I know it is not for another 39 plus hours. (Technically I will not be on this Earth for Fifty Years until
1135 am Eastern on Thursday Morning. )
As I have now reached my 50th Birthday.
I look back on the past decade, and how different my life is than it was on my 40 th.
I feel.. fortunate to have made it.
Ten years ago, on my 40 th birthday, I was living in Lancaster, PA.
Everything was quiet, and okay.
It was before The Fall.
My mother's tragic Lung Cancer Diagnosis, six weeks after my 40th Birthday, that took her life 25 months after she was diagnosed.
In the last ten years, I have watched my mother suffer and pass away, I have taken care of my mother during her illness all alone. I have nearly died twice from massive seizures, I have moved from Lancaster, PA to New York City, I have passed a professional license exam, and worked at Aflac Insurance, I have lost two twenty plus year friendships that were very important to me.
I have endured highs, lows, triumphs and tragedies.
I am still single, not by my own planning, still in search of a kind woman for hopefully mutual happiness, I have accepted that I will probably never be a father.
Yet, in spite of all this, I am still here. I still have hopes and dreams for the future, even if they are a bit, different, than even six years ago when I was working at Aflac.
I will not be having a large party for my 50th birthday on Thursday, or anytime. I've never been into something like that. As of now, I will be having a quiet meal with a close friend who is very important to me.
My maternal grandfather , may he Rest In Peace, used to have a saying about getting older. He would say. "What's the alternative?"
As I reach my 50 th birthday, I hope and pray for two things, for my senior citizen family to be well, and for myself to be well, and to make progress with my own life.
The TMF is a very important part of my life.
I want to take a minute to Thank all of my friends who have supported me through this very difficult last decade, with my mom's illness and passing, and my own serious health issues.
As I turn fifty, I wish the members of the forum, including myself, only the very best.
1135 am Eastern on Thursday Morning. )
As I have now reached my 50th Birthday.
I look back on the past decade, and how different my life is than it was on my 40 th.
I feel.. fortunate to have made it.
Ten years ago, on my 40 th birthday, I was living in Lancaster, PA.
Everything was quiet, and okay.
It was before The Fall.
My mother's tragic Lung Cancer Diagnosis, six weeks after my 40th Birthday, that took her life 25 months after she was diagnosed.
In the last ten years, I have watched my mother suffer and pass away, I have taken care of my mother during her illness all alone. I have nearly died twice from massive seizures, I have moved from Lancaster, PA to New York City, I have passed a professional license exam, and worked at Aflac Insurance, I have lost two twenty plus year friendships that were very important to me.
I have endured highs, lows, triumphs and tragedies.
I am still single, not by my own planning, still in search of a kind woman for hopefully mutual happiness, I have accepted that I will probably never be a father.
Yet, in spite of all this, I am still here. I still have hopes and dreams for the future, even if they are a bit, different, than even six years ago when I was working at Aflac.
I will not be having a large party for my 50th birthday on Thursday, or anytime. I've never been into something like that. As of now, I will be having a quiet meal with a close friend who is very important to me.
My maternal grandfather , may he Rest In Peace, used to have a saying about getting older. He would say. "What's the alternative?"
As I reach my 50 th birthday, I hope and pray for two things, for my senior citizen family to be well, and for myself to be well, and to make progress with my own life.
The TMF is a very important part of my life.
I want to take a minute to Thank all of my friends who have supported me through this very difficult last decade, with my mom's illness and passing, and my own serious health issues.
As I turn fifty, I wish the members of the forum, including myself, only the very best.
