So out of the blue, I decided to pull out my tarot cards, and do a little fortune telling on myself.... and this is what I got.
1. Two of Swords which indicated that there is tension and indecision in relationships or friendships. There is difficulty gaining a sense of balance because there are no definite plans as to the direction that is wanted. There is a need to balance two important things in life without being able to make a firm decision. WTF....really? I mean really? Yes I do have tension right now. The relationship(s) I have, you know who you are, sometimes I feel like it's a tug a war kind of. Like I love and adore both of them, they both know where they stand in my life. One does stand a little big higher because they have been on so many roads with me, being away from her kills me. I am truly in love with her.But things have to be what they are right now.And there are times where I am confused.
2.King of Cups which represents a loving and caring masculine influence. There is a possibility of a journey across water. You may experience an episode of up and down emotions. This is a tough one. The only influence I could think of is my roommate. We've known each other for almost 4 years and it has been an emotional roller coaster. There were moments before I had a job where I cried everyday, I had a panic attack everyday. I couldn't make anything work. But he stood by me the whole way, and he still does. I don't think I could appreciate and love this man more than anything. He is part of my family.
3. Ten of Pentacles - This card thinks it's a good period to acquire a house or property. There is consideration of starting a business that could foretell a period of success. A pleasant family gathering renews the confidence and happiness. There has been a thought of owning my own business. Sure I have my little etsy store but I'm not really making big business deals. For a while I've been thinking about owning a BDSM sex store where there are classes for those that are curious about the BDSM lifestyle. I also want to have my own bead store. I want walls of beads, huge buckets and bowls filled to the top with gemstones and swavorski crystals and jewelry findings. And I want to have classes there as well, not just for adults but for kids too.
4. Death indicates a transformation approaches. Unplanned events require dramatic or radical change. Illusions are stripped away, leaving only the bare truth. Possible inheritance or unexpected money may come into hand. The only radical change that comes to mind is either, in the future, I move again...which we all know happens often. Or possibly something happens in my profession. And I'm pushing for it to be something that is positively life changing.
5. Strength wants to take a stand in personal intuition. Use calm persuasion to carry a strong victory. Use courage, willpower, and inner strength to overcome difficulties. I haven't been able to do that just yet. There is so much that I deal with that is a huge disagreement to where I still don't stand up for myself. I'm always scared of being walked all over but I still let it. Maybe this is telling me to stop and do what's right by me.
6.Nine of Swords indicates a time of great misery, sadness, and depression. There could be a permanent loss or death of someone close. Severe illness is possible. My sister losing her baby, was the first thing that popped in my mind when I saw this card. I think I was more devastated than she was. I felt that child was going to be positively life changing for her. Get her to grow up more, and stop hurting her health. It's been a few weeks since she lost the baby, and now I have come to realize that you can't put the weight of that on a child. And sometimes things happen for a reason.
7. King of Swords suggests a powerful, but stubborn, masculine influence who may be opposing. In a new project, do everything exactly by the rules or there will be consequences. There may be a need for the services of an attorney. Holy fuck what now....this is something I still need to consider...
8. King of Pentacles represents a masculine influence that can be domineering, yet wise and reliable. You may have business with a banker or the head of business. Success in money matters is now possible. Beware of stubbornness that could alienate others. I really hope again this is going toward me wanting to own my own business(s). Especially if it's meaning that it is going to be successful. Just this card gives me great confidence and a push to make it happen.
9. Ten of Swords indicates an experience in total disruption of plans and hopes. Bankruptcy may happen. Be prepared for a dark night of the mind and soul that may require counseling. Okay after seeing this card the first thing that goes in my mind is "really? that's all? What else could freakin' happen?" I don't want this to happen. It's not going to because I'm not going to fucking let it. I'm sick of having those moments. It's a new year, and a new me. World...watch me grow to something beautiful.
1. Two of Swords which indicated that there is tension and indecision in relationships or friendships. There is difficulty gaining a sense of balance because there are no definite plans as to the direction that is wanted. There is a need to balance two important things in life without being able to make a firm decision. WTF....really? I mean really? Yes I do have tension right now. The relationship(s) I have, you know who you are, sometimes I feel like it's a tug a war kind of. Like I love and adore both of them, they both know where they stand in my life. One does stand a little big higher because they have been on so many roads with me, being away from her kills me. I am truly in love with her.But things have to be what they are right now.And there are times where I am confused.
2.King of Cups which represents a loving and caring masculine influence. There is a possibility of a journey across water. You may experience an episode of up and down emotions. This is a tough one. The only influence I could think of is my roommate. We've known each other for almost 4 years and it has been an emotional roller coaster. There were moments before I had a job where I cried everyday, I had a panic attack everyday. I couldn't make anything work. But he stood by me the whole way, and he still does. I don't think I could appreciate and love this man more than anything. He is part of my family.
3. Ten of Pentacles - This card thinks it's a good period to acquire a house or property. There is consideration of starting a business that could foretell a period of success. A pleasant family gathering renews the confidence and happiness. There has been a thought of owning my own business. Sure I have my little etsy store but I'm not really making big business deals. For a while I've been thinking about owning a BDSM sex store where there are classes for those that are curious about the BDSM lifestyle. I also want to have my own bead store. I want walls of beads, huge buckets and bowls filled to the top with gemstones and swavorski crystals and jewelry findings. And I want to have classes there as well, not just for adults but for kids too.
4. Death indicates a transformation approaches. Unplanned events require dramatic or radical change. Illusions are stripped away, leaving only the bare truth. Possible inheritance or unexpected money may come into hand. The only radical change that comes to mind is either, in the future, I move again...which we all know happens often. Or possibly something happens in my profession. And I'm pushing for it to be something that is positively life changing.
5. Strength wants to take a stand in personal intuition. Use calm persuasion to carry a strong victory. Use courage, willpower, and inner strength to overcome difficulties. I haven't been able to do that just yet. There is so much that I deal with that is a huge disagreement to where I still don't stand up for myself. I'm always scared of being walked all over but I still let it. Maybe this is telling me to stop and do what's right by me.
6.Nine of Swords indicates a time of great misery, sadness, and depression. There could be a permanent loss or death of someone close. Severe illness is possible. My sister losing her baby, was the first thing that popped in my mind when I saw this card. I think I was more devastated than she was. I felt that child was going to be positively life changing for her. Get her to grow up more, and stop hurting her health. It's been a few weeks since she lost the baby, and now I have come to realize that you can't put the weight of that on a child. And sometimes things happen for a reason.
7. King of Swords suggests a powerful, but stubborn, masculine influence who may be opposing. In a new project, do everything exactly by the rules or there will be consequences. There may be a need for the services of an attorney. Holy fuck what now....this is something I still need to consider...
8. King of Pentacles represents a masculine influence that can be domineering, yet wise and reliable. You may have business with a banker or the head of business. Success in money matters is now possible. Beware of stubbornness that could alienate others. I really hope again this is going toward me wanting to own my own business(s). Especially if it's meaning that it is going to be successful. Just this card gives me great confidence and a push to make it happen.
9. Ten of Swords indicates an experience in total disruption of plans and hopes. Bankruptcy may happen. Be prepared for a dark night of the mind and soul that may require counseling. Okay after seeing this card the first thing that goes in my mind is "really? that's all? What else could freakin' happen?" I don't want this to happen. It's not going to because I'm not going to fucking let it. I'm sick of having those moments. It's a new year, and a new me. World...watch me grow to something beautiful.
