I want to make something crystal clear..
To those who think I'm "looking for sympathy", that is not my intent. I was thinking a lot about what happened in the thread, and this is what I came up with.
When my mom was alive.. I worked with her, and lived with her. I used to be able to talk to her about anything. She loved me, cared about me, and always listened to what I had to say. She had time for me.
Now, it always seems like I'm speaking to my remaining relatives on the run. My father calls me usually once or twice a day, for two minutes at a time. My aunt the artist is the same way. She will call in to make sure I'm alive, but,, unless there;'s something really wrong.. she isnt involved.
I do talk to my two real life best friends usually a total of twice a week, but.. then theres the other 160 plus hours of the week.
Moving back to NY in two weeks will help, as I can then see my family and friends in person, and dont have to resort to phone calls.
I think its the big void of time that I've been feeling. Thus.. I make ill advised posts in the main forum that are troublesome for me.
I'm going to make every effort not to do this anymore.. as the negative seems to outweigh the positive when I do.
Mitch
To those who think I'm "looking for sympathy", that is not my intent. I was thinking a lot about what happened in the thread, and this is what I came up with.
When my mom was alive.. I worked with her, and lived with her. I used to be able to talk to her about anything. She loved me, cared about me, and always listened to what I had to say. She had time for me.
Now, it always seems like I'm speaking to my remaining relatives on the run. My father calls me usually once or twice a day, for two minutes at a time. My aunt the artist is the same way. She will call in to make sure I'm alive, but,, unless there;'s something really wrong.. she isnt involved.
I do talk to my two real life best friends usually a total of twice a week, but.. then theres the other 160 plus hours of the week.
Moving back to NY in two weeks will help, as I can then see my family and friends in person, and dont have to resort to phone calls.
I think its the big void of time that I've been feeling. Thus.. I make ill advised posts in the main forum that are troublesome for me.
I'm going to make every effort not to do this anymore.. as the negative seems to outweigh the positive when I do.
Mitch
