RUNOFFSTAGE
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Perhaps it’s time for me to share a little more info about myself. Most of you know that my name is Sanna, that I’m 18 years old and that I live at World’s end – Sweden. Here comes a bit more info, and the one who can read the whole thing will get a medal and some bandages for his/her bleeding eyes.
I have no idea where to start, but to give a little background; I’ve lived with my mother and her family most of my life and she has given me all I’ve ever wanted, except for one thing – love. My father has always lived in the area, but never really been around.
Music has always been a big part of my life. I play the saxophone, alto, and have done so for the past eight years. I participate in a local big band and our marching band as well. I listen to all kinds of music, as long as the singer is male, but the genres I cling to the most are depressive/suicidal black metal and singer/songwriter. Quite the contrast, don’t you think?
In school, I’ve chosen the civics path, with emphasis on culture. We are a small, but close, class with only three people – that has both upsides and downsides. I wouldn’t consider myself all that stupid as some of my grades say I am, I’m just too lazy to really do something about it. I’ve completely lost my will to learn things and I’m hoping to get it back when I’m moving to the States in August, to study photojournalism. Watch out California, here I come!
Now for the juicier part of my life:
One day, when I was about 15, I had the house (and computer) to myself. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out what my Google search word of the day was. That’s right – tickling. I tried it in both Swedish and English, and soon discovered that there actually were thousands of pages containing the word. Girls who said they hated it when their boyfriends did it to them, guys and girls who searched for someone who wanted their feet tickled, and then there was the Tickling Media Forum. I entered and felt somewhat like a criminal (I do have a conscience, somewhere), and at the same time I was surprised and excited about the fact that so many others liked tickling in the same way I did.
So that was three, nearly four, years ago. I couldn’t visit as much as I do now, since we had a shared computer and I was too afraid that I’d forget to delete the internet history. The summer before my 18th birthday, I finally got my own laptop and I could register on the TMF. Back then, I mainly did it for the tickling pictures and clips, but also to check out the general discussion, the silly stuff forum, and just be jealous about the fact that they had friends they could talk about tickling with, they had a strong bond with one another, and I thought it looked great.
When I turned 18, I figured I would give posting a try, and long story short – that changed my life entirely. I am more open and I am able to show people how I feel in a new way. I still don’t allow myself to cry in front of other people or talk about my feelings without anyone asking me to, but I have made progress. I am, for the first time in my life, able to interact in English with others; something that I have dreaded my whole life. I can look myself in the mirror some mornings and know that I’m loved for who I am, and that spot in my face won’t change that fact.
I love this forum and all the amazing personalities I face here, every single day. You are the kind of people who catch me when I fall, ask how I feel and listen to the answer, but the greatest thing of all is that you make me feel appreciated and loved for who I am.
I know this text was supposed to be about me, but you have been a big part of my life for the past year, and hopefully many more to come.
Thank you for contributing in your own ways, and I love you all to pieces.
Sanna
I have no idea where to start, but to give a little background; I’ve lived with my mother and her family most of my life and she has given me all I’ve ever wanted, except for one thing – love. My father has always lived in the area, but never really been around.
Music has always been a big part of my life. I play the saxophone, alto, and have done so for the past eight years. I participate in a local big band and our marching band as well. I listen to all kinds of music, as long as the singer is male, but the genres I cling to the most are depressive/suicidal black metal and singer/songwriter. Quite the contrast, don’t you think?
In school, I’ve chosen the civics path, with emphasis on culture. We are a small, but close, class with only three people – that has both upsides and downsides. I wouldn’t consider myself all that stupid as some of my grades say I am, I’m just too lazy to really do something about it. I’ve completely lost my will to learn things and I’m hoping to get it back when I’m moving to the States in August, to study photojournalism. Watch out California, here I come!
Now for the juicier part of my life:
One day, when I was about 15, I had the house (and computer) to myself. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out what my Google search word of the day was. That’s right – tickling. I tried it in both Swedish and English, and soon discovered that there actually were thousands of pages containing the word. Girls who said they hated it when their boyfriends did it to them, guys and girls who searched for someone who wanted their feet tickled, and then there was the Tickling Media Forum. I entered and felt somewhat like a criminal (I do have a conscience, somewhere), and at the same time I was surprised and excited about the fact that so many others liked tickling in the same way I did.
So that was three, nearly four, years ago. I couldn’t visit as much as I do now, since we had a shared computer and I was too afraid that I’d forget to delete the internet history. The summer before my 18th birthday, I finally got my own laptop and I could register on the TMF. Back then, I mainly did it for the tickling pictures and clips, but also to check out the general discussion, the silly stuff forum, and just be jealous about the fact that they had friends they could talk about tickling with, they had a strong bond with one another, and I thought it looked great.
When I turned 18, I figured I would give posting a try, and long story short – that changed my life entirely. I am more open and I am able to show people how I feel in a new way. I still don’t allow myself to cry in front of other people or talk about my feelings without anyone asking me to, but I have made progress. I am, for the first time in my life, able to interact in English with others; something that I have dreaded my whole life. I can look myself in the mirror some mornings and know that I’m loved for who I am, and that spot in my face won’t change that fact.
I love this forum and all the amazing personalities I face here, every single day. You are the kind of people who catch me when I fall, ask how I feel and listen to the answer, but the greatest thing of all is that you make me feel appreciated and loved for who I am.
I know this text was supposed to be about me, but you have been a big part of my life for the past year, and hopefully many more to come.
Thank you for contributing in your own ways, and I love you all to pieces.
Sanna
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, cause in nine months you are all ours! 
If that hadn't happened, I would probably have gone back into lurk-mode after a day or two... so again, thank you.
