Need help

[Lynchy]

Okay... I didn't put this in the tk discussion thingy coz it isn't really about... that. But as for sexuality on the whole, I'm REALLY struggling with guilt.

The Tickling thing I'm... kind of okay with, since I know I can come here and it's my little safe haven. I still have to hide it from friends and family and that upsets me... but they wouldn't get it. I guess it's the case with fetish, right? If it doesn't appeal, you don't really get it. I don't get why people like feet, but that's just me...

Anyways... arg I'm messing this up... PLEASE KEEP READING because I really need help with this. I have a fetish for something else, something that I'm really disgusted with myself about. It's seing people get knocked out by something, like chloroform or gas or... whatever. The thing is, I have a really close friend who has confided in me about the horrific abuse she suffered when she was younger... and one of the things she had done to her was being chloroformed and taken somewhere for... the rest of it...

I won't go into details, but let me just say that Satanic peadophiles are... not very nice people.

I just feel so shit now, because this thing that I find a turn on is so... horrible! I mean, a little girl being drugged and kidnapped is NOT for me, if anything I'd just get really angry and go on a rampage... but I feel so guilty that this thing that probably goes on a lot is... my fetish.🙁

Yes, I know the difference between what's okay in fantasy and okay in real life. I don't go around tickling people that's for sure! But this has really hit me, and I don't know how to handle it. I'm sure others here must have struggled with similar things... what did you do?

I'm only 19 too, so I'm really mixed up and confused. I just need someone to talk to about this stuff who won't judge me, and I figured this is a good place for it.

 

[aphrael]

surely if its just a fantasy thing and youre not really hurting anyone then its okay, right?
but if you need to talk to someone you can always email *me* if you like [email protected]

 

[kurchatovium]

I felt guilty about loving tickling because in real life I would never want to hurt anyone. I felt very guilty. I guess especially being Catholic. It was when after many years I acknowledged to myself that I was basically a very good person that I was able to move on. I think we all have "little demons" inside us that need to be placated to keep us sane. Perhaps this choroform thing is your "little demon". However I would say the fact that you felt so bad about the problems your friend had means you are a good person. That is the difference. Bad people don't worry about others or their feelings. First you must get to like yourself then the rest will follow. If you are as compassionate a person as I think that should not be too hard. 😀 Take care.

 

[Myriads]

Fetish generation is pretty random. What will imprint is difficult to call.

Here is an exercise.


Let's take a look at your chloroform fantasy.

What about it exactly is the exact part that provokes arousal?

Is it the sight of the woman passing out?

Is it the fact that she has been made helpless?

Is it the struggle that she puts up as she succomes?

Is it a combination?

Like tickling this is a control fetish. They share some of the same root arousal cues.

Since you are not planning to abduct women or act on it it's just fantasy. Harmony often uses this chloro aspect in it's abducted damsels videos and FM has done some total chloro fantasy videos so there is material out there for you to enjoy.

You seem to have a good perspective on it (you feel badly for a woman who had a real experience) so don't worry. Try to understand it, and then enjoy.

Myriads