Looking at the past

[Frost King]

For sometime now i have been really looking at the past thinking how fun and exciting my life was because i really miss some family members that have past away. which makes christmas not so fun and it just seems like my best times are in the past now. i used to have friends that i never see anymore and now just sucks and is boring i don't like to live in the past. i like to look to the future but i just keep looking to the past and its making me real depressed. and plus because i really miss my grandfather and christmas has never been the same since he died. i'm not even really looking forward to christmas anymore i might not even do anything for christmas. but i did hurt someone that cares about me my sister has been trying to comfort me but i kept pushing her away. she kept asking me whats wrong and i'd say nothing. she would say do you want to talk and i would tell her no leave me alone. last night she came up to me and said come on and give me a hug i got mad and said stay out of my damn business and she started to cry and walked away. later i started to feel awful about that i went and told her i'm sorry and that when i feel like talking i will let her know.

 

[hungman1]

Change the style of your music and you will be ok :stickout (sorry for the bad joke..it's just that i am not fond of black metal...hehe). I'm really sorry about your losses, but the experiences you have gained from your previous way of life, the emotions and memories are so valuable that is a pity using them for ruining your present.
Tell you what.. all that you have shared with us above, share them with your sister. As far as i can tell she loves you very much. Spend christmas with her, give her as much hugs as you can 🙂

 

[Frost King]

Thanks hungman i am spending christmas with her thanks for your support🙂