I saw Beth today. (My speech therapist). Honestly, I feel like she;s my only advocate in the world. She's the only one who really understands me, since my mom died.
Beth was outraged at several things. One, that Keith is being so unyielding, not to even allow me to talk to the people at Market America. I know that I cant resign from Aflac now, due to the possibility of the law firm signing, but, its almost like he's begging me to leave. If it wasn't that there is still a possibility of the law firm signing, I would leave immediately.
In regard to my relatives.
I told Beth about how Cheryl said "We';re not telling you to get a job". Beth agreed with me that its none of Cheryl;'s fucking business to tell me that. I don't delude myself to believe that Cheryl cares if I';m living or dead. After all, this is a woman, who married my father, not caring that he and I were estranged, as long as she created a family for herself. Let me be clear. Even though my dad was completely inhuman to my mom financially, in that he screwed her, with his constant threats of throwing her in the street, even now that she'[s dead.. my anger at Cheryl and my dad has NOTHING to do with money. I couldn't give a shit how much money they have,, or how many trips they take. It's that they created this family, and don't give a shit about Mitch's feelings, life, or his future.
Beth told me that my aunt the artist has no business telling me to "Forget about" my anger at my dad. My aunt can only think of herself.
Years ago, my dad had a serious financial problem. He got out of it, and stuck my mom with it, for life, in that he rebuilt his life to richness, the divorce happened when he was in financial trouble, my mom got no property settlement, a ridiculous alimony compared to what he was earning, and he NEVER offered to give her any consideration. His only regret is that he didn't put her in the street., For this, God rewards him with being rich, a second family, and a happy life, and God took my mom at 74 years old, and made her and I suffer immeasurably, and people wonder why I question God? I couldn't even rebuild my life with the businesses I tried.
At the time my dad was in trouble in the 1990s, either my uncle, or my dad's ex business partner, I don't remember which one, had told my dad to quote "Get in his car, fill up a gas tank, leave my mom penniless, and just abandon her".
Today, Beth told me that if I had somewhere to go.. and didn't have to wait to see if the lawyers sign, she advised me to do the same thing, as my dad was told to do in the 1990s. Honestly, if I had the money, and I did leave, I don't think I'd miss anyone except my friends Adam and Barney. I could still stay with the forum no matter where I was. I cant do it now, and I cant do it if Aflac works, but.. it's an interesting thought.
I hope I'm wrong, and that things turn around.. but.. my gut tells me that I'm not going to get out of this.
Thank heaven for Beth. Besides my forum friends, she seems to be the only one who really cares about me.
Beth was outraged at several things. One, that Keith is being so unyielding, not to even allow me to talk to the people at Market America. I know that I cant resign from Aflac now, due to the possibility of the law firm signing, but, its almost like he's begging me to leave. If it wasn't that there is still a possibility of the law firm signing, I would leave immediately.
In regard to my relatives.
I told Beth about how Cheryl said "We';re not telling you to get a job". Beth agreed with me that its none of Cheryl;'s fucking business to tell me that. I don't delude myself to believe that Cheryl cares if I';m living or dead. After all, this is a woman, who married my father, not caring that he and I were estranged, as long as she created a family for herself. Let me be clear. Even though my dad was completely inhuman to my mom financially, in that he screwed her, with his constant threats of throwing her in the street, even now that she'[s dead.. my anger at Cheryl and my dad has NOTHING to do with money. I couldn't give a shit how much money they have,, or how many trips they take. It's that they created this family, and don't give a shit about Mitch's feelings, life, or his future.
Beth told me that my aunt the artist has no business telling me to "Forget about" my anger at my dad. My aunt can only think of herself.
Years ago, my dad had a serious financial problem. He got out of it, and stuck my mom with it, for life, in that he rebuilt his life to richness, the divorce happened when he was in financial trouble, my mom got no property settlement, a ridiculous alimony compared to what he was earning, and he NEVER offered to give her any consideration. His only regret is that he didn't put her in the street., For this, God rewards him with being rich, a second family, and a happy life, and God took my mom at 74 years old, and made her and I suffer immeasurably, and people wonder why I question God? I couldn't even rebuild my life with the businesses I tried.
At the time my dad was in trouble in the 1990s, either my uncle, or my dad's ex business partner, I don't remember which one, had told my dad to quote "Get in his car, fill up a gas tank, leave my mom penniless, and just abandon her".
Today, Beth told me that if I had somewhere to go.. and didn't have to wait to see if the lawyers sign, she advised me to do the same thing, as my dad was told to do in the 1990s. Honestly, if I had the money, and I did leave, I don't think I'd miss anyone except my friends Adam and Barney. I could still stay with the forum no matter where I was. I cant do it now, and I cant do it if Aflac works, but.. it's an interesting thought.
I hope I'm wrong, and that things turn around.. but.. my gut tells me that I'm not going to get out of this.
Thank heaven for Beth. Besides my forum friends, she seems to be the only one who really cares about me.
