Dave2112
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Greetings one and all. First off, I would like to apologize for the delay in bringing you this new installment of TQWD. There have been a few hold-ups, and things rarely go as planned in our online lives.
Fear not, as I've made up for it by bringing you an interview with someone very special. I love all of the interviews I've done, but every once in awhile I get a chance to sit down with someone very dear to me, someone who challenges my interviewing process simply by being who she is. We all have at least one thing in common around here, our love of tickling, but this wonderful lady also shares my particular attraction to not only tickling, but bondage and the Dom/Sub dynamic as a lifestyle.
Also, as you will note, I have begun to expand a bit on my "Ten Questions" format. Rather than ten specific questions, I often find myself needing to roll a few questions into one, as the particular topic may be a bit broader than a single question can touch upon. So, you'll probably notice the format being a bit more "Ten Topics" and a tad less "Ten Questions".
Ok, shut the hell up, Dave! We wanna here what our lovely lady friend has to say! Ok, without further ado, I bring you a few moments with Bella!
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1) Let's jump right into it first, shall we? We've been chatting about this, so let's give you an opportunity to answer a few people (you know who you are...) about your place among the Dom/Sub hierarchy. Officially, I know you as a "switch". This is a rather interesting position, and I don't think I've interviewed a true switch yet. How do you "divide up the time", so to speak? When are you most comfortable as a Domme, and under what circumstances are you Submissive? How does all of this manifest itself in the balance between your "video life" and your personal life?
Now this is a great question, because quite a few folks have asked me to 'splain this 🙂. I'm considered a true switch because I'm a service-oriented submissive with *very* strong dominant tendencies that equal/rival my sub side. Friends have said I'd have been great as 1st Kadin (wife) in a harem; submissive and obedient to the Sultan, but firm and in control of his entire household and all of the other women. There's a lot of truth in that, and that's basically how my personal life works. The time divides itself naturally, because I tend to be automatically dominant with those more submissive than myself-things just fall into place. I believe my personality shifts based on what my role needs to be: if I'm with one of the Alpha Males in my life my mind can relax and let them take the lead, while if I know I'm the more dominant between myself and others my dom side takes charge as it needs to. When I'm with my husband or my Top for instance, my sub nature just flows as it should. OTOH, when I have a bound little 24 yr old with their bare toes in my lap, the Bella you see topping on video does what she wants to do
. To be blunt, I'm most comfy as my Domme self when my Alphas are nowhere near me; her independence clashes with my sub self's desire to be guided and obedient. Having said that, I work quite well with an Alpha provided I know what's expected of me and how far I'm allowed to go on my own. As a video bottom it's important that I have an Alpha 'ler, preferably male, or it's just not going to work; other than certain VERY dominant women my immediate reaction with another female, or a male who isn't truly dominant, is to pull my Houdini act and get loose, pounce, and make things right. Hmm...that's a damn fine premise for a video actually...
2) You have a very unique position here on the TMF and within the community. Being female, a video producer, a Moderator, a true lifestyle player, a parent and a person of color...you have insight into the wide range of topics that permeate our forum. Are there any of these "positions" that you more strongly advocate when involving yourself in various threads? Have any of these positions offered any stumbling blocks, so to speak, that you've had to overcome when interacting with the wide range of folks here? And finally, are there one or two of these parts of your life that you more strongly associate yourself with?
Wow, look at me being all multi-faceted and stuff 🙂 . I become a strong advocate of any of these parts of my life if they come under attack by the ignorant. And yes, I used the term ‘ignorant’. I don’t suffer fools well, you know this. When folks decide to condemn and judge aspects of my life with which they have zero first hand experience…I get a lil’ cranky. And verbose. I don’t post nearly as often as I could, I’m actually pretty content to sit back and peruse a thread on a topic somehow relevant to my personal life until utterly untrue nonsense is spouted under the guise of fact; then I’m likely to dive in and add reality and actual knowledge to the discussion.
