I'm going to post this in the blog.. its painful.
I saw Maria today. We talked for.. 2 hrs.
I found out she's leaving for Brooklyn in Sept, which might be best. We can go our separate ways then,., but to the point of my entry.
She keeps telling me about a "friend" who texts her annoying pic of other women, and how she wants him to leave her alone, but he wont.
Somehow, the conversation turned to me telling her to just get rid of him. I then said how I think about her when I don't see her, and while I didn't use the words "I'm in love with you". I did say something like "I care for you very much, I hate to see you treated this way by him, and I wish we could be together".
Her reply : The same "I don't want to be with anyone now", followed then by "I like you, I enjoy talking to you.. but.. I think you love me, and I don't feel the same way as you". She also told me that she doesn't really think about me when we're not together.
Ouch!
Everyone can say "We told you so", but it doesn't make it sting any less., I guess.. with the last three years of my mom being sick and dying, the move, the loss of my ex best friend, and the trouble with my dad and my family, not to mention the recent work and business frustrations, I wanted something to feel positive about.
People can also tell me "Go out and look for a girl" Not ready. Just not ready or in the frame of mind to do the whole "Hi, I'm Mitch", and have to tell someone about myself, I hate first dates, and I'm much better at actual friendships or relationships when I'm actually in them. Then there's the whole "I have a foot and tickling fetish" issue.; Maria already knows all this.
All I can say is GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I don't plan to not go in and see Maria. I have to accept it, shake it off, and look at it as an experience of interacting with a woman, for a guy who hasn't been with a girl in a long time.
I'm going to ask that any comments please be tactful, and not attacking. I didn't post this in the main forum, and between this, and the other business frustrations, things just suck for me now.
I saw Maria today. We talked for.. 2 hrs.
I found out she's leaving for Brooklyn in Sept, which might be best. We can go our separate ways then,., but to the point of my entry.
She keeps telling me about a "friend" who texts her annoying pic of other women, and how she wants him to leave her alone, but he wont.
Somehow, the conversation turned to me telling her to just get rid of him. I then said how I think about her when I don't see her, and while I didn't use the words "I'm in love with you". I did say something like "I care for you very much, I hate to see you treated this way by him, and I wish we could be together".
Her reply : The same "I don't want to be with anyone now", followed then by "I like you, I enjoy talking to you.. but.. I think you love me, and I don't feel the same way as you". She also told me that she doesn't really think about me when we're not together.
Ouch!
Everyone can say "We told you so", but it doesn't make it sting any less., I guess.. with the last three years of my mom being sick and dying, the move, the loss of my ex best friend, and the trouble with my dad and my family, not to mention the recent work and business frustrations, I wanted something to feel positive about.
People can also tell me "Go out and look for a girl" Not ready. Just not ready or in the frame of mind to do the whole "Hi, I'm Mitch", and have to tell someone about myself, I hate first dates, and I'm much better at actual friendships or relationships when I'm actually in them. Then there's the whole "I have a foot and tickling fetish" issue.; Maria already knows all this.
All I can say is GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I don't plan to not go in and see Maria. I have to accept it, shake it off, and look at it as an experience of interacting with a woman, for a guy who hasn't been with a girl in a long time.
I'm going to ask that any comments please be tactful, and not attacking. I didn't post this in the main forum, and between this, and the other business frustrations, things just suck for me now.
