So much has changed about me since I starting posting on this forum in December. I really can't even believe it or the fact that I've been so blind to it.
I don't have many friends. I never really have. And I could never really figure out why. I never really connected with a whole group of people..until now. Doing a tickle video, meeting people for tickle sessions, going to NEST ... those were all things I never even dreamed possible. But they happened. One after another, like they fit perfectly together.
It's like I had a
moment just now. Well duh it all went together. It was supposed to. Opening myself up to this "world" has made me 10x happier with life. Seriously. What would I being doing right now if not for the TMF? I don't even know. I know I belong here and I know I've made some awesome friends. When I'm on AIM ... I don't get IMs from my real life friends. I have like 5 different IM boxes up all from TMF people. It's fucking fantastic!
So it makes me question: How can people leave this lifestyle? Doesn't it become a part of you? I mean especially after NEST. It makes me wonder what happens in their mind that makes them find the will to let this side of them go away, or at least back into hiding? Do you think the people that left still come back and lurk? I know I've tried to leave. I've tried to even just lurk. It was really hard for me. I know everyone is different. But it just seems like if you found this site, joined, posted, attended NEST, and made friends how do you just get up and leave?
Would you leave this lifestyle if someone you loved told you to? Would you leave if you thought leaving would make the person you love happy? Would you choose love over tickling?
I know this is a part of me until I die. I know my place.
I don't have many friends. I never really have. And I could never really figure out why. I never really connected with a whole group of people..until now. Doing a tickle video, meeting people for tickle sessions, going to NEST ... those were all things I never even dreamed possible. But they happened. One after another, like they fit perfectly together.
It's like I had a
moment just now. Well duh it all went together. It was supposed to. Opening myself up to this "world" has made me 10x happier with life. Seriously. What would I being doing right now if not for the TMF? I don't even know. I know I belong here and I know I've made some awesome friends. When I'm on AIM ... I don't get IMs from my real life friends. I have like 5 different IM boxes up all from TMF people. It's fucking fantastic!So it makes me question: How can people leave this lifestyle? Doesn't it become a part of you? I mean especially after NEST. It makes me wonder what happens in their mind that makes them find the will to let this side of them go away, or at least back into hiding? Do you think the people that left still come back and lurk? I know I've tried to leave. I've tried to even just lurk. It was really hard for me. I know everyone is different. But it just seems like if you found this site, joined, posted, attended NEST, and made friends how do you just get up and leave?
Would you leave this lifestyle if someone you loved told you to? Would you leave if you thought leaving would make the person you love happy? Would you choose love over tickling?
I know this is a part of me until I die. I know my place.
- So...yeah.
Wednesday, August 3rd 2011
6:06PM
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