The stumbling block that I constantly have to leap over is the fact that I do all of the unusual/alternative things that I do, yet I’m still a normal human being (whatever the heck ‘normal’ is). It can be very difficult for people to comprehend that yes, I can be polyamorous and a fetish film producer and a BDSMmer along with being a happily married wife of 14 yrs and a mama of two, who works from her home in the ‘burbs and spends most of her day with her children. My life makes perfect sense to me, and to those who really know me and spend time with me, but for some the factors just don't add up and they don't know how to classify me. My advice? Avoid labels, they narrow the box too much 🙂
I’m definitely a wife and mama over and above the other parts of my life, I pretty much live for my husband and our little girls; being the Mom of my household is what I always wanted and I’m blessed to have it. That doesn’t mean I can’t take off my apron, wipe the cookie dough off my fingers and go tie up a cute lil’ subbie for an hour or two (or get tied and ravished myself), life was meant to be complex 😉
3) Ok, let's move onto the really fun stuff...tickling helpless Subbies. As a woman and a Dominant (at least in your video sessions), how do you feel you approach tickling a bound Sub differently than a man would? What are the differences in the overall dynamic of the experience...for both of you, actually?
Honestly, I’m such a hungry predator when in Domme mode that I doubt my approach is that much different, I want the same deliciously pitiful begging and utter submission that you or Jeff or Max would 😎 . As a switch and the proud owner of a female body, I do think I know of a few ultra sensitive locations (I despise the phrase ‘tickle spot’, I don’t know why) that I rarely see a male ‘ler , or a female ‘ler who isn’t really a tk-phile, properly exploit. OR, they know of those areas but graze over them entirely too quickly, when lingering and really attending that place would build up to quite the insane reaction from your girl.
I do believe that I can often get away with being myself more on camera, behaving with a bit less inhibition, than male ‘lers. For example, while I’m constantly hearing that male ‘lers should be quiet and show as little of themselves as possible onscreen, customers really want to hear me banter and verbally torment and harass my girls to my heart’s content. And while they complain about the male ‘ler’s “ugly face and hairy ass in shorts” in their line of vision, I get many, many requests to show more of my face, my bare feet, and other portions of my anatomy along with the action. On or off camera I know that my ‘lees are just a bit more relaxed with me, at least the first time we play (before they know better 😉 ). I’m under five feet tall with Gary Coleman cheeks, my ‘lees are usually way taller and stronger (so they think, ha) than I am. And I’m another female; I’m just not threatening or imposing the way a male who wants to tie you down can be, so it can be a shock when instead of some sweet, light baloney fingernail-and-feather tickling they’re treated to *everything* I’ve learned from the male tops in my life. And I was a damn good student. Nickie, in my Tickled Nickie clips, is actually a Domme; she knew me only as a submissive in our local BDSM community and did NOT expect what she got that night, and definitely didn’t expect her small, malnourished submissive side to pop out and bloom for me the way it did; it’s still one of my favorite sessions ever. We (my cameraman, my shibari bondager, my webslave who’s home we were using and his roommate) all sat and had chinese food after that shoot; I’ll never forget Nickie sitting in a daze, still tied around her waist, with her plate on her lap silently staring at me as though I’d grown a second head 😎
4) Staying on the topic of Domming in sessions, we have spoken a bit about doing a session together sometime in the future. How would a Domme like yourself go about double-teaming a helpless Subbie with a reaction-junkie Dom like myself? What do you see as the balance and/or wide range of possibility that a woman and a man, a switch and an all-the-time Dom can bring to a one-Sub session? In essence, I've seen some double-teams on video that are just "adding another tickler". (But not all, by any means.) How would you go about getting everything you can out of the experience and making it different?
The possibilities really are endless for this type of session, which btw I plan to film as often as I can. One aspect of BellaRisa that my fans love is the fact that I usually top women with whom I’m already good friends (the one exception so far was my cheerleader, whom I met at a local goth bar and hired on the spot when I heard her giggle). That means I ‘know’ them, I’ve frequently watched them bottom and often topped them myself several times, and I can direct another dominant on exactly how to make them scream or sigh for us. One of my favorite ways to play is a take on Good Cop/Bad Cop, it’s more Sadistic Dom/Sensual Switch. The Dom can be at her feet doing absolutely horrible things while I’m lying next to her, bodies pressed against each other, soothing her and stroking her sweaty brow with one hand while gently stroking those smooth underarms, and other yummy parts, with the other
. Being a switch, I can also take direction from the Dom while still topping the ‘lee; the dynamic is just hot. Not too long ago I had the pleasure of topping a more submissive girlfriend with one of my favorite Doms, we were kneeling over either side of her on a large bed; at one point he grabbed me (nicely) by the ponytail and buried his lips and tongue into my ridiculously ticklish neck over her bound body while I continued to use my toes to tickle her underarm, it was *intense* and a great scene and one I am SO planning to shoot.
