How Sad...

I'm sorry so many people feel negative about the sharing that's going on in the forum. I'm sorry so many people (especially young ones) seem to have this sense of entitlement that astounds me. No one seems to be familiar with the idea of paying your dues. Or personal choice. Or priorities.

I went to NEST. I'm not an effusive person. I'm an introvert and a wall flower and I'm better at hiding and blending into the woodwork than being submerged into such a group. But it's a great group and it's worth the drive to be among others whom I am comfortable with. I don't have to stand out or be part of anything if I don't want to. It's my choice to go, but I decide how much I want to participate. So while I may not join in all the hoopla and such, I still enjoy the time together. I got to get out and commune with nature at a wonderful wildlife reserve - it was awesome and just what I needed to clear my head for a bit.

I have been to NEST three times in the past. The camradery is unbelievable. To be accepted so unconditionally... it's hard to fathom. And the number of threads is a testament to how much love there is among us. This past weekend, I needed a mental break...I wasn't much in the mood for being sociable, but I wanted to see some old friends and meet some new ones. I admit I'm more of a loner and a homebody, but the thought of seeing some of these wonderful people makes me think nothing of driving 9+ hours to spend a little quality time with them. So I chose to go...and I so don't regret it. The positive energy is beyond compare - for me, being able to see so many people enjoying themselves, the love bubbling over, is such a pick me up. And it takes very little effort - I just have to wiggle a finger or two or let myself laugh a little to induce a smile and great effects all around. It's pure joy unleashed.

I came home Monday night to find my uncle had passed away - he had suffered a massive stroke two weeks earlier. One of our clinic cats had to be euthanized after losing the battle with cancer. It was news I was not surprised to hear. But having had a little time away to escape from life's unpleasantness for a while allowed me to find some inner peace that is so hard to achieve at times.

I wouldn't trade these times. I know I'm blessed in that I have a job I love and the good fortune to have a comfortable life. I have the funds to be able to afford to travel. In college, I could never have considered such a trip. But I find it incredible that this opportunity exists. And I'm happy that others get to enjoy this chance. I'm really disappointed that others begrudge the happiness of the group. The whining about how it isn't fair to have to read through all these posts... or how they can't make it to NEST due to various circumstances (financial or otherwise)...it really is insulting. The nerve some of these members have in complaining. So much selfish, self-centered behavior really makes me feel ashamed. It comes down to choosing to be gracious or being a poor sport. I'm sorry to see so many poor sports. Life is full of choices... which I'll elaborate on in my next blog. Peace out.