I'm going to put this in my blog.. so it doesn't cause the kind of stir that my resignation thread in the main forum has.
As I look back at the hell I've had.. during the past four and a half years.. and with my father..,. during the past two plus years I've lived in NY.. I've come to the conclusion that I would have been better off staying in Lancaster, taking in a roommate, not accepting my father's offer of this apartment, and never coming back to NY in the first place.
It would have been better than this.
I've been through absolutely nothing in the past four and half years. Mairead claims she has "no sympathy for me". In the past four years, the following has happened to me.
1. Having my mother diagnosed with cancer.
2. Dealing with her illness all alone.
3. Losing my best friend of almost 30 years when he turned his back on me for a woman he met a week earlier.
4. Nearly dying of a seizure in a NJ ER during a summer where I was dealing with my mother's cancer treatment far from home.
5. Having my mother declared "Cancer Free". only to find she has a fatal brain tumor
6. Having her die in my arms on the morning of 4-4- 2012 with my being all alone with her, and having no family or friends to comfort me immediately after her death, and for over 24 hours afterward.
7. Walking into my father's apartment, and having to be gracious to,.. his wife that I had never met, and cousins I hadn't seen in 25 years, a mere 24 hours after my mother's death.
8. Moving back to NY and enduring a year long depression.
9. Getting an opportunity with a major company.
10., Passing a professional licensing exam in a field I had no experience in.'
11. Being hired by this major company, only to run into roadblock after roadblock due to their regulations.
12., To be jerked around by a potential client for five months, only to find them back out after committing to sign.
13. To be forced to resign after being threatened with being fired, from a position with a real future.
14. Instead of offering constructive suggestions, your father attacks you, and doesn't offer one decent word, at a terrible time in your life.
I've gone through nothing.. Absolutely not,Mariead.
Anyone who saw this, would conclude the following.
"Mairead hates Mitchell, and no matter what would happen, she would always attack him".
As I recall, she said not one word of condolences or comfort, when Mitch's mother was sick and died.
Conclusion: Mairead hates Mitchell.
Fine, which is her peroggative.
The feeling is mutual.
I can say this. No matter what challenges Mairead would face.. she will get no comfort or sympathy from me. However, instead of attacking her if an unfortunate situation happens as she has with me, and has been allowed, because her posts have not been removed or edited, I will merely ignore it if she has a challenge to face
I've admitted: When I was in my year long depression after my mom died, and waited a year to get a real position with a company, instead of the three months/summer of 2012 that I had promised, my father sent me an angry "I'm trying to figure out what you're doing with your life" letter in August 2013 that I absolutely deserved, and admittedly told him so.
When I'm wrong, I say I'm wrong. That letter served as the spring to my locating Aflac, taking a professional exam, and being hired by a large insurance company.
This.. to attack your son.,. after his son loses a position with a real future.. that my father knew his son loved. one that would have really given his son the independence needed, is nothing more than kicking the horse when its down.
My speech therapist.. who I must underline is NOT my advocate, and blasts me about many behaviors I have.. has told me that his behavior is inhuman. He waits until I'm down to kick me, yet expects to never be held accountable for his actions.
I'm not looking to live off "Rich Daddy" in Forest Hills, Mairead. That shows you know absolutely nothing. What I was looking for, is a career, with a future, to pay my own way. No minimum wage job is going to pay for this apartment.
She just has to attack me, always, and her actions are never reprimanded, so she knows she can get away with it.
Let the fucking thread spin out of control,. I don't care. Let people think what they want. I have my thoughts about those who attack me as well
.
As I look back at the hell I've had.. during the past four and a half years.. and with my father..,. during the past two plus years I've lived in NY.. I've come to the conclusion that I would have been better off staying in Lancaster, taking in a roommate, not accepting my father's offer of this apartment, and never coming back to NY in the first place.
It would have been better than this.
I've been through absolutely nothing in the past four and half years. Mairead claims she has "no sympathy for me". In the past four years, the following has happened to me.
1. Having my mother diagnosed with cancer.
2. Dealing with her illness all alone.
3. Losing my best friend of almost 30 years when he turned his back on me for a woman he met a week earlier.
4. Nearly dying of a seizure in a NJ ER during a summer where I was dealing with my mother's cancer treatment far from home.
5. Having my mother declared "Cancer Free". only to find she has a fatal brain tumor
6. Having her die in my arms on the morning of 4-4- 2012 with my being all alone with her, and having no family or friends to comfort me immediately after her death, and for over 24 hours afterward.
7. Walking into my father's apartment, and having to be gracious to,.. his wife that I had never met, and cousins I hadn't seen in 25 years, a mere 24 hours after my mother's death.
8. Moving back to NY and enduring a year long depression.
9. Getting an opportunity with a major company.
10., Passing a professional licensing exam in a field I had no experience in.'
11. Being hired by this major company, only to run into roadblock after roadblock due to their regulations.
12., To be jerked around by a potential client for five months, only to find them back out after committing to sign.
13. To be forced to resign after being threatened with being fired, from a position with a real future.
14. Instead of offering constructive suggestions, your father attacks you, and doesn't offer one decent word, at a terrible time in your life.
I've gone through nothing.. Absolutely not,Mariead.
Anyone who saw this, would conclude the following.
"Mairead hates Mitchell, and no matter what would happen, she would always attack him".
As I recall, she said not one word of condolences or comfort, when Mitch's mother was sick and died.
Conclusion: Mairead hates Mitchell.
Fine, which is her peroggative.
The feeling is mutual.
I can say this. No matter what challenges Mairead would face.. she will get no comfort or sympathy from me. However, instead of attacking her if an unfortunate situation happens as she has with me, and has been allowed, because her posts have not been removed or edited, I will merely ignore it if she has a challenge to face
I've admitted: When I was in my year long depression after my mom died, and waited a year to get a real position with a company, instead of the three months/summer of 2012 that I had promised, my father sent me an angry "I'm trying to figure out what you're doing with your life" letter in August 2013 that I absolutely deserved, and admittedly told him so.
When I'm wrong, I say I'm wrong. That letter served as the spring to my locating Aflac, taking a professional exam, and being hired by a large insurance company.
This.. to attack your son.,. after his son loses a position with a real future.. that my father knew his son loved. one that would have really given his son the independence needed, is nothing more than kicking the horse when its down.
My speech therapist.. who I must underline is NOT my advocate, and blasts me about many behaviors I have.. has told me that his behavior is inhuman. He waits until I'm down to kick me, yet expects to never be held accountable for his actions.
I'm not looking to live off "Rich Daddy" in Forest Hills, Mairead. That shows you know absolutely nothing. What I was looking for, is a career, with a future, to pay my own way. No minimum wage job is going to pay for this apartment.
She just has to attack me, always, and her actions are never reprimanded, so she knows she can get away with it.
Let the fucking thread spin out of control,. I don't care. Let people think what they want. I have my thoughts about those who attack me as well
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