5) Since you have such a wide range of experience to draw from, tell us about your best, or most intense BDSM experiences from both sides of your personality and practice, both Dom and Sub. What made each so special?
Wow. This being my 9th year in the Lifestyle I have quite a few special memories, I’ll pick one from each side of my coin. Domme-wise: the one and only time one of my favorite Tops let me tie and tickle him. He’s rather large and strong, very much resembling Odd Job from the Bond films but even stronger. Luckily so was the rope. This was beyond special because of the incredible amount of trust he was showing; as a Dom-Daddy type with only the ‘tiniest’ of switch inside him, it was highly irregular for him to bottom to anyone, much less one of his ‘little girls’. And frankly he was/is unspeakably ticklish, so this was going to be rough and he knew it. But, he wanted to see what I could do. So I showed him (heh). He’d never been seriously tickled before, and had certainly never experienced tickling mixed with orgasm control. He was gagged and bound with his wrists together but his ankles spread eagle, and I spent the better part of an hour using my nails, a hairbrush and my lips and teeth all over his desperate-to-escape body. I am truly amazed we didn’t break that bed. At least 3 times I used my mouth and hands to bring him sooooo close…but returned to tickling instead of letting him finish. Over and over and over. At one point I recall using my knuckles and nails in those obscenely ticklish joints between leg and thigh while I did…other things…and he actually screamed like a girl into the ball gag we were using. It was *fabulous*. I, um…paid for that later. It was definitely worth it. And to this day all I have to do to earn a seriously hard spanking from him is mention that long, rainy afternoon... >🙂
On the submissive side: I’ve have many that were intense, but one that was truly special was a night about 5 yrs ago: After having broken up (for an absolutely ridiculous reason) with my Dominant for several painful months, we began to speak again, tentatively but the love was still there. I was going to a BDSM party, and though it wasn’t his style (he prefers the ‘50’s Ricky-spanks Lucy type of romantic play) he agreed to meet me there to talk more. He did; in fact when my blindfold was removed from a session with another Dom, my own Sir was standing in front of me holding it; that was wonderful. We hadn’t seen one another for an entire summer June to September, and we were just hungry to touch, hug…play. We did play a bit, then went to a very fun 1am breakfast with a bunch of other friends. Afterwards we drove together in his car to the home of the friend with whom we were supposed to stay overnight, but our friend had forgotten to leave his key for me in the hiding place and didn’t hear us or his phone. And then it started to rain. HARD. So we ran back to the car and leaned the front seats all the way back, and I thought we’d snuggle and fall asleep until morning. Um, wrong
. Just as we were drifting off mid-conversation, it occurred to him that his submissive, whom he outweighs by at least 100 lbs and hadn’t enjoyed in months, was stuck with him in a very small space with no one to hear her screaming…
That may be the longest night of my life. I mean that. It was the closest I ever want to come to actually meeting the Boogey Man that’s hiding under every submissive’s bed. Trapped in a small space with the one sadist who knows your body better than you do...oy. I can’t even tell you when the tickling became spanking and morphed back into tickling, and how many times that cycle was repeated…my god. At one point, with my body tightly jammed between the two front seats and him wrenching absolute screams from me just squeezing the backs of my thighs and using a car key to draw circles behind my knees... I know that I would have promised anything, agreed to anything…I truly believe that’s the most submissive I’ve ever been. And I remember finally, finally being allowed to sleep, curled on top of him, listening to my own breathing come down from major hysteria while the rain stormed down all around us, and feeling so…owned…and safe and cherished and loved. We were *back*, we were us. I felt...reclaimed. If you’re not a Dom or a sub I don’t know if I can explain it, but if you are, you totally get it 🙂
6) Ok, let's move on to some other stuff. What else about Bella do we not know? Hmmm....here's one. I asked Ray this one back in my first interview, and have been dying to bring the question back for the right person. You win, little lady...he he he. What was the dumbest thing you've ever done, fully knowing before hand that it was a stupid thing to do?
Y'know, I’d love to have you ask my husband, my boyfriend and my best friend this question about me and see what they’d each say >😉 .
