My first post - I think you'll find this interesting.

[tkNUT]

Hello. 31 year old male, ticklee and tickler, but I prefer being the lee.

Now that that's out of the way, I have a serious question, I'd LOVE to hear responses on.

1. Have you ever wished that you did not have a tickling fetish?

2. DO you wish that you did not hove a tickling fetish.

My tickling fetish started when I was about 5 years old. I had two aunts who would hold me down and tickle me senseless on regular occaisions. Hell, all of my aunts did that. And of course, I'd come slinking back in egging them to do it again after I'd escape.

What. The. Fuck?

FIVE years old and doing that sort of thing?

It gets better. I remember thinking, AT THE AGE OF FIVE, that I would like to be tied up in my underwear and tickled.

Again... What. The. Fuck?

Where the hell do five year olds get this shit? I mean, damn.

Anyway, let me answer my own questions. Yes, I wish that I did not have a tickling fetish. For me it's like having an itch that I can never, ever scratch.

The pinnacle of my tickling was one meeting with one of those pay them and they tickle you type things... I left that event with bruises and floating on air. Yes, she tickled so hard that I bruised. I also bruised myself up struggling. She forced me to beg her to tickle me. She forced me to use the word, "Mistress". I have never liked to even type the word mistress, much less be forced to call someone that.

It was and remains the most erotic thing that I've ever done in my life. Yet I have never masturbated to the thoughts of what happened. During the event, much against my will, I was stripped. I had a feeling that was coming - I don't use safe words and refuse to play with safe words. As long as I'm not killed, I'm fine. Even with all of that erotica, I did not once get an erection during the ordeal. And no, I'm not impotent... not at yanking the noodle 7-10 times a week... Not bad for a 31 year old, eh?

Anyway, even to this day I wish that I didn't have this fetish because it's just this itch that I can never get scratched. I've had some girls tie me up and tickle me before, but none of them, not even the one who left bruises, has ever pushed me beyond my limits to get me into a crying, quivering mass of ultimate begging. I have never had my nerve endings crack from continously sending a signal to escape that is never answered.

Your thoughts?

 

[MistressValerie1]

Hi, and welcome to the TT.

I think your experience is not uncommon. I have been fascinated with tickling as long as I can remember, although I cannot recall any triggering event. I kept it a well-hidden secret until I was close to 20, when I began to play around with a boy about my own age.

Because of my strict religious upbringing, I used to regard this urge as a curse. As I began to accept it, I named it "the Dark Gift," but now that I am (coincidentally) 31 myself, and having changed my religious beliefs considerably, I have come to realise that it's something special and should be welcomed and enjoyed 🙂

Best regards,

 

[AcornaMordor]

Don't ask me - I'm traumatized. When I was ousted, and ever since then, I get laughed at for it by my mother who is a bdsm sub and admits to needing to be spanked (ugh not what I wanted to hear from my mother -.-;. )

I often wish I didn't have it because I'm 19 and I live in a small community in the Bible Belt.. this is VERY taboo.. I always curse myself for it and know that my friends that know think I'm weird even though they just went "Oh is -THAT- all?" like they were expecting me to say I wanted to rape a dead body or something.. It's embarrassing, to be turned on by something so.. Childish.

Right now that's a resounding YES on do I wish I didn't have it. But maybe in time it will change.. I'm only 19.. I just need to find someone with whom I can .. appreciate my intrigue (and hopefully his as well)..

 

[tkNUT]

I find it amusing that out of 17 posts, two women replied. What's more interesting is that one of them is 31, like me, and the other is stuck in the bible belt - in the same state, as me.

Equally neat is that one is content with "the dark gift" and the other isn't.

I think looking at it as a "dark gift" is a better way to go about it. See, there's a problem though - once you're over 30, generally that's the end of the dating thing. Even if you still look good (like me), being over 30 is pretty much a death sentence for dating, much less finding a tickler. 99% of the 1% of the good ones are GONE and married with kids at this point. =(

Anyway, Acorna you'll have an easier time with it than most men do. Most men are quite open to being tied up no matter what you want to do. Most women, on the other hand, think it's weird.

The ONE person in "real life" who I told about this fetish ended up using it as a knife against me one day when she got pissed off with me. No, we weren't dating, but in that instant, she ruined 15 years of friendship. We'd been friends since we were 15, dated on 2 occaisions, and were going to agree to marry each other if we didn't tie the knot by the time we were 40. =)

Like one of you, I wish I didn't have this. However... it's refreshing to see that at least there are some women out there who have this, "Dark gift" as well.

 

[nessonite1]

There are a lot of women like us out there. 😛
I have gone through a few periods where I wish this wasn't a part of me. But look at the alternatives. Would you rather be into golden showers? Beastiality? or worst of all...straight missionary nothingness?
Just a note of advise...I dthink more than a few people will be a bit put off by your name. I'd consider changing it if I were you 😛

 

[AcornaMordor]

If I ever end up on the bottom half of a relationship, it'll quickly turn into straight missionary nothingness - I can't function when I'm not in control of what's going on.. and it's hard finding a man willing to give up his ever-inbred dominance over women down here in the south...

