I dont remember how much of this I posted.
Last week, I had four or five falls in one week.
At least three falls in my town between a week a Thursday and a week ago Saturday.
Then, during a visit to my Botox Dr, he asked me to balance on one foot, and I went falling down again.
Yesterday I felt markedly better, and was able to visit with my aunt and my friend in Manhattan. I was with them collectively for about seven or eight hours, and other than feeling tired, I had a good day.
Today, all I did was have lunch out, and a visit to the supermarket.
When I got home, I was worn out, went into bed, and could not even sit up to text, and go to the computer.
Recently, I've been thinking about something.
I've been feeling very lonely, seeing women in the street.
For the first time in many years, I'm feeling like I want, friendship with a female, leading to companionship, and maybe something more than that.
Yet, my condition is humiliating to me.
I meet a kind female. We start spending time together, dating, develop a rapport.
What would said female think if , I suddenly got dizzy and fell? If I got a massive headache? If my body started shaking involuntarily?
One of my neurologists has told me that the shaking is nerves. Yet, in a video I've watched about Epilepsy, the video clearly says. "This is a seizure" It has been explained to me that shaking is only a seizure if a person passes out. Most of this shaking has been with me being awake. I did have one mild seizure almost three weeks ago, but thankfully no other incidents since then.
Someone I know gave me a cane because of all of my recent dizzy spells, and falls. I've used it sometimes, but some people dont even know that I have it.
Maybe this is "All in my head" as someone I know likes to say.
I've read that Epilepsy is not a degenerative disease/condition.
Yet, regardless of what that says, I know that I have felt far worse in the past year, than I ever did.
I dont know if such is because of the periodic migraines and dizzy spells combined with the seizure condition, or something else.
I have many Doctors visits in May, both neurologists and to my internist.
I hope that maybe this is just a phase, and will improve.
Yet, how I feel, and the multiple falls in such a short period of time, are very disheartening.,
I never like to hold a "pity party" for myself.
Most of the time when I have gotten a seizure through the years, mild, medium or large, I have always been like. "Oh, I had a seizure, okay" and except for the time I was hospitalized and semi conscious for five days in 2015, and the time I had bruises on my face from a fall in my apartment due to a seizure, which made it necessary to consult my now neurologist in 2016, nothing has really gotten me down.
This is different.
Maybe all will work out, and it is just a phase.
Yet, my mood is a bit down. I hope I that I will feel better, and that it will change.
Last week, I had four or five falls in one week.
At least three falls in my town between a week a Thursday and a week ago Saturday.
Then, during a visit to my Botox Dr, he asked me to balance on one foot, and I went falling down again.
Yesterday I felt markedly better, and was able to visit with my aunt and my friend in Manhattan. I was with them collectively for about seven or eight hours, and other than feeling tired, I had a good day.
Today, all I did was have lunch out, and a visit to the supermarket.
When I got home, I was worn out, went into bed, and could not even sit up to text, and go to the computer.
Recently, I've been thinking about something.
I've been feeling very lonely, seeing women in the street.
For the first time in many years, I'm feeling like I want, friendship with a female, leading to companionship, and maybe something more than that.
Yet, my condition is humiliating to me.
I meet a kind female. We start spending time together, dating, develop a rapport.
What would said female think if , I suddenly got dizzy and fell? If I got a massive headache? If my body started shaking involuntarily?
One of my neurologists has told me that the shaking is nerves. Yet, in a video I've watched about Epilepsy, the video clearly says. "This is a seizure" It has been explained to me that shaking is only a seizure if a person passes out. Most of this shaking has been with me being awake. I did have one mild seizure almost three weeks ago, but thankfully no other incidents since then.
Someone I know gave me a cane because of all of my recent dizzy spells, and falls. I've used it sometimes, but some people dont even know that I have it.
Maybe this is "All in my head" as someone I know likes to say.
I've read that Epilepsy is not a degenerative disease/condition.
Yet, regardless of what that says, I know that I have felt far worse in the past year, than I ever did.
I dont know if such is because of the periodic migraines and dizzy spells combined with the seizure condition, or something else.
I have many Doctors visits in May, both neurologists and to my internist.
I hope that maybe this is just a phase, and will improve.
Yet, how I feel, and the multiple falls in such a short period of time, are very disheartening.,
I never like to hold a "pity party" for myself.
Most of the time when I have gotten a seizure through the years, mild, medium or large, I have always been like. "Oh, I had a seizure, okay" and except for the time I was hospitalized and semi conscious for five days in 2015, and the time I had bruises on my face from a fall in my apartment due to a seizure, which made it necessary to consult my now neurologist in 2016, nothing has really gotten me down.
This is different.
Maybe all will work out, and it is just a phase.
Yet, my mood is a bit down. I hope I that I will feel better, and that it will change.