Meanwhile: I have to say the period of life wherein I nearly failed out of college. My family was falling apart (long horrid story) during my freshman year; my parents (mom and her lover of 12 yrs) were breaking up, and I discovered my mother’s drug addiction in a rather harsh way one week before school started. I went off to school, but instead of seeking help of some kind I literally shut down; I became a different person and simply didn’t go to classes except for theatre, Spanish, and horseback riding (it was Vermont, they give you apples and syrup and a horse when you get there). I knew full well, somewhere in my mind, that I was ruining my chances of…whatever the hell I wanted…but I just didn’t care, I spent my days with whichever of my new theatre friends wasn’t in class at the time and my nights devouring Stephen King books and crying. I barely got through those first two years, and left the summer after sophomore year before I could be asked to do so. The happy ending was that, completely unexpectedly and to the utter shock of all our friends, my platonic-as-hell best guy friend from theatre became my first real boyfriend that summer. We started a relationship in May and he proposed that September, we married the following August. I took two yrs off to separate from the issues at home while living in Vermont and enjoying safe and unconditional love, then went back to school and graduated with mostly A’s. And yes, I’m still happily married to that guy 😀
7) What is your deepest, darkest fear? The one thing that can make you go batshit just thinking about it?
Being helpless to stop someone who's hurting my daughters. I've had seriously horrible nightmares about it since becoming a mama ten yrs ago.
I also have VERY wrong, weird recurrent dreams about being trapped in a nearly pitch black filthy and slimy sewer, barefoot, with no way out and Someone after me. Oh, and there are possums in the sewer water. I HATE possums…
8) What are your interests outside of "the lifestyle"? What sort of things keep you occupied that have nothing to do with rope, tape and helpless Subs?
I have my toes in quite a few pots these days... along with the whole wife and work-at-home mom dealie running a vanilla business as well as BellaRisa: I'm an amateur baker and cake decorator, amateur belly dancer, an aspiring children's author, a **major** fan of good stand-up comedians like Louis CK and Patton Oswalt and John Pinette, I read everything by Dave Barry I can find, I expect to be working on a doctorate in counseling psychology in the next few years, and currently I'm painting and/or redecorating every room in my little house in the 'burbs plus my backyard...I, um, don't sleep 😛
9) If you could have any one superhuman ability, what would it be and why?
Flight. I know, how common of me. But I'm a dedicated swoop-junkie; that first big dive on a 'coaster is my absolute favorite feeling in the world, when I can combine it with tickling and dark chocolate I'll be done asking life for things. Being able to soar and dive that way is a desire I've had since very early childhood. In fact, I always bottom wearing a blindfold because the state of mind and place becomes so similar.
10) And finally, our ever-popular Question Ten...but I'm gonna throw you a curve ball on this one, just to keep things interesting. Usually, I'd ask which three people from any point in history you'd have over for dinner. For this one...let's make it fictional characters from any genre. Who's coming and why?
This was just plain tough, there are entirely too many beloved characters I’d love to meet and feed at my table. But for now:
1. Brock Sampson of the Venture Brothers. My borderline-unhealthy crush aside, I would truly enjoy sitting and talking for an evening with him; a special agent who’s worked for Dr. Venture for yrs and lives next door to Dr. Orpheus? Good lord would that would be an amazing conversation.
2 Wolverine. Do I really have to elaborate?
I’ve come close (waves to a certain beloved fellow Mod), but I would love to have Logan at my table for a night and listen to his words, his story, his way, and keep his beer glass full and his cigar lit…
3. Nick Charles, of the Thin Man books and films. Brilliant detective, my sense of humor and a true zest for living. And married to Nora, whom I still want to be when I grow up( and whom I’d add as the only female if you allowed me a 4th guest). Not only would I adore spending an evening in his company, but having him with the other two to serve my best cooking while being privy to their discussions of bringing down criminals of literally all kinds…that’s a many a subbie girl’s dream dinner !
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I would like to sincerely thank Bella for her time and the thought that I happen to know she put into this. (Actually guys....shhhhh....she's the reason for at least one week of this feature being late...just don't say anything or she'll try and spank me.) Just kiddin', sweetness.