 

[-Kunoke-]

I know many people have felt or do feel that they wish they didnt have a tickling fetish, but I don't. Even when I was kind of ashamed, and thinking I was alone in the world, some crazy guy who got turned on by watching someone nearby being tickled, I knew I didnt want to loose that. Back in 8th grade, I had a rough time. My grades were all below C's, my parents divorced, I only had one true friend in my life, and my life sucked. Tickling was my one shelter from life. Something I turned to when I was feeling horrible. To tell the truth, even if it sounds kind of pathetic, I didn't know what a fetish was. In fact, I was just discovering all about matsurbation and stuff. All I knew is that when I tickled people or when I watched someone being tickled, I got this overwhelming feeling of enjoyment. At first, it was pure ecstacy. I would merely look at a picture of someone being tickled online, and my body would tremble in excitement. Then I noticed I'd get hard every time, so I masturbated to it. After I found out what having a fetish meant, my mind started to race. I didn't really notice that it was tickling that was my true fetish at first, actually I thought I just had a foot fetish. But after I started noticing I got turned on by just plain tickling people, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Then I decided I'd keep it private, and just accept it.

After a while though...with the encouragement of people here, I let the word out. I have people willing to let me tickle them for hours, I have friends online who will do shoeplay and other such things on their webcams, and many other things. Now I know I made the right choice. Oh, sorry, it's one of my greatest faults, but I can't seem to shutup once I get started, and this topic just shouted out to me. :happy:

 

[tkNUT]

Yea, I know my name puts people off. It was chosen AGES ago when I started lurking here. Now I just don't feel like going through the trouble of creating a new email account just so I can get a new handle here. Oh well. Maybe a moderator can delete the account and let me use the same email to create a new one?

The odd thing about my name is that I really only enjoy being on the giving end of oral sex. Receiving it really doesn't do much for me.

Anyway, here's another thought.

I wonder why only women have responded to this thread....

And all of the women are primarily ticklers. I too thought it was a foot fetish until it dawned on me that it was the tickling that did it.

For me it's as I said, this itch that can't be scratched. Having a fetish is bearable when you find like minded people. However when you don't find them for years on end, it gets really unbearable. When I do enter a relationship, I am frequently finding a way out of it once I find out that tickling is not ever going to be a part of it. There's like 50 tickler women I think in the entire US. You're a fortunate bunch! ;-)

 

[tkNUT]

You know, another thing. I've combed the web for ages for "getting rid of a fetish".

Guess what? I found nothing. Occaisionally you find some fundamentalist stuff about just praying about it [tried that, it didn't work]. I also do not think that this sort of hard wiring of the mind is possible to be reversed.

 

[BBWticklee1973]

First off, welcome to the community!

Secondly, let me say I'm 31 as well and didn't really realize my fetish until about two years ago. I've always loved to be tickled though since early childhood and even in adult relationships. With that said, when I first encountered tickling a couple years ago, my initial thought was that I was weird to actually be aroused by such a thing and the fact that I couldn't get it out of my head was even more disturbing at least in my mind at the time. It took me a good year to actually do the search online and then I was shocked to see how much was out there and with that I accepted the fact that I had the fetish and that it is a huge part of my life. I haven't looked back since.

To answer you questions, no I have never wished I didn't have the fetish and I still do not wish it away. It is a huge part of me, and I refuse to analyze it or hide it away, especially when I think it is harmless and could really care less what other people think. It's part of me and will be part of me no matter what I'm doing and in any relationship I'm in. If someone cannot accept that, they know where the door is. Just my two cents. 😀

 

[Yet_One_More_Idiot]

Hi, welcome! 🙂
I'm 21, - no I'm not, I'm 22, I can't even remember my own age! 😛 - and I'm quite happy with the fact that I have a tickling fetish, always have been. That said, I've never even considered the possibility of revealing it to anyone I know in the real world.
My friends would probably be pretty cool about it (though they may think I'm a little weird, I think they think that already anyway, lol), I can't even imagine how my family would react - my sister would think I'm weird, that much I am certain of, 'cos I told her once that I was writing a PPG tickling fic and she started teasing me about it. Luckily, she's forgotten that conversation. 🙂
But no, I'm happy that it's a part of me, and I'd never try to get rid of it. Everything that's a part of me, no matter how kinky it may be, is still a part of me, and that's what makes me what I am. 😀 But being rather an introvert means I'll unlikely ever come "out of the closet" about it, so to speak...

 

[tkNUT]

koopacooper:

You need to heed some advice. You're 22. Sure, that's a mere 9 years younger than me. Trust me about this though... You should REALLY make the most of time. Read this. I know you've read it before, but this time REALLY read it:

To the Virgins, to make much of Time

GATHER ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old Time is still a-flying:
And this same flower that smiles to-day
To-morrow will be dying.

The glorious lamp of heaven, the sun,
The higher he 's a-getting,
The sooner will his race be run,
And nearer he 's to setting.

That age is best which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times still succeed the former.

Then be not coy, but use your time,
And while ye may, go marry:
For having lost but once your prime,
You may for ever tarry.

Ok, you should especially read the last stanza. I STRONGLY recommend that you not keep this fetish in the closet. I wouldn't tell family that it "gets you aroused" or even broach the topic with them. But as far as people you're dating, well, you should at least mention it. If you don't, you'll end up like me - 31 and wishing you did NOT have this fetish. Dating is pretty much overwith at 30.

You have 8 more years. Make the best of them.