A vent best posted in the blog. I'm seriously hoping I don't get flogged. My father is continuing to raise my ire.
We had lunch today. At the beginning, I told him that I didn't want to hear anymore about his family, or the threats he "could" have done to my mom with the alimony. He lied to me, and told me that he said the last time he wouldn't "do" that anymore. Er.. no. If he had said that, I wouldn't have brought it up.
He then really pissed me off. He asked me what I " want to do with my life". He knows full well. I want to set up the business, so I can have a future. At no time today did he encourage me to do that. In fact, he discouraged me.
When I mentioned selling the art work so I can get a part time job, and do the business, his reply was that "It was a bandaid, and I should "Work my way up". Er.. I'm going to get hired, at 43.. with no work history, and work my way up? What he really said is "I don't give a fuck what you do, so long as you don't bother me"., NEVER did he have a constructive suggestion about what I should do.
He then complained about "Not taking enough vacations". Europe, islands, Vegas, and FL in six months isn't enough for him.
I asked him if he would attend the Mets and Braves game with me this week in NY. His reply is that he "Doesn't have the time". He doesn't have time to spend 3 hrs with his son, but he has time to take Cheryl on many week long trips. He told me that he would "Go on even more trips, but Cheryl doesn't want to".
Unfortunately, I'm trapped, because of the apartment, and my credit situation. There is no poetic justice, because.. I maintain.. if I could get a business started, and pay him off, I'd love to tell him to go to hell.
Bottom line: He pays for my apartment, and discourages me from filing bankruptcy, or doing anything that would make me real money, to have me by the balls. I also think that his perpetual threats of what he "could" have done to my mom, are a way of telling me he can kick me out of this apartment,
and steal my money at any time.
I'll "prepare a resume, and look for a job", but that wont solve my REAL problem of how to be financially free, and rid of him. I don't think I'll ever truly be happy until that happens.
What is so depressing, is that a ":job" even in a month, doesn't solve my problems. I'll still have to deal with him, his abuse, and his phone calls. I'm sure the threats about my mom will come up again. He decided to take a hiatus today.
I met my aunt after I saw him, and thankfully she was supportive. She thinks he is scum.
Even if things with him continue to be horrible, as I'm sure they will be, at least I don't have to deal with his rotten cousins or family anymore. If he brings them or my mom up again, I'm going to tell him to shut the fuck up.
He tried to play "nice guy" by telling me he will accompany me to the DMV and to take care of my mom's headstone. He is so full of shit.
My aunt says I'm lucky I don't have to see him often. She says I shouldn't want to see him with how he treats me.
So that's the latest. I don't expect this to get any better, ever.
We had lunch today. At the beginning, I told him that I didn't want to hear anymore about his family, or the threats he "could" have done to my mom with the alimony. He lied to me, and told me that he said the last time he wouldn't "do" that anymore. Er.. no. If he had said that, I wouldn't have brought it up.
He then really pissed me off. He asked me what I " want to do with my life". He knows full well. I want to set up the business, so I can have a future. At no time today did he encourage me to do that. In fact, he discouraged me.
When I mentioned selling the art work so I can get a part time job, and do the business, his reply was that "It was a bandaid, and I should "Work my way up". Er.. I'm going to get hired, at 43.. with no work history, and work my way up? What he really said is "I don't give a fuck what you do, so long as you don't bother me"., NEVER did he have a constructive suggestion about what I should do.
He then complained about "Not taking enough vacations". Europe, islands, Vegas, and FL in six months isn't enough for him.
I asked him if he would attend the Mets and Braves game with me this week in NY. His reply is that he "Doesn't have the time". He doesn't have time to spend 3 hrs with his son, but he has time to take Cheryl on many week long trips. He told me that he would "Go on even more trips, but Cheryl doesn't want to".
Unfortunately, I'm trapped, because of the apartment, and my credit situation. There is no poetic justice, because.. I maintain.. if I could get a business started, and pay him off, I'd love to tell him to go to hell.
Bottom line: He pays for my apartment, and discourages me from filing bankruptcy, or doing anything that would make me real money, to have me by the balls. I also think that his perpetual threats of what he "could" have done to my mom, are a way of telling me he can kick me out of this apartment,
and steal my money at any time.
I'll "prepare a resume, and look for a job", but that wont solve my REAL problem of how to be financially free, and rid of him. I don't think I'll ever truly be happy until that happens.
What is so depressing, is that a ":job" even in a month, doesn't solve my problems. I'll still have to deal with him, his abuse, and his phone calls. I'm sure the threats about my mom will come up again. He decided to take a hiatus today.
I met my aunt after I saw him, and thankfully she was supportive. She thinks he is scum.
Even if things with him continue to be horrible, as I'm sure they will be, at least I don't have to deal with his rotten cousins or family anymore. If he brings them or my mom up again, I'm going to tell him to shut the fuck up.
He tried to play "nice guy" by telling me he will accompany me to the DMV and to take care of my mom's headstone. He is so full of shit.
My aunt says I'm lucky I don't have to see him often. She says I shouldn't want to see him with how he treats me.
So that's the latest. I don't expect this to get any better, ever.
