Something happened that I had to post here.
Everyone on the forum is aware of how much progress I've made in my life since Sept 2013, when I got, deservedly, a scathing email from my dad about the status of my life.
In that time.. I took and passed a professional license exam in a field I had no previous experience in, and secured a position with one of the largest insurance companies in the world, even though I had/have a weak, almost non existent resume.
I've posted on here about the serious restrictions Aflac places on the type of clients we can sign.
Now, as I've posted.. we are working diligently on a 100 plus man law firm, that could be a game changer for me at Aflac. This is crucial, because, as I think I posted. I received a letter this week saying I will be terminated if I don't sign a client they approve of by early 2015.
At this .. critical time in my life.. my father admitted he has been "Avoiding me", for what reason I don't know. Thus, I gently sent him an email today.. asking him why he is avoiding me. His reply.. at the time I'm worried about nothing but work, and not getting fired.. was "I want to put your mind at ease that I'm not going to cut you off.. I just have "Concerns".
In addition to work. He requested that I start treatment with a speech therapist. and begin attending the gym. I've done both, sometime ago, on a regular basis, and both things have helped me greatly, with my speech, and physical, and emotional well being. My speech therapist, Beth, is like my shrink, and she is well aware of my serious problems in my relationship with my father, and the serious problems he has in how he deals with me/treats me. .
While I'm aware that he can throw me out of here at any time.. and I've many times, including today, expressed my appreciation to him for taking care of my rent.. my feeling are the following.
1. He would not have made his "Reassurance" unless throwing me out of the apartment, or "Cutting me off" as he put it, is on his mind. It wasn't something that ever crossed my mind, since I'm working, but apparently, it is on his mind.
2. His timing is horrible. I have a tentative meeting with him for this Monday, to discuss his "Concerns", at a time when all I want to do is to make it to Friday, see how my supervisor's call goes with the law firm, and hopefully, begin the next step of hopefully signing this client.
Last year, he sent me a scathing email, which I've admitted I deserved, both to him, and on this forum. This,. currently, is nothing.. but.. attempting to put forth his own agenda for himself, at a time it could be "Make or break": for me at work.
I'll go there, and listen to what he has to say. My feeling is two things.. He is either going to tell me to stop going to the casino completely, something I've greatly cut down.. or.. will tell me to "Get a regular job, and not focus on Aflac".
In a week which all I wanted to be concerned about.. is whether or not the law firm would sign.. I also need to be confronted by this.
My dad seriously does not know when to keep his mouth shut. We had an agreement that I could stay in Aflac until the one year anniversary of my joining the company, unless I got fired before, and we would re evaluate it. However, it's his America, always has been, always will be, so .. he can do whatever the fuck he wants.
This,.. because I questioned why he avoids me.
It's simple. All the Einsteins in his life, from my uncle, (who wished me to be on SSD for the rest of my life, and never wished me well when I passed the insurance exam) to his cousins, and his son in law, etc, talk about me. Instead of doing as my mom used to, and telling our maternal extended family to mind their own business if they crossed over boundaries, my father ingratiates every last invalid, uninformed, and nasty opinion about me.
I don't expect a good meeting with him on Monday, but, its his America, he can do what he wants.
Even though I appreciate that he has paid this apartment.. people who wonder why I have bad feelings about him as a parent, need only to see this,, to understand.
Everyone on the forum is aware of how much progress I've made in my life since Sept 2013, when I got, deservedly, a scathing email from my dad about the status of my life.
In that time.. I took and passed a professional license exam in a field I had no previous experience in, and secured a position with one of the largest insurance companies in the world, even though I had/have a weak, almost non existent resume.
I've posted on here about the serious restrictions Aflac places on the type of clients we can sign.
Now, as I've posted.. we are working diligently on a 100 plus man law firm, that could be a game changer for me at Aflac. This is crucial, because, as I think I posted. I received a letter this week saying I will be terminated if I don't sign a client they approve of by early 2015.
At this .. critical time in my life.. my father admitted he has been "Avoiding me", for what reason I don't know. Thus, I gently sent him an email today.. asking him why he is avoiding me. His reply.. at the time I'm worried about nothing but work, and not getting fired.. was "I want to put your mind at ease that I'm not going to cut you off.. I just have "Concerns".
In addition to work. He requested that I start treatment with a speech therapist. and begin attending the gym. I've done both, sometime ago, on a regular basis, and both things have helped me greatly, with my speech, and physical, and emotional well being. My speech therapist, Beth, is like my shrink, and she is well aware of my serious problems in my relationship with my father, and the serious problems he has in how he deals with me/treats me. .
While I'm aware that he can throw me out of here at any time.. and I've many times, including today, expressed my appreciation to him for taking care of my rent.. my feeling are the following.
1. He would not have made his "Reassurance" unless throwing me out of the apartment, or "Cutting me off" as he put it, is on his mind. It wasn't something that ever crossed my mind, since I'm working, but apparently, it is on his mind.
2. His timing is horrible. I have a tentative meeting with him for this Monday, to discuss his "Concerns", at a time when all I want to do is to make it to Friday, see how my supervisor's call goes with the law firm, and hopefully, begin the next step of hopefully signing this client.
Last year, he sent me a scathing email, which I've admitted I deserved, both to him, and on this forum. This,. currently, is nothing.. but.. attempting to put forth his own agenda for himself, at a time it could be "Make or break": for me at work.
I'll go there, and listen to what he has to say. My feeling is two things.. He is either going to tell me to stop going to the casino completely, something I've greatly cut down.. or.. will tell me to "Get a regular job, and not focus on Aflac".
In a week which all I wanted to be concerned about.. is whether or not the law firm would sign.. I also need to be confronted by this.
My dad seriously does not know when to keep his mouth shut. We had an agreement that I could stay in Aflac until the one year anniversary of my joining the company, unless I got fired before, and we would re evaluate it. However, it's his America, always has been, always will be, so .. he can do whatever the fuck he wants.
This,.. because I questioned why he avoids me.
It's simple. All the Einsteins in his life, from my uncle, (who wished me to be on SSD for the rest of my life, and never wished me well when I passed the insurance exam) to his cousins, and his son in law, etc, talk about me. Instead of doing as my mom used to, and telling our maternal extended family to mind their own business if they crossed over boundaries, my father ingratiates every last invalid, uninformed, and nasty opinion about me.
I don't expect a good meeting with him on Monday, but, its his America, he can do what he wants.
Even though I appreciate that he has paid this apartment.. people who wonder why I have bad feelings about him as a parent, need only to see this,, to understand.
