They are not, they are recent...
I do want her back, but I want her back as I knew her, as the loving and great woman she proved to be, but now it looks like she is not the same person anymore... That is why I have told her that if she does want me back at some point, I will not make it easy for her either, and that she needs to prove certain things first. I don't mean that I would make her jump through hoops and make her crawl her way back, that is not what I want, but I need to know she is still the woman I love.
And I know that love is a game of chance, but it is also a game of effort, and you can't win if you don't play and if you don't try. Just like in poker, it takes skill, but it also takes some nerve to take the risk to see what the next card is, and you can't see that next card if you don't pay. You just might win. But cowards never win.
You can not go into something thinking you are going to lose, the possibility is there, and you'll always know it, but you have to know that what you want is something else, that you want to have it all, otherwise whats the point?
I am willing to risk everything, in fact, I already did, and continue to do it, that's why I'm in such pain and why my heart continues to break... I wish to heaven it were different, but that's how it is... I do hope I can win eventually and tell everyone here about it
Thank you for the reply and your good wishes 🙂
