This might not make sense, just need to vent a bit. Don't feel obliged to read it or anything.
You know, I suppose I knew I was getting into all this when I started a gap year. Rebuilding my entire social circle, only to move away after about 365 days.
However, this turned into watching one of my friends getting together with someone I was more than mildly interested in during Inglourious Basterds last Saturday while silently hoping that it wasn't happening and my eyes were playing tricks on me or something. Bugger.
Now I want to hit something with an axe. Freestanding fencepost ideal. Except there is no longer a fencepost after I went through it last time I was pissed off, and haven't replaced it yet.
Or just get really, really drunk. Sadly, driving lesson at 9AM tomorrow. Can't risk being hungover or still drunk.
(Also, to the above two, need to save money for TORM on Sat... a three hour car journey to get to Coventry where it's held, a few hours walking around, and a three hour journey to get back up here after.)
Or, well, talk to someone. But nobody I'd normally talk to to get my mind off crap is online, nor likely to be.
Anything to take my mind off things. Except it doesn't seem like that's going to work right now.
Dammitall.
See, I even promised myself I wouldn't let this happen. Promised myself I wouldn't even consider trying for a relationship because I'd have to leave it after a year, and, well, I just haven't really seen the attraction nof a short-term relationship. Though I'm beginning to. Meh. Makes no difference.
Oh, the joys of a gap year...
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You know, I suppose I knew I was getting into all this when I started a gap year. Rebuilding my entire social circle, only to move away after about 365 days.
However, this turned into watching one of my friends getting together with someone I was more than mildly interested in during Inglourious Basterds last Saturday while silently hoping that it wasn't happening and my eyes were playing tricks on me or something. Bugger.
Now I want to hit something with an axe. Freestanding fencepost ideal. Except there is no longer a fencepost after I went through it last time I was pissed off, and haven't replaced it yet.
Or just get really, really drunk. Sadly, driving lesson at 9AM tomorrow. Can't risk being hungover or still drunk.
(Also, to the above two, need to save money for TORM on Sat... a three hour car journey to get to Coventry where it's held, a few hours walking around, and a three hour journey to get back up here after.)
Or, well, talk to someone. But nobody I'd normally talk to to get my mind off crap is online, nor likely to be.
Anything to take my mind off things. Except it doesn't seem like that's going to work right now.
Dammitall.
See, I even promised myself I wouldn't let this happen. Promised myself I wouldn't even consider trying for a relationship because I'd have to leave it after a year, and, well, I just haven't really seen the attraction nof a short-term relationship. Though I'm beginning to. Meh. Makes no difference.
Oh, the joys of a gap year...
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