Greetings friends and strangers, it’s been nearly a year since my last update. I don’t really think that this current update is exactly necessary. On account of the fact that not much has happened in my life.
But I kinda just want to talk to you, basically about how I’m standing here on TMF.
If you have for some reason decided to check back and see some of my past posts and such. You will find a lot of them have sort of been erased in a sense.
Why is that?
Well, I originally joined TMF as sort of a persona. Up until around 2018. I was sort of playing a character.
The threads I made were written in a way that would give off a careless and grammatically incorrect manner. ( although, I still have terrible grammar regardless lol.) it wasn’t until late 2017 early 2018 that I actually more or less dropped the character and more or less became myself.
Why did I stop?
A couple of reasons, one was that I was getting tired of the shtick. I wasn’t actively harassing people, but I also wasn’t in a very good frame of mind at the time
Mentally. I had many personally mental heath issues going on and my behavior was childish.
This goes into play with why I sort of lost “interest” in the TMF. Both due to embarrassment of how I acted during this time and still acted like after the matter.
I have always had behavioral issues with the way I handle both my emotions and my impulses. It’s even more embarrassing that as a 51 year old man I need to defend myself for saying and acting like a jackass.
Don’t take this as me asking for pity, basically everyone here is far more mature than I am and have basically moved on, forgot about or just not really given much thought to the ways I acted back than.
That’s really the main reason I’m not nearly as active on TMF as I used to be. I have to keep myself in check so I don’t start fucking around with people because I’m not capable of the forethought of my actions (I’m being very facetious in that statement, I am capable)
So where do I go from here? Well, I’m not exactly leaving TMF. I come on here about once or twice a week and check things out to what’s new. I’ll occasionally leave a comment and start a conversation. But I doubt that I will ever be as active as I once was. I
But I kinda just want to talk to you, basically about how I’m standing here on TMF.
If you have for some reason decided to check back and see some of my past posts and such. You will find a lot of them have sort of been erased in a sense.
Why is that?
Well, I originally joined TMF as sort of a persona. Up until around 2018. I was sort of playing a character.
The threads I made were written in a way that would give off a careless and grammatically incorrect manner. ( although, I still have terrible grammar regardless lol.) it wasn’t until late 2017 early 2018 that I actually more or less dropped the character and more or less became myself.
Why did I stop?
A couple of reasons, one was that I was getting tired of the shtick. I wasn’t actively harassing people, but I also wasn’t in a very good frame of mind at the time
Mentally. I had many personally mental heath issues going on and my behavior was childish.
This goes into play with why I sort of lost “interest” in the TMF. Both due to embarrassment of how I acted during this time and still acted like after the matter.
I have always had behavioral issues with the way I handle both my emotions and my impulses. It’s even more embarrassing that as a 51 year old man I need to defend myself for saying and acting like a jackass.
Don’t take this as me asking for pity, basically everyone here is far more mature than I am and have basically moved on, forgot about or just not really given much thought to the ways I acted back than.
That’s really the main reason I’m not nearly as active on TMF as I used to be. I have to keep myself in check so I don’t start fucking around with people because I’m not capable of the forethought of my actions (I’m being very facetious in that statement, I am capable)
So where do I go from here? Well, I’m not exactly leaving TMF. I come on here about once or twice a week and check things out to what’s new. I’ll occasionally leave a comment and start a conversation. But I doubt that I will ever be as active as I once was. I
