant well, but it comes off rough at best, and borderline disrespectful to her situation at worst. Having gone through what she's been through (several times I might add), I can understand how she's feeling and why she doesn't want that traumatic trigger pulled again.

Well BrandiElizabeth, I'm neither male or under thirty, but if female and over forty will suffice I'm on skype sometimes late at night too. Shoot me a PM and I can give you my skype address for those days when it can get rough, especially so far away from family and friends.

 

[voided9]

I'm sorry. You guys are just names on a forum, kind people at a distance, I know none of you mean any harm. You have all been so helpful and supportive, despite not knowing what was wrong, and I thank you for that. I won't base things on age here any more except for actual meeting. Thank you guys for being so wonderful.

When I was 12 I started hanging out with an adult female, she was 32. She was a severe alcoholic but was the best friend I had at that point in my life. She was also in a wheelchair [spina bifida left her with no use of her legs] and she depended on me a lot. She'd have me mix drinks for her, even at 12 years old...she even took me to bars, and they let me in because they considered me her "caregiver" or guardian. I was only a kid.

At some point in our relationship, she began to use me as bait for older men, because having me around kept them coming around. They weren't interested in an overweight woman with no feeling in her lower body, but they wanted to be around me. She used that. She let them come over, get drunk, and spend the night, even when I was there. The first man to sexually abuse me was 23 and I was 13. The next one was 44, and the last one was 45. These were men I trusted. The abuse has left me with a lot of issues. Why I didn't stop seeing her, I don't know.. she was all I had. I loved her but she used me. It left me with trust issues, among other things.

I know I need counseling, and I will get it. I have tried to forgive these men, but unfortunately, this all happened in a very small town and I encountered them often. I didn't tell the police because the woman [my 'friend'] asked me not to. At this point it is way too late. I don't believe these men are doing it to anyone else, simply because there are so few young ladies in that town and most of them are not in the position I was.

 

[jhop220]

I'm sorry. You guys are just names on a forum, kind people at a distance, I know none of you mean any harm. You have all been so helpful and supportive, despite not knowing what was wrong, and I thank you for that. I won't base things on age here any more except for actual meeting. Thank you guys for being so wonderful.

When I was 12 I started hanging out with an adult female, she was 32. She was a severe alcoholic but was the best friend I had at that point in my life. She was also in a wheelchair [spina bifida left her with no use of her legs] and she depended on me a lot. She'd have me mix drinks for her, even at 12 years old...she even took me to bars, and they let me in because they considered me her "caregiver" or guardian. I was only a kid.

At some point in our relationship, she began to use me as bait for older men, because having me around kept them coming around. They weren't interested in an overweight woman with no feeling in her lower body, but they wanted to be around me. She used that. She let them come over, get drunk, and spend the night, even when I was there. The first man to sexually abuse me was 23 and I was 13. The next one was 44, and the last one was 45. These were men I trusted. The abuse has left me with a lot of issues. Why I didn't stop seeing her, I don't know.. she was all I had. I loved her but she used me. It left me with trust issues, among other things.

I know I need counseling, and I will get it. I have tried to forgive these men, but unfortunately, this all happened in a very small town and I encountered them often. I didn't tell the police because the woman [my 'friend'] asked me not to. At this point it is way too late. I don't believe these men are doing it to anyone else, simply because there are so few young ladies in that town and most of them are not in the position I was.

Traumatic experiences like these can last a lifetime. The worst thing you could do is allow them to define you as a person. These horrible human beings who did this to you cannot and should not define others in their age category.

I believe you can find strength from within yourself. These cowardly scumbags cannot break your spirit or make you weak. One thing you must understand is that you are better.

Ask yourself..."Will I allow these people to haunt me for the rest of my life?" "Will I give them that satisfaction?" No...you cannot because this life only happens once and you have the strength to say "Fuck YOU! I will not allow these dickheads to haunt me anymore!"

Be strong for yourself, and your future. It is not easy by any means, but you have the strength to do it. Take it...harness it...and never allow them to haunt you again! 🙂

 

[Daedra]

All the best for your new beginning in your new place. Being new somewhere feels akward if there isn't really anybody to talk to, but perhaps you have some amazing people living nearby and you just don't know it yet. 🙂

I'm sorry to hear you've been going through a rough time, Brandi. It's horrible what happened to you and I can understand your experiences have effected your relationships towards others. Realizing that we can live in the here and now can be difficult, but not entirely impossible I think. Telling bad memories to SHUT UP! has helped me a lot already to put some of the past experiences where they belong, in the past, not here with me. I realize seeing them afterwards has complicated everything though. Alcohol and drugs can change a lot of people to the worst. As a child it's certainly nearly impossible to choose the right company.

