I've been doing a lot of thinking about my situation. As I really look at it, my father thinks of only himself, always.
Not only does he rip my mom to shreds, constantly, two years after she's dead, after I've asked him not to, and not only is he best friends with everyone who treats his son like shit. (He just recently returned from spending several days with my uncle, as he spends.. an hour with me) But. he will always put me in the line of fire.. of those who act like shit to me, even if he knows its the worst time.
I've already posted how Cheryl was musing "Why I didn't have a job", literally one week after I passed the insurance exam. I hadn't yet even been to Sales School, or had any inkling about what Aflac expected of me, their limitations on who I could approach, and how difficult the insurance business is.,. When I complained about her attitude to my father, he had the usual justification for someone who acts like shit to me. "She's just concerned, she worries about Brooke and Boaz" (Her daughter and son in law too). I don't delude myself to believe that this woman gives two damns if Aflac is successful for me, if I'm in a minimum wage job that makes me miserable, or even, if I'm dead. This is a woman who married my father, not caring about my estrangement from him. She cares about herself, and hers, only, and I don't matter in that equation.
I remember how when I was in college, it was Mother's Day, and I used to be saddled with studying for final exams.. my mom would consider that aspect, knowing that my aunts made me nervous, and not mandate that I be around them during that time. My mom considered my feelings.
If my father really cared about how I felt, knowing how potentially big this meeting/account is to me, and knowing how ruthless Cheryl, Boaz, and the rest of his family and friends have been to me, he would arrange to see me alone on Sunday, and not mandate that I have to be with people who act like shit to me, at a time I'm going to be so apprehensive about the most important meeting of my life. He would never do that. He thinks of himself first. When I was working on the insurance exam, he didn't change his plans one bit, for either his island vacation, or his winter in Florida, to accommodate me. Fine.. None of that really mattered. He wasn't here when I passed the exam, no biggie.
I can just see now. I don't know what Cheryl knows, and what she doesn't know.. about the upcoming events of next Wednesday. The witch will say "If this doesn't work, get a minimum wage job".
I figured it all out..
With as angry as I get with the situation with Aflac, Keith, and the demeanor he exhibits to me at times.. there is a big difference. Keith, has the same goal I do, to help me make my Aflac business as successful as possible, and for me to make as much money as possible.
For those who read this, and think "It's Father';s Day, your father can spend it however he wants, and you have no right to tell him who to include and who not to include". Under normal circumstances, yes. This, is a case of extenuating circumstance. Additionally, I've been a gracious gentleman to every single one of his family and friends, all of whom have treated me like shit, with his 100% approval.
If I was to get a break, and get a big account, and be completely free of my father: I don't have some Master plan to use him, pay him off, and get rid of him. I would sit him down, and in no uncertain terms tell him that his family and friends treat me like shit, and that I resent how he approves of their behavior, and rips my dead mother. I would then make my interaction with said individuals, , very, very sparing, and ignore them completely otherwise.
I'm supposed to see him tomorrow after my meeting at the office, I think. I'm going to try to express this to him, but knowing how he only thinks of himself, I don't suspect he'll understand why.
Not only does he rip my mom to shreds, constantly, two years after she's dead, after I've asked him not to, and not only is he best friends with everyone who treats his son like shit. (He just recently returned from spending several days with my uncle, as he spends.. an hour with me) But. he will always put me in the line of fire.. of those who act like shit to me, even if he knows its the worst time.
I've already posted how Cheryl was musing "Why I didn't have a job", literally one week after I passed the insurance exam. I hadn't yet even been to Sales School, or had any inkling about what Aflac expected of me, their limitations on who I could approach, and how difficult the insurance business is.,. When I complained about her attitude to my father, he had the usual justification for someone who acts like shit to me. "She's just concerned, she worries about Brooke and Boaz" (Her daughter and son in law too). I don't delude myself to believe that this woman gives two damns if Aflac is successful for me, if I'm in a minimum wage job that makes me miserable, or even, if I'm dead. This is a woman who married my father, not caring about my estrangement from him. She cares about herself, and hers, only, and I don't matter in that equation.
I remember how when I was in college, it was Mother's Day, and I used to be saddled with studying for final exams.. my mom would consider that aspect, knowing that my aunts made me nervous, and not mandate that I be around them during that time. My mom considered my feelings.
If my father really cared about how I felt, knowing how potentially big this meeting/account is to me, and knowing how ruthless Cheryl, Boaz, and the rest of his family and friends have been to me, he would arrange to see me alone on Sunday, and not mandate that I have to be with people who act like shit to me, at a time I'm going to be so apprehensive about the most important meeting of my life. He would never do that. He thinks of himself first. When I was working on the insurance exam, he didn't change his plans one bit, for either his island vacation, or his winter in Florida, to accommodate me. Fine.. None of that really mattered. He wasn't here when I passed the exam, no biggie.
I can just see now. I don't know what Cheryl knows, and what she doesn't know.. about the upcoming events of next Wednesday. The witch will say "If this doesn't work, get a minimum wage job".
I figured it all out..
With as angry as I get with the situation with Aflac, Keith, and the demeanor he exhibits to me at times.. there is a big difference. Keith, has the same goal I do, to help me make my Aflac business as successful as possible, and for me to make as much money as possible.
For those who read this, and think "It's Father';s Day, your father can spend it however he wants, and you have no right to tell him who to include and who not to include". Under normal circumstances, yes. This, is a case of extenuating circumstance. Additionally, I've been a gracious gentleman to every single one of his family and friends, all of whom have treated me like shit, with his 100% approval.
If I was to get a break, and get a big account, and be completely free of my father: I don't have some Master plan to use him, pay him off, and get rid of him. I would sit him down, and in no uncertain terms tell him that his family and friends treat me like shit, and that I resent how he approves of their behavior, and rips my dead mother. I would then make my interaction with said individuals, , very, very sparing, and ignore them completely otherwise.
I'm supposed to see him tomorrow after my meeting at the office, I think. I'm going to try to express this to him, but knowing how he only thinks of himself, I don't suspect he'll understand why.
