It's my birthday today, well mine and Mark's. 
Unfortunately, I don't feel that I've accomplished all that much in the past year, all I feel is really old. 
I am grateful that Mark found me, and we found each other, if I had tried, I could never found anyone more perfect for me. 
He understands me, lets me be alone when I need to be (I'm an only child, so I like being alone, and reading, etc.), deals with my depression, etc., and never acts like it's nothing or it doesn't exist.
I am also grateful for being able to live her with him, free of charge, until I get a job, that is, and I feel horrible about this every day, not being able to pitch in money wise. I've always been able to pretty much take care of myself with money, so this is killing me.
Well hopefully later today will be a good day for us both. We are going up to Julian on Friday, just for one night, since he is turning 50 today and we wanted to do something special, and with us both being out of work, we can only really afford to go for one night. But I love him for even going at all. I feel that we both got very lucky when we met online. I'm not trying to be greedy here, but if I could just get a job, everything would balance itself out, and I could get out of this slump, and feel like I'm contributing again.
Unfortunately, I don't feel that I've accomplished all that much in the past year, all I feel is really old. I am grateful that Mark found me, and we found each other, if I had tried, I could never found anyone more perfect for me. He understands me, lets me be alone when I need to be (I'm an only child, so I like being alone, and reading, etc.), deals with my depression, etc., and never acts like it's nothing or it doesn't exist.I am also grateful for being able to live her with him, free of charge, until I get a job, that is, and I feel horrible about this every day, not being able to pitch in money wise. I've always been able to pretty much take care of myself with money, so this is killing me.
Well hopefully later today will be a good day for us both. We are going up to Julian on Friday, just for one night, since he is turning 50 today and we wanted to do something special, and with us both being out of work, we can only really afford to go for one night. But I love him for even going at all. I feel that we both got very lucky when we met online. I'm not trying to be greedy here, but if I could just get a job, everything would balance itself out, and I could get out of this slump, and feel like I'm contributing again.
