This is a rambling mess. Bare with me .... Happy Thanksgiving ๐ฆ
You know....
Some women feel like they have these expectations to pretend like they don't have these seriously intense urges on the same level that men do.....
Respectfully, I could tickle and be tickled EVERY SINGLE DAY (and I did for like 17 years)! ๐๐พโโ๏ธ
And just... It has been forever since I was able to bury my entire face into a gigantic pair of men's feet... (Yeah... That's even harder to navigate and damn near impossible to bring up cause.... The questions I get and the amount of men who feel they need to educate me on my own foot fetish is ridiculous!)
And I still think about all of this and want all of this (and a couple of my other kinks) everyday. Y'all know how it is, right?
I definitely have times (like right now) where I'm done! I want to be an evil ler and I want to utterly destroy whomever is unlucky enough to be in my clutches, and damn it, that person better be a switch because I want to be equally destroyed. And I need it badly.... Oh! Right at this second! ๐๐
The issue is that I'm just in the wrong location. And I have run into so many flakes and fakes and dangerous individuals that I got fed up with it and just pulled most of my stuff down. (Grief didn't help, either.)
Unfortunately, the only avenue for me are events, and the only one who was throwing them in my state was me. I just don't want to do it anymore. It's very hard to do it safely. One person changed his name so many times trying to get into my space that I finally just removed myself from the space all together.
So when I see men who would rather just do paid sessions, I get it. Man! Do I understand it now!
The joy in this for me unfortunately has not returned. But my needs and the fact that tickling is my ultimate stress relief, my #1 release in every single sense, my main kink, tied up in every single sexual urge that I possess (and my drive has always been super high), my needs remain. They aren't going anywhere. ๐ฉ Living everyday like I'm vanilla is too much. But going back to constantly vetting and running into stalking, dangerous monsters is also too much. What is a tickle lover to do?
Unfortunately there is just not a market for me to pay to play like you gentlemen have. Because my favorite is M/F and F/M and MMMMM/F and FFFFFF/M. And really, I'd watch M/M if y'all would let me. ๐คฃ And THAT is where the market is. I'm just a gal. True, I could create my own market. That also comes with a lot of risk.
And waiting for the one or two events where I feel comfortable being my complete self (and I love those events) is not enough when you live in a tickle desert like TN where no one comes to visit. Nobody. Or if they do.... (I just typed and deleted at least 7 stories of unhinged individuals who did indeed appear.)
Ok.... I'm finished venting. (Except.... I still need to play. Lol lol)
Every once in awhile you'll meet one of us who just "gotta have it" just like you. ๐๐พโโ๏ธ Hi, it's me! ๐
It's was nice to get this all out. Thanks for the space. ๐
You know....
Some women feel like they have these expectations to pretend like they don't have these seriously intense urges on the same level that men do.....
Respectfully, I could tickle and be tickled EVERY SINGLE DAY (and I did for like 17 years)! ๐๐พโโ๏ธ
And just... It has been forever since I was able to bury my entire face into a gigantic pair of men's feet... (Yeah... That's even harder to navigate and damn near impossible to bring up cause.... The questions I get and the amount of men who feel they need to educate me on my own foot fetish is ridiculous!)
And I still think about all of this and want all of this (and a couple of my other kinks) everyday. Y'all know how it is, right?
I definitely have times (like right now) where I'm done! I want to be an evil ler and I want to utterly destroy whomever is unlucky enough to be in my clutches, and damn it, that person better be a switch because I want to be equally destroyed. And I need it badly.... Oh! Right at this second! ๐๐
The issue is that I'm just in the wrong location. And I have run into so many flakes and fakes and dangerous individuals that I got fed up with it and just pulled most of my stuff down. (Grief didn't help, either.)
Unfortunately, the only avenue for me are events, and the only one who was throwing them in my state was me. I just don't want to do it anymore. It's very hard to do it safely. One person changed his name so many times trying to get into my space that I finally just removed myself from the space all together.
So when I see men who would rather just do paid sessions, I get it. Man! Do I understand it now!
The joy in this for me unfortunately has not returned. But my needs and the fact that tickling is my ultimate stress relief, my #1 release in every single sense, my main kink, tied up in every single sexual urge that I possess (and my drive has always been super high), my needs remain. They aren't going anywhere. ๐ฉ Living everyday like I'm vanilla is too much. But going back to constantly vetting and running into stalking, dangerous monsters is also too much. What is a tickle lover to do?
Unfortunately there is just not a market for me to pay to play like you gentlemen have. Because my favorite is M/F and F/M and MMMMM/F and FFFFFF/M. And really, I'd watch M/M if y'all would let me. ๐คฃ And THAT is where the market is. I'm just a gal. True, I could create my own market. That also comes with a lot of risk.
And waiting for the one or two events where I feel comfortable being my complete self (and I love those events) is not enough when you live in a tickle desert like TN where no one comes to visit. Nobody. Or if they do.... (I just typed and deleted at least 7 stories of unhinged individuals who did indeed appear.)
Ok.... I'm finished venting. (Except.... I still need to play. Lol lol)
Every once in awhile you'll meet one of us who just "gotta have it" just like you. ๐๐พโโ๏ธ Hi, it's me! ๐
It's was nice to get this all out. Thanks for the space. ๐