I used to be happy. All the time.
This has been my schedule lately:
-Wake up anytime between 6am-10am.
-Have a Protein Shake
-Brush my teeth.
-Go on a 1 mile run.
-Shower.
-Check FaceBook & TMF.
-Nap.
-Eat.
-Watch TV.
-Eat.
-Watch TV or a movie.
-Brush my teeth.
-Check FaceBook & TMF.
-Go to bed anytime between 10pm-1am.
Repeat ... repeat ... repeat.
I have absolutely NO desire to go out with my friends. I don't feel like getting dressed up. I screen calls and texts from my friends. I rarely respond to PMs and visitor messages here. If someone IMs me on AIM ... I'll just X out of it. I don't know why ... it's not that I don't like the person ... I just don't feel like talking. Once a week I mow the lawn and get $50. I now have so much money I don't know what to do with it .. but I'm too scared to spend it. I don't feel like doing anything. And I'm not depressed. I'm really not. ... But why? I never used to be so ... so ... anti-social? for lack of a better word. What is with me?
Have I just completely shut down?
Do I just really not care anymore?
And then I think ... well this is probably some side effect from what just happened recently with Dustin.
[Yeah I know ... Dustin, Dustin, Dustin ... Marsha, Marsha, Marsha!]
But then I know it's not. I completely realize the mistake I made ever letting someone like him into my life. The only 2 good things Dustin EVER did for me was 1) Drove me to NEST and 2) Helped me meet some amazing people. But that's it. So no. I'm not acting this way because of the dumbass formally known as Sidrablem aka Mel aka a lying piece of shit. 🙂
I think I just need some motivation.
This has been my schedule lately:
-Wake up anytime between 6am-10am.
-Have a Protein Shake
-Brush my teeth.
-Go on a 1 mile run.
-Shower.
-Check FaceBook & TMF.
-Nap.
-Eat.
-Watch TV.
-Eat.
-Watch TV or a movie.
-Brush my teeth.
-Check FaceBook & TMF.
-Go to bed anytime between 10pm-1am.
Repeat ... repeat ... repeat.
I have absolutely NO desire to go out with my friends. I don't feel like getting dressed up. I screen calls and texts from my friends. I rarely respond to PMs and visitor messages here. If someone IMs me on AIM ... I'll just X out of it. I don't know why ... it's not that I don't like the person ... I just don't feel like talking. Once a week I mow the lawn and get $50. I now have so much money I don't know what to do with it .. but I'm too scared to spend it. I don't feel like doing anything. And I'm not depressed. I'm really not. ... But why? I never used to be so ... so ... anti-social? for lack of a better word. What is with me?
Have I just completely shut down?
Do I just really not care anymore?
And then I think ... well this is probably some side effect from what just happened recently with Dustin.
[Yeah I know ... Dustin, Dustin, Dustin ... Marsha, Marsha, Marsha!]
But then I know it's not. I completely realize the mistake I made ever letting someone like him into my life. The only 2 good things Dustin EVER did for me was 1) Drove me to NEST and 2) Helped me meet some amazing people. But that's it. So no. I'm not acting this way because of the dumbass formally known as Sidrablem aka Mel aka a lying piece of shit. 🙂
I think I just need some motivation.