Hello Everyone... I just wanted to let you know that I have something very near and dear to my heart that i will be sharing with you in the next few days. I have actually taken the time to write a full length tickling novel as a sincere thank you to everyone here for all the wonderful support I have enjoyed in my time with you guys. This is a lot less what this story was supposed to be and a lot more what it just became. Sitting back looking at the totality of the accomplishment I know that it could never have been possible without all of your loving attention. I just wanted to leave a little preview of the full body of work to come. Now that i know how to post it all 340 plus pages will be available this Friday at 6:00 a.m. I would just like to leave you with a preview of the full work... I hope that you enjoy the little sneak peak and I really look forward to seeing what you all think of the finished product... Thank you.
JJ.
*********************************************************
The Perfect Monster Part II
Written By: JJ82284
Of all the things that I had to do, to become what I was always meant to be, this was the hardest. In order to do anything great in this world you have to make hard choices. Sometimes you have to do things that make you feel a pain more intense than anything that you could have ever imagined in order to experience life’s most rapturous forms of pleasure.
Five months was a long time, but it had to be done. I just got the point where I couldn’t take anymore of the way things were. I couldn’t live another second without being honest with myself. Most people never have the courage to make the really tough decisions. Choosing between the path that leads to the things they really want, and the path of least resistance. In this part of our little tale I finally work up the courage to take the road less traveled that leads away from the little princess of my adolescent daydreams.
It’s definitely not an easy thing to stay away from someone you love. Your heart aches. You would give anything in the world just to hear them laugh again, just to listen to them talk on and on for hours letting their voice linger in the air for all eternity, just to see them smile at you one more time and let their joy become the source of your own. It’s a hard thing telling yourself over and over that it’s best for the both of you that you aren’t around each other that much right now… Trust me; it takes a long time to convince yourself.
I think that the dreams are the worst. No matter how much you throw yourself into your work, lock the door, space out in front of the T.V. or run errands to pass the time, there’s nothing in the world that can stop the person you’re in love with from dancing through your nighttimes reminding you of joys past. The subconscious is a funny thing. It’s an amazing contrast when your most blissful nocturnal innovations become your worst nightmares. Just imagine the insufferable heartbreak of waking up in the middle of the night horrified that the blissful picnic with that special someone in your mind was just another vivid concoction of your R.E.M. cycle.
Most people give up, most people crack, most people settle for the familiar rut that they have been stuck in for longer than they can remember because the pain of change is just too great. NOT ME… NOT ANYMORE. No matter how much it hurt, I was going to take what I deserved. No matter how long it took, I was going to show the world the wondrous monstrosities that this “MASTER” brought bubbling to the surface. I was going to become Perfect… no matter what the cost.
A great man once said, “A man’s greatest hour, his moment of greatest accomplishment is when he lays exhausted, having spent everything, on the battlefield: Victorious. I believe that. But remember, he never said there wouldn’t be scars. Trust me there are. From what I have learned, the scares of a knife are much different than the scars of the heart. But somehow, despite all the hurt, all the pain, and the horrible silence from my deepest love, I found the strength to “Carry On.”
<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/kDWgsQhbaqU&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/kDWgsQhbaqU&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>
JJ.
*********************************************************
The Perfect Monster Part II
Written By: JJ82284
[email protected] said:Hey Mark,
I haven’t seen you in a while. Wow. We never used to go more than a few days without hanging out. Let alone a few months… How are things? And I don’t mean about business either. That’s all you seem to write about these days. We all know about your new found heights on the ladder of success. Lol. Well… kinda know.
I’m so used to listening for hours while you talk my ear off going on and on about work and how well your company is doing. I used to be the first one to know about anything… Now I have to read about it in the paper like everyone else… I guess I am just not used to hearing about you second hand yet. It feels distant...
Don’t get me wrong. I mean… I am glad that you’re business is growing. I just… I just miss hearing you ramble on and on about trucking contracts and supply routes and Schedules and manifests... etc. For some reason the business section just doesn’t have that, “Hey Claire guess what happened today,” that I am so used to when I get home. LOL.
How are things with YOU Mark? You write so infrequently. We never seem to really talk anymore. It’s been five months since we did anything together. I’m worried about you. I promised your mother that I was going to take care of you and you know that I never break a promise. I thought we swore that we would never grow apart right? We said we would always make TIME for one another, no matter what came up in our lives didn’t we? Now you with all that you have going on and me bringing someone new into my life… Huuuuuuuuuh… Oh well. I guess sometimes the stars do change huh? Even the ones you don’t want to…
I really want to see more of you Mark. I miss you. You are my friend, Mark. I don’t ever want THAT to change. Tell your Father that I said “Hello.” Please, call me when you get this.
Claire
Of all the things that I had to do, to become what I was always meant to be, this was the hardest. In order to do anything great in this world you have to make hard choices. Sometimes you have to do things that make you feel a pain more intense than anything that you could have ever imagined in order to experience life’s most rapturous forms of pleasure.
Five months was a long time, but it had to be done. I just got the point where I couldn’t take anymore of the way things were. I couldn’t live another second without being honest with myself. Most people never have the courage to make the really tough decisions. Choosing between the path that leads to the things they really want, and the path of least resistance. In this part of our little tale I finally work up the courage to take the road less traveled that leads away from the little princess of my adolescent daydreams.
It’s definitely not an easy thing to stay away from someone you love. Your heart aches. You would give anything in the world just to hear them laugh again, just to listen to them talk on and on for hours letting their voice linger in the air for all eternity, just to see them smile at you one more time and let their joy become the source of your own. It’s a hard thing telling yourself over and over that it’s best for the both of you that you aren’t around each other that much right now… Trust me; it takes a long time to convince yourself.
I think that the dreams are the worst. No matter how much you throw yourself into your work, lock the door, space out in front of the T.V. or run errands to pass the time, there’s nothing in the world that can stop the person you’re in love with from dancing through your nighttimes reminding you of joys past. The subconscious is a funny thing. It’s an amazing contrast when your most blissful nocturnal innovations become your worst nightmares. Just imagine the insufferable heartbreak of waking up in the middle of the night horrified that the blissful picnic with that special someone in your mind was just another vivid concoction of your R.E.M. cycle.
Most people give up, most people crack, most people settle for the familiar rut that they have been stuck in for longer than they can remember because the pain of change is just too great. NOT ME… NOT ANYMORE. No matter how much it hurt, I was going to take what I deserved. No matter how long it took, I was going to show the world the wondrous monstrosities that this “MASTER” brought bubbling to the surface. I was going to become Perfect… no matter what the cost.
A great man once said, “A man’s greatest hour, his moment of greatest accomplishment is when he lays exhausted, having spent everything, on the battlefield: Victorious. I believe that. But remember, he never said there wouldn’t be scars. Trust me there are. From what I have learned, the scares of a knife are much different than the scars of the heart. But somehow, despite all the hurt, all the pain, and the horrible silence from my deepest love, I found the strength to “Carry On.”
<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/kDWgsQhbaqU&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/kDWgsQhbaqU&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>
Last edited: