Something I wanted to share.

[Desparting297]

7 years ago today I lost my best friend and only girl I've ever truly loved to suicide. To this day there isn't day that goes by that goes by that I don't think of her and miss her terribly. Although she was a chav sort of person, she introduced me to Within Temptation and this particular song "Our Farewell" was given to me by her to listen to at my down times to always think of her and it's never left me since. So I now play this every year in her memory and tribute. Sammy I miss you so much and wish you were here as you've missed so much, I wouldn't have become half the person I am if it wasn't for you, you taught me how to be brave, strong and never let anyone tell me any different to what I believe in. You gave me so much support and always put others before yourself. Gone but never forgotten, I love and miss you beautiful :'(

18/10/86 - 20/07/13

http://youtu.be/h5EAFh8uWnk

 

[theteam]

*hugs* Hope you are alright my friend 🙂

 

[paracarl44]

It is always so tragic when someone ends their life without having someone to talk their problems through.

 

[Bugman]

Sorry to hear this. 🙁

 

[Jagermeistered]

It is always so tragic when someone ends their life without having someone to talk their problems through.

That is cold! She lost her Best Friend by suicide. I lost my best friend, because his mother accidentally ran over his head in 1991.

Your statement is adding to her grief! She said that was her best friend! She would have been there if she could! Please, retract your post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That was a terrible thing to say! 🙁

 

[Jagermeistered]

7 years ago today I lost my best friend and only girl I've ever truly loved to suicide. To this day there isn't day that goes by that goes by that I don't think of her and miss her terribly. Although she was a chav sort of person, she introduced me to Within Temptation and this particular song "Our Farewell" was given to me by her to listen to at my down times to always think of her and it's never left me since. So I now play this every year in her memory and tribute. Sammy I miss you so much and wish you were here as you've missed so much, I wouldn't have become half the person I am if it wasn't for you, you taught me how to be brave, strong and never let anyone tell me any different to what I believe in. You gave me so much support and always put others before yourself. Gone but never forgotten, I love and miss you beautiful :'(

18/10/86 - 20/07/13

http://youtu.be/h5EAFh8uWnk

I am so sorry for your loss. 🙁

 

[Desparting297]

It is always so tragic when someone ends their life without having someone to talk their problems through.

I'd have done anything, ANYTHING to have kept her from killing herself. I'd have jumped infront of a bullet for her if it meant she'd live her life much better than I can do. She always knew she could've come to me if she needed to talk about anythinf and i have done my best when I could. I didn't know she'd cone to doing what she did. You don't think I live everyday carrying the biggest regret of my life? I suffer with depression a lot worse because of this wishing there was more I could've done.

 

[Mitchell]

Hyper, I'm so sorry for your loss.

While my situation was a bit different than yours was.. I actually understand about losing the person you loved most in the world, and wishing there was more you could have done.

I don't know how closely you've read my posts.. but.. my mom, who I was extremely close to, passed away of cancer 15 months ago. I'm an only child, and I dealt with her illness all alone for over two years, because my father, and all my other worthless relatives.. bailed on me while my mom was ill.

We took extreme measures to try and deal with her illness. We lived in PA at the time my mom got sick, and she found a Dr in NJ who we had confidence in. We lived in NJ for three months in summer of 2011, as my mom was treated for her illness. As I've documented before, my actions during that time were.. less than supportive.. as I found it very difficult to have to deal with everything all alone, not to mention the fact that I almost died of a seizure myself while we were there.

Her Drs lectured me about my behavior. They told me that God was going to take her, as punishment to me. We were told she was fine, and that her lung cancer had been "cured", only to find three months later that it had spread to her brain. She died six weeks later. On the morning they pronounced her dead.. I wished it was me.

I don't know your specific situation..but.. you seem like a good guy to me.. I understand the idea of blaming yourself when the person you love the most in the world dies. Shortly before my mom died, the night before, in fact, a kind chaplin sat with us.. and was talking to my mom and me. He told me that the only thing those who are left behind can do, when the person they loved most in the world dies, is to cherish the memories of their times with that person. As I'm sure she loved you, I'm sure your friend would want you to do that, and not blame yourself. Every clergy I've spoken to since my mom's death has told me this.

I hope what I'm saying is of at least some comfort.

 

[WriterOfSin]

I'm sorry to hear that, Hyper. It's not a great thing, contemplating what she had the conviction to do. I've been there for my own reasons, and obviously I didn't do it. All I will say is; don't blame yourself. She wouldn't want you doing that. There's a lot of reasons to do what Sammy did, and only the worst of us would do it to hurt another. She was your friend, and she cared for you. Care for her, and be the happiest you can. That'd be all those who have left us need for those they leave behind.

You know what, as I read what I read, I realise I don't know if some stranger's words on the internet mean anything to you. They probably shouldn't. But still, may your friend rest happy in memory.

 

[BigJim]

I'm so sorry to hear that, Hyper. It's a very sad thing to lose someone in that manner and I hope you'll draw enough strength to build on the future.