I forgot to post this part of my conversation with my father when I saw him on Tuesday. It was one of the most important, and appalling, parts of the conversation.
My father just cannot get off attacking my mom's character, about her age, the condition of the apartment, the alimony, etc.
I told my father. "Mom loved me very deeply". His reply was "She loved herself first". This, from a man, who went off and lived his life, and never spent time rebuilding his relationship with me. As my mom was my emotional rock for almost a quarter century. Er, no, he has always loved himself, and everyone else in his life, first, before me.
My aunt the artist, who is very objective, and has pointed out my mom's shortcomings, told me that my mom loved me more than life itself. I believe that also. She never let anyone speak to me the way that my uncle and my father's cousins have. She would take them to task.
I just have to learn to accept the parameters of my relationship with my father.
I saw my aunt the artist, and my cousin yesterday. It was a very nice visit. My cousin thought my business idea is a great idea, and encouraged me to go to a copyright lawyer, which is what I intend to do.
My aunt keeps encouraging me to find a partner. It would be nice, but I'm just not sure if I'm ready. I dont deny that I see one wonderful looking girl after the next in this big city, and it gets my mind thinking. Hopefully sometime in 2013, once my business is at least going, and I'm at whatever job I end up getting, I will be ready.
My father just cannot get off attacking my mom's character, about her age, the condition of the apartment, the alimony, etc.
I told my father. "Mom loved me very deeply". His reply was "She loved herself first". This, from a man, who went off and lived his life, and never spent time rebuilding his relationship with me. As my mom was my emotional rock for almost a quarter century. Er, no, he has always loved himself, and everyone else in his life, first, before me.
My aunt the artist, who is very objective, and has pointed out my mom's shortcomings, told me that my mom loved me more than life itself. I believe that also. She never let anyone speak to me the way that my uncle and my father's cousins have. She would take them to task.
I just have to learn to accept the parameters of my relationship with my father.
I saw my aunt the artist, and my cousin yesterday. It was a very nice visit. My cousin thought my business idea is a great idea, and encouraged me to go to a copyright lawyer, which is what I intend to do.
My aunt keeps encouraging me to find a partner. It would be nice, but I'm just not sure if I'm ready. I dont deny that I see one wonderful looking girl after the next in this big city, and it gets my mind thinking. Hopefully sometime in 2013, once my business is at least going, and I'm at whatever job I end up getting, I will be ready.