 

[Jagermeistered]

Brandi, let me first apologize to you in all sincerity. Looking at Kis's reply, she is correct that I should have re-read my post(or, perhaps proofread a lot more closely). Also, agree with TT's sentiment. I will not bore you(Brandi) with my experiences and philosophy. My post is the root of my beliefs(even when traumatic experiences occur); however, I should have not pulled that trigger so quickly, that was my error!

 

[kis123]

Brandi, let me first apologize to you in all sincerity. Looking at Kis's reply, she is correct that I should have re-read my post(or, perhaps proofread a lot more closely). Also, agree with TT's sentiment. I will not bore you(Brandi) with my experiences and philosophy. My post is the root of my beliefs(even when traumatic experiences occur); however, I should have not pulled that trigger so quickly, that was my error!

Thank you.

Especially when she shared her story, it made me weep.

I know you had good intentions.......I don't know you well, but you have a good heart and I know you would never intentionally bring harm to someone else.

Thank you for clearing the air......

 

[voided9]

Brandi, let me first apologize to you in all sincerity. Looking at Kis's reply, she is correct that I should have re-read my post(or, perhaps proofread a lot more closely). Also, agree with TT's sentiment. I will not bore you(Brandi) with my experiences and philosophy. My post is the root of my beliefs(even when traumatic experiences occur); however, I should have not pulled that trigger so quickly, that was my error!

No apology needed, I assumed you didn't mean it to come across as harshly as it sounded. I understand the point you were trying to make, and I agree with what you said.

 

[Canadian_Eh]

I'm sorry. You guys are just names on a forum, kind people at a distance, I know none of you mean any harm. You have all been so helpful and supportive, despite not knowing what was wrong, and I thank you for that. I won't base things on age here any more except for actual meeting. Thank you guys for being so wonderful.

When I was 12 I started hanging out with an adult female, she was 32. She was a severe alcoholic but was the best friend I had at that point in my life. She was also in a wheelchair [spina bifida left her with no use of her legs] and she depended on me a lot. She'd have me mix drinks for her, even at 12 years old...she even took me to bars, and they let me in because they considered me her "caregiver" or guardian. I was only a kid.

At some point in our relationship, she began to use me as bait for older men, because having me around kept them coming around. They weren't interested in an overweight woman with no feeling in her lower body, but they wanted to be around me. She used that. She let them come over, get drunk, and spend the night, even when I was there. The first man to sexually abuse me was 23 and I was 13. The next one was 44, and the last one was 45. These were men I trusted. The abuse has left me with a lot of issues. Why I didn't stop seeing her, I don't know.. she was all I had. I loved her but she used me. It left me with trust issues, among other things.

I know I need counseling, and I will get it. I have tried to forgive these men, but unfortunately, this all happened in a very small town and I encountered them often. I didn't tell the police because the woman [my 'friend'] asked me not to. At this point it is way too late. I don't believe these men are doing it to anyone else, simply because there are so few young ladies in that town and most of them are not in the position I was.

I am so sorry for what you have been through, I can't even begin to tell you how repulsed I am by the woman you were referring to. NOBODY, disabled or not has the right to put something like that on a 12 year old all because you're too lazy to take responsibility of yourself.

As a young women (i'm 28) who also has Spina Bifida and is paralyzed from the the waist down, I can't even believe that someone like that would use another human being in that way.

Clearly this women wasn't confident enough to own who she was as a person and instead used you to get what she wanted. I'm hoping you already do, but please believe that we are not all like this.

It seems I have a connection to this in a way that might be able to help if you would ever like to talk, about anything. I wish there were enough words to tell you how sorry I am.

It kills me to know that people like her in this world are giving other people such as myself and others who don't' go around using people, a very bad name.

I know it must be hard, but know this. Nobody can EVER take away who you are. You're strong, and sometimes when you're at your lowest is when you realize how to be at your strongest.

Please don't hesitate to PM me anytime and I we can talk on Skype anytime you need someone to talk to.


Edit: I kept going back to my post trying to think of more things to say about how sorry I am that you went through this. There is absolutely no excuse for the way you were treated.

Even though i'm nothing like that women, you have my sincerest apologies for the way she treated you. You were a friend, you didn't sign a contract to take care of her. This angers me so much when I hear people who have disabilities taking advantage of those willing to help them.