Let's try this again. I've attempted a few blog posts recently but they all seemed to have crashed and burned. It's all good, sometimes it's for the better. I'll try to make this one stick.
I've been needing to vent for a while now. Before I even get into the nonsense, I wanna briefly, at least for now, touch on this last winters UNY gathering. I'd really like to devote a whole post about it but right now is most certainly not the time and my mindset is far from where it would need to be to it justice. To anyone who might read this who hasn't attended a gathering, give it a go and you'll meet some really great people who you'll hope to meet up with many times to come. Like I said, I'd like to, and eventually will, go into so much more detail about that experience but not when I'm like this.
Positivity, focus on the good right? Okay, I'll quick dump the nonsense and then shift to something a bit more bright, if you would. Vent. Well, I'm caught in the current right now. The current of the ROC, river of compulsions, that would make for a great song tiltle huh? Yeah, I agree. Long story short, I got hurt again at work, and then got hurt again, and then the insurance company (comp case), refused to fill my prescription for painkillers, at the worst possible time. Terrible,terrible f'n time. At that point, without going off on a tangient, I was all for it, but not at that particular time and not all at once cold turkey. That was four years straight of being on medication for my injuries and to all of a sudden stop that at a very inopportune(spelling) time was not good.
Keep it short, umm, a whirlwind of physiological changes and a new reunderstanding of your body, mentality and emotions. It was like a sledgehammer to the face with no easing off. So what did i do? Turned to booze. Great fuckin' choice. It has gone from that first sip, into a plane crashing into the side of a f'n mountain. Full throttle self destruction ever since, and you could argue that's a SEVERE understatement. Hands off the wheel just punching it with your eyes closed. It's slow suicide, and I'm not oblivious to it, which doesn't make me know what to think. Just so many factors involved with the primary being the ''romance'' of it, which is the most unsettling. WTF? It's like how the f**K did I get here again? This place is going ta f'n kill ya, literally. This is bad.
That's all for that. I want to write about music for a couple minutes. It's a touch over a year now since I started playing guitar and doing vocal exercises and I'm still fully committed. They're both coming along great. I've been working on one song for the last....two months?...It's been a very dark, blackened couple of months. I've practiced, guitar wise, 2-6 hours per day on this f'n song. My acoustic has been tuned down to C# for the past couple months with no break. I'll try not to ramble off on this, but I've gotten so intimate with tihs song over the last couple months it's crazy. There is so much I'd like to write about but don't want to go off. When you're a beginner, as anyone who has gone through it would know, with any f'n endeavor, it takes so much devotion and dedication. Going forward I'll be sure to make sure every song I set out to learn is worth the effort because this has been a task. I would have to say that this song was a bit above my experience level at the time and has been quite difficult. But well worth it, I hope...😉 \m/
With that said, if I make it, I'll surely be a better musician because of this song. As I'm sure that's the same with every song, note and chord progression you'll ever come to learn. Vocally this song was tough as well and at first I wasn't quite sure about it, well, mostly because I'm not very good...LMAO....at least I can laugh about it. That's it. That's it.
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I've been needing to vent for a while now. Before I even get into the nonsense, I wanna briefly, at least for now, touch on this last winters UNY gathering. I'd really like to devote a whole post about it but right now is most certainly not the time and my mindset is far from where it would need to be to it justice. To anyone who might read this who hasn't attended a gathering, give it a go and you'll meet some really great people who you'll hope to meet up with many times to come. Like I said, I'd like to, and eventually will, go into so much more detail about that experience but not when I'm like this.
Positivity, focus on the good right? Okay, I'll quick dump the nonsense and then shift to something a bit more bright, if you would. Vent. Well, I'm caught in the current right now. The current of the ROC, river of compulsions, that would make for a great song tiltle huh? Yeah, I agree. Long story short, I got hurt again at work, and then got hurt again, and then the insurance company (comp case), refused to fill my prescription for painkillers, at the worst possible time. Terrible,terrible f'n time. At that point, without going off on a tangient, I was all for it, but not at that particular time and not all at once cold turkey. That was four years straight of being on medication for my injuries and to all of a sudden stop that at a very inopportune(spelling) time was not good.
Keep it short, umm, a whirlwind of physiological changes and a new reunderstanding of your body, mentality and emotions. It was like a sledgehammer to the face with no easing off. So what did i do? Turned to booze. Great fuckin' choice. It has gone from that first sip, into a plane crashing into the side of a f'n mountain. Full throttle self destruction ever since, and you could argue that's a SEVERE understatement. Hands off the wheel just punching it with your eyes closed. It's slow suicide, and I'm not oblivious to it, which doesn't make me know what to think. Just so many factors involved with the primary being the ''romance'' of it, which is the most unsettling. WTF? It's like how the f**K did I get here again? This place is going ta f'n kill ya, literally. This is bad.
That's all for that. I want to write about music for a couple minutes. It's a touch over a year now since I started playing guitar and doing vocal exercises and I'm still fully committed. They're both coming along great. I've been working on one song for the last....two months?...It's been a very dark, blackened couple of months. I've practiced, guitar wise, 2-6 hours per day on this f'n song. My acoustic has been tuned down to C# for the past couple months with no break. I'll try not to ramble off on this, but I've gotten so intimate with tihs song over the last couple months it's crazy. There is so much I'd like to write about but don't want to go off. When you're a beginner, as anyone who has gone through it would know, with any f'n endeavor, it takes so much devotion and dedication. Going forward I'll be sure to make sure every song I set out to learn is worth the effort because this has been a task. I would have to say that this song was a bit above my experience level at the time and has been quite difficult. But well worth it, I hope...😉 \m/
With that said, if I make it, I'll surely be a better musician because of this song. As I'm sure that's the same with every song, note and chord progression you'll ever come to learn. Vocally this song was tough as well and at first I wasn't quite sure about it, well, mostly because I'm not very good...LMAO....at least I can laugh about it. That's it. That's it.
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