I am very glad that someone of such high standing within our community did take all the time she needed to bring her innermost thoughts to us. This was an enlightening interview for me personally, and I hope you all feel the same. Until next time....Fastisio! 😀
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Fear not, as I've made up for it by bringing you an interview with someone very special. I love all of the interviews I've done, but every once in awhile I get a chance to sit down with someone very dear to me, someone who challenges my interviewing process simply by being who she is. We all have at least one thing in common around here, our love of tickling, but this wonderful lady also shares my particular attraction to not only tickling, but bondage and the Dom/Sub dynamic as a lifestyle.
Also, as you will note, I have begun to expand a bit on my "Ten Questions" format. Rather than ten specific questions, I often find myself needing to roll a few questions into one, as the particular topic may be a bit broader than a single question can touch upon. So, you'll probably notice the format being a bit more "Ten Topics" and a tad less "Ten Questions".
Ok, shut the hell up, Dave! We wanna here what our lovely lady friend has to say! Ok, without further ado, I bring you a few moments with Bella!
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1) Let's jump right into it first, shall we? We've been chatting about this, so let's give you an opportunity to answer a few people (you know who you are...) about your place among the Dom/Sub hierarchy. Officially, I know you as a "switch". This is a rather interesting position, and I don't think I've interviewed a true switch yet. How do you "divide up the time", so to speak? When are you most comfortable as a Domme, and under what circumstances are you Submissive? How does all of this manifest itself in the balance between your "video life" and your personal life?
Now this is a great question, because quite a few folks have asked me to 'splain this 🙂. I'm considered a true switch because I'm a service-oriented submissive with *very* strong dominant tendencies that equal/rival my sub side. Friends have said I'd have been great as 1st Kadin (wife) in a harem; submissive and obedient to the Sultan, but firm and in control of his entire household and all of the other women. There's a lot of truth in that, and that's basically how my personal life works. The time divides itself naturally, because I tend to be automatically dominant with those more submissive than myself-things just fall into place. I believe my personality shifts based on what my role needs to be: if I'm with one of the Alpha Males in my life my mind can relax and let them take the lead, while if I know I'm the more dominant between myself and others my dom side takes charge as it needs to. When I'm with my husband or my Top for instance, my sub nature just flows as it should. OTOH, when I have a bound little 24 yr old with their bare toes in my lap, the Bella you see topping on video does what she wants to do
. To be blunt, I'm most comfy as my Domme self when my Alphas are nowhere near me; her independence clashes with my sub self's desire to be guided and obedient. Having said that, I work quite well with an Alpha provided I know what's expected of me and how far I'm allowed to go on my own. As a video bottom it's important that I have an Alpha 'ler, preferably male, or it's just not going to work; other than certain VERY dominant women my immediate reaction with another female, or a male who isn't truly dominant, is to pull my Houdini act and get loose, pounce, and make things right. Hmm...that's a damn fine premise for a video actually...2) You have a very unique position here on the TMF and within the community. Being female, a video producer, a Moderator, a true lifestyle player, a parent and a person of color...you have insight into the wide range of topics that permeate our forum. Are there any of these "positions" that you more strongly advocate when involving yourself in various threads? Have any of these positions offered any stumbling blocks, so to speak, that you've had to overcome when interacting with the wide range of folks here? And finally, are there one or two of these parts of your life that you more strongly associate yourself with?
Wow, look at me being all multi-faceted and stuff 🙂 . I become a strong advocate of any of these parts of my life if they come under attack by the ignorant. And yes, I used the term ‘ignorant’. I don’t suffer fools well, you know this. When folks decide to condemn and judge aspects of my life with which they have zero first hand experience…I get a lil’ cranky. And verbose. I don’t post nearly as often as I could, I’m actually pretty content to sit back and peruse a thread on a topic somehow relevant to my personal life until utterly untrue nonsense is spouted under the guise of fact; then I’m likely to dive in and add reality and actual knowledge to the discussion.
The stumbling block that I constantly have to leap over is the fact that I do all of the unusual/alternative things that I do, yet I’m still a normal human being (whatever the heck ‘normal’ is). It can be very difficult for people to comprehend that yes, I can be polyamorous and a fetish film producer and a BDSMmer along with being a happily married wife of 14 yrs and a mama of two, who works from her home in the ‘burbs and spends most of her day with her children. My life makes perfect sense to me, and to those who really know me and spend time with me, but for some the factors just don't add up and they don't know how to classify me. My advice? Avoid labels, they narrow the box too much 🙂
I’m definitely a wife and mama over and above the other parts of my life, I pretty much live for my husband and our little girls; being the Mom of my household is what I always wanted and I’m blessed to have it. That doesn’t mean I can’t take off my apron, wipe the cookie dough off my fingers and go tie up a cute lil’ subbie for an hour or two (or get tied and ravished myself), life was meant to be complex 😉
3) Ok, let's move onto the really fun stuff...tickling helpless Subbies. As a woman and a Dominant (at least in your video sessions), how do you feel you approach tickling a bound Sub differently than a man would? What are the differences in the overall dynamic of the experience...for both of you, actually?
