It hasn't come very often lately, to which I am very thankful, but I feel it creeping it's way back into my head...that type of funk that has me contemplating on leaving the tickling community indefinitely and letting tickling itself go from my life. This past weekend I visited some amazing friends and from the standpoint of visiting and seeing my friends again it was much needed but at the same time, especially from a tickling standpoint, the weekend went obscenely fast and seemed to lack a level of joy for me....like the novelty has worn off. 🙁 (TO THE HOSTS WHO I KNOW WILL READ THIS AT SOME POINT, THIS IS NOT A HIT AGAINST THE FUNCTION! YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB HITTING IT OFF AND NON-STOP TOO; AND FOR THAT I THANK YOU!)
I went down, used a vacation day, to have fun and a great time with my friends; show my fiance what a real tickling session entails and is about but I felt like I just never came close to reaching that state of fun I wanted and that, combined with a myriad of other circumstances that arose which were generally beyond anyone's control, I didn't fully enjoy myself and that bothers me. I didn't fully enjoy myself at a function, a tickling function...that was when these thoughts began to creep back into my head again because, like before, I feel like I'm reaching the end of the road when it comes to tickling and everything that is a part of it.
I'm sure this funk will pass in time, but the ride gets bumpier and harder each time I go through it... 🙁
I went down, used a vacation day, to have fun and a great time with my friends; show my fiance what a real tickling session entails and is about but I felt like I just never came close to reaching that state of fun I wanted and that, combined with a myriad of other circumstances that arose which were generally beyond anyone's control, I didn't fully enjoy myself and that bothers me. I didn't fully enjoy myself at a function, a tickling function...that was when these thoughts began to creep back into my head again because, like before, I feel like I'm reaching the end of the road when it comes to tickling and everything that is a part of it.
I'm sure this funk will pass in time, but the ride gets bumpier and harder each time I go through it... 🙁
