Last night, my father expressed to me that he doesn't see me because I "Attack him if I don't like what he says". Hypocrite. This, from someone, who has spent the last two years, with his only regret being that he didn't default on his legal alimony obligation to my now dead mother, and put her in the street .
Tomorrow he;'s going on a week long trip to a tropical island, and then the week after he comes home from there, is going to Florida for the winter. He says, at some point, that he is going to "Sit down with me, and speak his mind". Based on his conversation with me following my close call with the exam last week, I don't even have to speculate what that conversation will be. Undoubtedly, he will say, "Suck it up, kid, get any minimum wage job, and fuck your dreams". He would expect me to have no reaction to that. He's got another thing coming if he thinks that;'s whats going to happen. He was neither supportive, nor comforting, knowing how horrible I felt last week. Everyone who knows the situation, said his display showed a true lack of caring about how badly I was feeling, and that his timing was terrible.
My friends and relatives told me that his behavior is atrocious, and, that based on how he acts, I should consider myself lucky not to see him much.
I've been unjustly accused on here of wanting to live off of him. Absolutely not true. What I want.. is to make enough money to cover all my expenses, pay him off for everything he laid out for me, sit down with him, and have a pros and cons conversation of why he and I should even stay together.
My hope is to become a successful insurance agent, and then, if there isn't a formal estrangement from him, to have as little to do with him as possible. As he says "There are relationships, and there are relationships".
He even goes so far as to have the nerve to tell me how to deal with my business contacts. Sometime ago, I got an email from my trainer, clearly saying that positions could not be guaranteed for hire after the 1st. Such is why I'm busting my ass, and so on edge, about passing the exam before the 1st. Last night, my trainer e-mailed me with a bit of reassurance.. saying "Mitch, don't sweat it, you can join the company in January also if you cant get an appointment or pass the test by the 1st". A huge sigh of relief considering how hard I've worked. When I told my father this.. instead of saying something like "That's good that Jay has so much confidence in you, that he is willing to stretch the deadline into January". My father's reaction, talking to me like a two year old, was "You're going to have to learn that people don't always do what they say". This is the most uninformed statement ever. I had gotten an email from my trainer, in writing, a short time ago, saying exams must be passed by the 1st, or positions could not be guaranteed. My concern wasn't being pulled out of thin air, but, my father had to turn it around, to use it as a vehicle to attack me.
I used to lament about not seeing my father much, and not having a real relationship with him. After his behavior this week, I'm probably lucky that I don't have much to do with him.
Right now, all that matters is that I focus on my exam, get an appointment ASAP, and pass. Those are my life's goals that matter to me. As for my father.. chances are, things will never be any different with him, nor does he want them to be.
Tomorrow he;'s going on a week long trip to a tropical island, and then the week after he comes home from there, is going to Florida for the winter. He says, at some point, that he is going to "Sit down with me, and speak his mind". Based on his conversation with me following my close call with the exam last week, I don't even have to speculate what that conversation will be. Undoubtedly, he will say, "Suck it up, kid, get any minimum wage job, and fuck your dreams". He would expect me to have no reaction to that. He's got another thing coming if he thinks that;'s whats going to happen. He was neither supportive, nor comforting, knowing how horrible I felt last week. Everyone who knows the situation, said his display showed a true lack of caring about how badly I was feeling, and that his timing was terrible.
My friends and relatives told me that his behavior is atrocious, and, that based on how he acts, I should consider myself lucky not to see him much.
I've been unjustly accused on here of wanting to live off of him. Absolutely not true. What I want.. is to make enough money to cover all my expenses, pay him off for everything he laid out for me, sit down with him, and have a pros and cons conversation of why he and I should even stay together.
My hope is to become a successful insurance agent, and then, if there isn't a formal estrangement from him, to have as little to do with him as possible. As he says "There are relationships, and there are relationships".
He even goes so far as to have the nerve to tell me how to deal with my business contacts. Sometime ago, I got an email from my trainer, clearly saying that positions could not be guaranteed for hire after the 1st. Such is why I'm busting my ass, and so on edge, about passing the exam before the 1st. Last night, my trainer e-mailed me with a bit of reassurance.. saying "Mitch, don't sweat it, you can join the company in January also if you cant get an appointment or pass the test by the 1st". A huge sigh of relief considering how hard I've worked. When I told my father this.. instead of saying something like "That's good that Jay has so much confidence in you, that he is willing to stretch the deadline into January". My father's reaction, talking to me like a two year old, was "You're going to have to learn that people don't always do what they say". This is the most uninformed statement ever. I had gotten an email from my trainer, in writing, a short time ago, saying exams must be passed by the 1st, or positions could not be guaranteed. My concern wasn't being pulled out of thin air, but, my father had to turn it around, to use it as a vehicle to attack me.
I used to lament about not seeing my father much, and not having a real relationship with him. After his behavior this week, I'm probably lucky that I don't have much to do with him.
Right now, all that matters is that I focus on my exam, get an appointment ASAP, and pass. Those are my life's goals that matter to me. As for my father.. chances are, things will never be any different with him, nor does he want them to be.