Honestly, I’m such a hungry predator when in Domme mode that I doubt my approach is that much different, I want the same deliciously pitiful begging and utter submission that you or Jeff or Max would 😎 . As a switch and the proud owner of a female body, I do think I know of a few ultra sensitive locations (I despise the phrase ‘tickle spot’, I don’t know why) that I rarely see a male ‘ler , or a female ‘ler who isn’t really a tk-phile, properly exploit. OR, they know of those areas but graze over them entirely too quickly, when lingering and really attending that place would build up to quite the insane reaction from your girl.
I do believe that I can often get away with being myself more on camera, behaving with a bit less inhibition, than male ‘lers. For example, while I’m constantly hearing that male ‘lers should be quiet and show as little of themselves as possible onscreen, customers really want to hear me banter and verbally torment and harass my girls to my heart’s content. And while they complain about the male ‘ler’s “ugly face and hairy ass in shorts” in their line of vision, I get many, many requests to show more of my face, my bare feet, and other portions of my anatomy along with the action. On or off camera I know that my ‘lees are just a bit more relaxed with me, at least the first time we play (before they know better 😉 ). I’m under five feet tall with Gary Coleman cheeks, my ‘lees are usually way taller and stronger (so they think, ha) than I am. And I’m another female; I’m just not threatening or imposing the way a male who wants to tie you down can be, so it can be a shock when instead of some sweet, light baloney fingernail-and-feather tickling they’re treated to *everything* I’ve learned from the male tops in my life. And I was a damn good student. Nickie, in my Tickled Nickie clips, is actually a Domme; she knew me only as a submissive in our local BDSM community and did NOT expect what she got that night, and definitely didn’t expect her small, malnourished submissive side to pop out and bloom for me the way it did; it’s still one of my favorite sessions ever. We (my cameraman, my shibari bondager, my webslave who’s home we were using and his roommate) all sat and had chinese food after that shoot; I’ll never forget Nickie sitting in a daze, still tied around her waist, with her plate on her lap silently staring at me as though I’d grown a second head 😎
4) Staying on the topic of Domming in sessions, we have spoken a bit about doing a session together sometime in the future. How would a Domme like yourself go about double-teaming a helpless Subbie with a reaction-junkie Dom like myself? What do you see as the balance and/or wide range of possibility that a woman and a man, a switch and an all-the-time Dom can bring to a one-Sub session? In essence, I've seen some double-teams on video that are just "adding another tickler". (But not all, by any means.) How would you go about getting everything you can out of the experience and making it different?
The possibilities really are endless for this type of session, which btw I plan to film as often as I can. One aspect of BellaRisa that my fans love is the fact that I usually top women with whom I’m already good friends (the one exception so far was my cheerleader, whom I met at a local goth bar and hired on the spot when I heard her giggle). That means I ‘know’ them, I’ve frequently watched them bottom and often topped them myself several times, and I can direct another dominant on exactly how to make them scream or sigh for us. One of my favorite ways to play is a take on Good Cop/Bad Cop, it’s more Sadistic Dom/Sensual Switch. The Dom can be at her feet doing absolutely horrible things while I’m lying next to her, bodies pressed against each other, soothing her and stroking her sweaty brow with one hand while gently stroking those smooth underarms, and other yummy parts, with the other
. Being a switch, I can also take direction from the Dom while still topping the ‘lee; the dynamic is just hot. Not too long ago I had the pleasure of topping a more submissive girlfriend with one of my favorite Doms, we were kneeling over either side of her on a large bed; at one point he grabbed me (nicely) by the ponytail and buried his lips and tongue into my ridiculously ticklish neck over her bound body while I continued to use my toes to tickle her underarm, it was *intense* and a great scene and one I am SO planning to shoot. 5) Since you have such a wide range of experience to draw from, tell us about your best, or most intense BDSM experiences from both sides of your personality and practice, both Dom and Sub. What made each so special?
