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When I Think Back.. It Makes Me Sick.. (About My Behavior To My Mom)

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As I was sitting in the taxi on the way to the casino today, incidents of how I treated my mom flashed into my mind. Simply put.. my behavior toward her.. for years.., was horrible.. she had every reason to turn her back on me, and never did, until the day she took her last breath.

As I've posted.. my dad is not a very communicative person. During their marriage.. she would crave communication, and he didn't give it to her.

Shortly after they separated.. my aunt the astrologer introduced my mom to a lawyer, who was a widower, with two grown children. My mom immediately hit it off with this lawyer. They used to date often, and had mega long conversations on the phone, at his expense.. long before phone deregulation.

Mitch had just gone through his parents separation.. and wasn't talking to his father. Simply put.. I was jealous, and upset that my mom didn't give me the attention I thought I deserved, even though we still lived together.

The only reason my mom didn't marry this lawyer, is that he was an alcoholic. He went to rehab, and when he came home, started drinking again, and my mom split up from him. We found out sometime later that he had passed away shortly thereafter. After that, while my mom used to date.. she never had a special man friend, something my aunts criticized her about consistently.

Even though I was with my mom until she died.. there are times I think back to incidents like these, and my behavior toward her during the time we lived in NJ, as she was undergoing her cancer treatment, and I wonder why she didn't throw me out of our home, and out of her life.

Many people believe in the afterlife. I'm on the fence about it. Even though my mom told me hours before she died, that she didn't want to leave me,.., if there is an afterlife.. I';m absolutely convinced that she is better off without me.

When I visited the college I went to last week, and saw the lady who used to counsel me during my parents divorce.,. she told me that I was always there for my mom. When I told her about my behavior to my mom during the summer we lived in NJ, this lady said I was dealing with my mom's illness all alone, and that sometimes caregivers react that way, and that I have "Nothing to feel guilty about"

When I think about it,.., I get angry at myself, and depressed.

I know I loved my mom. I wonder though, thinking back.. what did my actions show? If you treat the person who loved you the most in the world, and always treated you well, badly, what does that say about you as a person?


I hope there is an afterlife,. so that one day.. I can see my mom again, and make up to her for all the crap I did to upset her. If there is, then I will surely do so. If not.. then I have much to feel badly about. and much to look back on.. how I could have been a lot nicer to her then I was.

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Time to go back to court.

I love you. And I'm proud of what you do for that little girl. She's lucky to have a solid male figure in her life. You're doing a great job with her. And you might even get some peace when she turns 12-13. I refused to speak to my parents for year in that age range. 🙂D)

Love you.
 
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:rant: I'd gladly help you smash him into a bloody pulp. :twohugs:

It goes to show you, any guy can be a father. But it takes a strong man to be a dad. And that's what you're showing her.

:wub:
 
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It makes me sick, very sick reading something like this. You have that guy (I won't call him a father because that is a slap in the face to fathers like me) who has his child close by and treats his child like that. I only get to see my girls right now due to distance and pain (I'm 6 hours away by car) on holiday's and summertime. Granted they lived with me for 2 years prior but right now I only wish I could see them more often. I send them stuff all the time even though they get plenty of support, I still send them extra. I talk to them every other day on the phone, and even that is not enough for me.

Guys like that make me sick to my stomach. He has a chance to be with his child, and chooses not too, chooses to think its a burden and takes things from his child.

Douchebag is not a strong enough of a word to describe him.

Stay strong man. Stay strong.

Rob
 
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You already know my stance bro. Take that "M-word" to court, take custody of that child and tell him to vanish like a fart in the wind. He's not a dad and never was. He was a sperm donor at best. It's a pretty easy choice for him, pay back 5 years of back child support owed or give up all custody rights to the "annoying" little pain in the ass that just keeps you from living your life. Some people deserve absolutely nothing in life and he is one of them. I love the girl as a stand in uncle and you do great with the her and I'm glad she a figurehead like you in her life.
 
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Man, that guy sounds like the Webster's definition for "asshole." Thank goodness that little girl has a positive male role model in her life (you) and when she looks back on her childhood, she'll see her sperm donor for what he was and she'll also see who loved her and cared about her. Try to hang in there!!!
 
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When I read the bit about him stealing the little girl's money...Oh God, that just makes my blood boil!! 😡 And that royally sucks how he has 50/50 custody when it comes to your gf's kid. He is fucking ABUSING her, is what he's doing!! :rant: It sickens me that assholes like him don't give a shit about the person they helped give life to. But, as everyone else has said, it's a huge relief that she has a father figure like you in her life. With you, she has a better Dad than mine. :twohugs:
 
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