The last two days..
I had to escape, and went to the casino. I don't remember if I posted that I won a $197 jackpot at the penny slot yesterday, which I then played down to a $100 win.
Soooo.. of course I had to go back today.
I was far down.. serious money.. close to.. $300.. at the slots.. when suddenly.. I hit a jackpot for nearly $300 to get me even.
Then.. I went to the horses, and hit a $115 trifecta.
I walked out $100 ahead, $200 ahead the last two days, and $300 for the week.
I came home, and went to ,,. a popular chain for lunch that I don't want to name. Maria used to work there.
This has happened the last few times. but Mitch's head was so fucking isolated.. that I didn't notice.
This waitress,. Kristen, seems to be always talking to me, going "Hi, Mitch".
I want to talk to her, and ask her out, but.. I just cant pull the trigger. My head is so fucked up between fighting with Keith and my dad all the time.
I'm supposed to meet my dad for lunch tomorrow at his/our favorite Chinese place.. a peace offering for the miserable human being I've been lately.
Bottom line:
If mom was here, none of this would be happening.
I'm absolutely convinced.,. she is in the afterlife, having the time of her life, and not missing me that much.
This is all happening, because of how much of an absolute bastard I was to her while she was sick. Her doctor told me that God was going to make me miserable for the miserable human being I was being.
I want to have a successful insurance career..but..
I have no fucking idea why I'm scared to be with a woman. I may have posted that I saw the lady from college who used to counsel me during my parents divorce about 2 weeks ago. She is furious with me that I'm been single for so long, and wants me to get off my ass and find someone.
I think.. I'm scared that I will make that woman's life.. just as miserable as I made my mom's, so I try to stay away.
Knowing me, I wont have the balls to ask Kristen out.
I have no fucking idea what is going to happen next.
I had to escape, and went to the casino. I don't remember if I posted that I won a $197 jackpot at the penny slot yesterday, which I then played down to a $100 win.
Soooo.. of course I had to go back today.
I was far down.. serious money.. close to.. $300.. at the slots.. when suddenly.. I hit a jackpot for nearly $300 to get me even.
Then.. I went to the horses, and hit a $115 trifecta.
I walked out $100 ahead, $200 ahead the last two days, and $300 for the week.
I came home, and went to ,,. a popular chain for lunch that I don't want to name. Maria used to work there.
This has happened the last few times. but Mitch's head was so fucking isolated.. that I didn't notice.
This waitress,. Kristen, seems to be always talking to me, going "Hi, Mitch".
I want to talk to her, and ask her out, but.. I just cant pull the trigger. My head is so fucked up between fighting with Keith and my dad all the time.
I'm supposed to meet my dad for lunch tomorrow at his/our favorite Chinese place.. a peace offering for the miserable human being I've been lately.
Bottom line:
If mom was here, none of this would be happening.
I'm absolutely convinced.,. she is in the afterlife, having the time of her life, and not missing me that much.
This is all happening, because of how much of an absolute bastard I was to her while she was sick. Her doctor told me that God was going to make me miserable for the miserable human being I was being.
I want to have a successful insurance career..but..
I have no fucking idea why I'm scared to be with a woman. I may have posted that I saw the lady from college who used to counsel me during my parents divorce about 2 weeks ago. She is furious with me that I'm been single for so long, and wants me to get off my ass and find someone.
I think.. I'm scared that I will make that woman's life.. just as miserable as I made my mom's, so I try to stay away.
Knowing me, I wont have the balls to ask Kristen out.
I have no fucking idea what is going to happen next.