Wow. This being my 9th year in the Lifestyle I have quite a few special memories, I’ll pick one from each side of my coin. Domme-wise: the one and only time one of my favorite Tops let me tie and tickle him. He’s rather large and strong, very much resembling Odd Job from the Bond films but even stronger. Luckily so was the rope. This was beyond special because of the incredible amount of trust he was showing; as a Dom-Daddy type with only the ‘tiniest’ of switch inside him, it was highly irregular for him to bottom to anyone, much less one of his ‘little girls’. And frankly he was/is unspeakably ticklish, so this was going to be rough and he knew it. But, he wanted to see what I could do. So I showed him (heh). He’d never been seriously tickled before, and had certainly never experienced tickling mixed with orgasm control. He was gagged and bound with his wrists together but his ankles spread eagle, and I spent the better part of an hour using my nails, a hairbrush and my lips and teeth all over his desperate-to-escape body. I am truly amazed we didn’t break that bed. At least 3 times I used my mouth and hands to bring him sooooo close…but returned to tickling instead of letting him finish. Over and over and over. At one point I recall using my knuckles and nails in those obscenely ticklish joints between leg and thigh while I did…other things…and he actually screamed like a girl into the ball gag we were using. It was *fabulous*. I, um…paid for that later. It was definitely worth it. And to this day all I have to do to earn a seriously hard spanking from him is mention that long, rainy afternoon... >🙂
On the submissive side: I’ve have many that were intense, but one that was truly special was a night about 5 yrs ago: After having broken up (for an absolutely ridiculous reason) with my Dominant for several painful months, we began to speak again, tentatively but the love was still there. I was going to a BDSM party, and though it wasn’t his style (he prefers the ‘50’s Ricky-spanks Lucy type of romantic play) he agreed to meet me there to talk more. He did; in fact when my blindfold was removed from a session with another Dom, my own Sir was standing in front of me holding it; that was wonderful. We hadn’t seen one another for an entire summer June to September, and we were just hungry to touch, hug…play. We did play a bit, then went to a very fun 1am breakfast with a bunch of other friends. Afterwards we drove together in his car to the home of the friend with whom we were supposed to stay overnight, but our friend had forgotten to leave his key for me in the hiding place and didn’t hear us or his phone. And then it started to rain. HARD. So we ran back to the car and leaned the front seats all the way back, and I thought we’d snuggle and fall asleep until morning. Um, wrong
. Just as we were drifting off mid-conversation, it occurred to him that his submissive, whom he outweighs by at least 100 lbs and hadn’t enjoyed in months, was stuck with him in a very small space with no one to hear her screaming… That may be the longest night of my life. I mean that. It was the closest I ever want to come to actually meeting the Boogey Man that’s hiding under every submissive’s bed. Trapped in a small space with the one sadist who knows your body better than you do...oy. I can’t even tell you when the tickling became spanking and morphed back into tickling, and how many times that cycle was repeated…my god. At one point, with my body tightly jammed between the two front seats and him wrenching absolute screams from me just squeezing the backs of my thighs and using a car key to draw circles behind my knees... I know that I would have promised anything, agreed to anything…I truly believe that’s the most submissive I’ve ever been. And I remember finally, finally being allowed to sleep, curled on top of him, listening to my own breathing come down from major hysteria while the rain stormed down all around us, and feeling so…owned…and safe and cherished and loved. We were *back*, we were us. I felt...reclaimed. If you’re not a Dom or a sub I don’t know if I can explain it, but if you are, you totally get it 🙂
6) Ok, let's move on to some other stuff. What else about Bella do we not know? Hmmm....here's one. I asked Ray this one back in my first interview, and have been dying to bring the question back for the right person. You win, little lady...he he he. What was the dumbest thing you've ever done, fully knowing before hand that it was a stupid thing to do?
Y'know, I’d love to have you ask my husband, my boyfriend and my best friend this question about me and see what they’d each say >😉 .
