A family expression best posted in the blog.
I have one prayer.. and one prayer only..
Aflac comes through. I make enough money to pay my father every last penny he's laid out for me.. and then tell every single last family member, including my aunts, to go straight to hell.
The following are the occurrences of just the last 48-72 hours, as I'm holding my breath to wait to hear from Aflac.
My one aunt.,. the astrologer.. explicitly told me that she "Doesn't care if I get the position with Aflac or not". This, from someone.. who I've given nothing but help to.. sending money her way every time I sold something.. and when I won the money at the track.
I have a lunch appointment with my father today. (Not something I'm looking forward to,, or I should be doing.,. considering what I'm waiting for.). When he got on the phone today, I just wanted to get on and off the phone as fast as possible.. For whatever reason, he attempted to lengthen the usual one minute conversation, and then snapped at me "Why I had a tone to him". No "Tone". I just wish I didn't have to see you today. (I didn't say this) All that matters, is I start my career. I'm predicting lunch will not be a nice meal. Undoubtedly.. my fucking uncle (as my friend Barney likes to refer to him as ) who was in town this weekend, shot his mouth off to my father.
Then.. when I merely called my other aunt.. the artist.. she went off on me. She set a rule that she only wants to hear about altercations with my father that take place currently. When I started to tell her what happened.. she blew up, claiming that her husband.. (Who is from a foreign country, and fraudulently married her for the sole purpose of getting his papers/citizenship/green card, etc) called their landlord, and is trying to have her thrown out. This has happened before.. and has never come to pass. She never burdens her son with her problems, but only goes off on me, choosing to keep her own son protected from whatever she's going through. When my mom had problems, Medical/financial, Mitch dealt with those alone, with no help from his family., something even the Drs in NJ commented on. My aunt's son, however, is too involved with his own life to be bothered by her problems. She has to let everything out to me.
I'm not going to be so evil as to use the wish of "Death", as that would be cruel. I will say this.. If.. the circumstances allowed, I could be estranged for life, from every single one of these people, and feel nothing.
I just have one wish: I want to hear from the Aflac people, get my promised position, make enough money to sustain everything, and then be free.
My trainer is supposed to be back today.
For those who know how hard I've worked.. pray for me. My mom would be appalled if she saw how these people treat me. My father has time for vacations for days and weeks on end with other family members, yet sees his son a couple of hours a month. My aunts go on about themselves, not caring about anything I go through, no matter how much help I give them.. or have given them.
The real answer is one thing.. estrangement. and to go on with my life.
I hope Aflac happens immediately, so I can put the pedal to the metal to go on with my life, and leave all of these people in the dust.
My friend Barney has a saying that all his best relatives are dead.. the relatives who loved and cared about him. I know what he means. The three relatives that loved and cared about me, the only ones that did, lie side by side by side on the same plot on Mount Hebron Cemetery in my mom and my grandparents. These other people, don't given a damn if I'm living or breathing.
I have one prayer.. and one prayer only..
Aflac comes through. I make enough money to pay my father every last penny he's laid out for me.. and then tell every single last family member, including my aunts, to go straight to hell.
The following are the occurrences of just the last 48-72 hours, as I'm holding my breath to wait to hear from Aflac.
My one aunt.,. the astrologer.. explicitly told me that she "Doesn't care if I get the position with Aflac or not". This, from someone.. who I've given nothing but help to.. sending money her way every time I sold something.. and when I won the money at the track.
I have a lunch appointment with my father today. (Not something I'm looking forward to,, or I should be doing.,. considering what I'm waiting for.). When he got on the phone today, I just wanted to get on and off the phone as fast as possible.. For whatever reason, he attempted to lengthen the usual one minute conversation, and then snapped at me "Why I had a tone to him". No "Tone". I just wish I didn't have to see you today. (I didn't say this) All that matters, is I start my career. I'm predicting lunch will not be a nice meal. Undoubtedly.. my fucking uncle (as my friend Barney likes to refer to him as ) who was in town this weekend, shot his mouth off to my father.
Then.. when I merely called my other aunt.. the artist.. she went off on me. She set a rule that she only wants to hear about altercations with my father that take place currently. When I started to tell her what happened.. she blew up, claiming that her husband.. (Who is from a foreign country, and fraudulently married her for the sole purpose of getting his papers/citizenship/green card, etc) called their landlord, and is trying to have her thrown out. This has happened before.. and has never come to pass. She never burdens her son with her problems, but only goes off on me, choosing to keep her own son protected from whatever she's going through. When my mom had problems, Medical/financial, Mitch dealt with those alone, with no help from his family., something even the Drs in NJ commented on. My aunt's son, however, is too involved with his own life to be bothered by her problems. She has to let everything out to me.
I'm not going to be so evil as to use the wish of "Death", as that would be cruel. I will say this.. If.. the circumstances allowed, I could be estranged for life, from every single one of these people, and feel nothing.
I just have one wish: I want to hear from the Aflac people, get my promised position, make enough money to sustain everything, and then be free.
My trainer is supposed to be back today.
For those who know how hard I've worked.. pray for me. My mom would be appalled if she saw how these people treat me. My father has time for vacations for days and weeks on end with other family members, yet sees his son a couple of hours a month. My aunts go on about themselves, not caring about anything I go through, no matter how much help I give them.. or have given them.
The real answer is one thing.. estrangement. and to go on with my life.
I hope Aflac happens immediately, so I can put the pedal to the metal to go on with my life, and leave all of these people in the dust.
My friend Barney has a saying that all his best relatives are dead.. the relatives who loved and cared about him. I know what he means. The three relatives that loved and cared about me, the only ones that did, lie side by side by side on the same plot on Mount Hebron Cemetery in my mom and my grandparents. These other people, don't given a damn if I'm living or breathing.