Meanwhile: I have to say the period of life wherein I nearly failed out of college. My family was falling apart (long horrid story) during my freshman year; my parents (mom and her lover of 12 yrs) were breaking up, and I discovered my mother’s drug addiction in a rather harsh way one week before school started. I went off to school, but instead of seeking help of some kind I literally shut down; I became a different person and simply didn’t go to classes except for theatre, Spanish, and horseback riding (it was Vermont, they give you apples and syrup and a horse when you get there). I knew full well, somewhere in my mind, that I was ruining my chances of…whatever the hell I wanted…but I just didn’t care, I spent my days with whichever of my new theatre friends wasn’t in class at the time and my nights devouring Stephen King books and crying. I barely got through those first two years, and left the summer after sophomore year before I could be asked to do so. The happy ending was that, completely unexpectedly and to the utter shock of all our friends, my platonic-as-hell best guy friend from theatre became my first real boyfriend that summer. We started a relationship in May and he proposed that September, we married the following August. I took two yrs off to separate from the issues at home while living in Vermont and enjoying safe and unconditional love, then went back to school and graduated with mostly A’s. And yes, I’m still happily married to that guy 😀
7) What is your deepest, darkest fear? The one thing that can make you go batshit just thinking about it?
Being helpless to stop someone who's hurting my daughters. I've had seriously horrible nightmares about it since becoming a mama ten yrs ago.
I also have VERY wrong, weird recurrent dreams about being trapped in a nearly pitch black filthy and slimy sewer, barefoot, with no way out and Someone after me. Oh, and there are possums in the sewer water. I HATE possums…
8) What are your interests outside of "the lifestyle"? What sort of things keep you occupied that have nothing to do with rope, tape and helpless Subs?
I have my toes in quite a few pots these days... along with the whole wife and work-at-home mom dealie running a vanilla business as well as BellaRisa: I'm an amateur baker and cake decorator, amateur belly dancer, an aspiring children's author, a **major** fan of good stand-up comedians like Louis CK and Patton Oswalt and John Pinette, I read everything by Dave Barry I can find, I expect to be working on a doctorate in counseling psychology in the next few years, and currently I'm painting and/or redecorating every room in my little house in the 'burbs plus my backyard...I, um, don't sleep 😛
9) If you could have any one superhuman ability, what would it be and why?
Flight. I know, how common of me. But I'm a dedicated swoop-junkie; that first big dive on a 'coaster is my absolute favorite feeling in the world, when I can combine it with tickling and dark chocolate I'll be done asking life for things. Being able to soar and dive that way is a desire I've had since very early childhood. In fact, I always bottom wearing a blindfold because the state of mind and place becomes so similar.
10) And finally, our ever-popular Question Ten...but I'm gonna throw you a curve ball on this one, just to keep things interesting. Usually, I'd ask which three people from any point in history you'd have over for dinner. For this one...let's make it fictional characters from any genre. Who's coming and why?
This was just plain tough, there are entirely too many beloved characters I’d love to meet and feed at my table. But for now:
1. Brock Sampson of the Venture Brothers. My borderline-unhealthy crush aside, I would truly enjoy sitting and talking for an evening with him; a special agent who’s worked for Dr. Venture for yrs and lives next door to Dr. Orpheus? Good lord would that would be an amazing conversation.
2 Wolverine. Do I really have to elaborate?
I’ve come close (waves to a certain beloved fellow Mod), but I would love to have Logan at my table for a night and listen to his words, his story, his way, and keep his beer glass full and his cigar lit…
3. Nick Charles, of the Thin Man books and films. Brilliant detective, my sense of humor and a true zest for living. And married to Nora, whom I still want to be when I grow up( and whom I’d add as the only female if you allowed me a 4th guest). Not only would I adore spending an evening in his company, but having him with the other two to serve my best cooking while being privy to their discussions of bringing down criminals of literally all kinds…that’s a many a subbie girl’s dream dinner !
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I would like to sincerely thank Bella for her time and the thought that I happen to know she put into this. (Actually guys....shhhhh....she's the reason for at least one week of this feature being late...just don't say anything or she'll try and spank me.) Just kiddin', sweetness.
I am very glad that someone of such high standing within our community did take all the time she needed to bring her innermost thoughts to us. This was an enlightening interview for me personally, and I hope you all feel the same. Until next time....Fastisio! 😀
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You have such a wonderful kaliedescope of dimensions about you, each trip into your maze uncovers a new and fascinating point of beauty.....thank you, Bella, and thank you, Dave (you out did yourself on this one!) for taking us on the fantastic excursion that explored the essence of our lovely Bella!.....I really enjoyed this interview...... 
