Sometimes I think my mind has ADD. There are times where it starts to race with a million thoughts. I think about a lot of things and occasionally I get stuck on certain thoughts. It sucks when that happens because it usually happens at the worse possible time -- when I'm trying to sleep because I have to get up at the ass crack of dawn. 
I've always been this way. I think about things that have happened, that will happen, or just whatever. Just analyzing everything.
When I think about things that have happened, it's sometimes about things I wish I could change. I play out ways I could have gone and things would be different. Lately I think about something that happened over nearly two months ago and how I believe I lost a friend. So I wonder if I had handled it wrong, if there was anything I could have done differently. Heck, I'm not even sure if we're friends or not and that if I ask or say anything if it'll make things worse.
The other thing I'm over-thinking is going to my first gathering later this year. I worry about how it'll go, if I'll make a good impression. It freaks me out. I know it'll probably go well, but it's still scary. Mainly for two reasons: 1) I've never traveled that far alone. All trips I've been on have been with my family so it'll be a new experience for me. And 2) as I've said before, I'll say again; I've never been good in social situations. I'm shy and awkward, especially when put into a new situation. Going to that gathering is almost a must in order to improve and change that. I want to get better at social functions so that going to a gathering isn't so scary. 🙂
Right now those two are the main things on my mind and while they're on mind, my thoughts go in a million directions. Just thinking, thinking, thinking. The gathering will be on my mind for the next several months until I go, while the friendship thing will eventually get filed away like all memories eventually do. Slowly it'll get to the point where my mind accepts it for what it is. It just takes awhile. I'm fine with what happened; it's been put into perspective. It's just that my mind has a hard time letting things go, no matter how much I want it to. It wants to analyze it until it can't be analyzed anymore.
It's just really annoying when my mind won't shut off when I need it to. Maybe writing about it will help, like it was suggested to me by my "little sister".
I've always been this way. I think about things that have happened, that will happen, or just whatever. Just analyzing everything.
When I think about things that have happened, it's sometimes about things I wish I could change. I play out ways I could have gone and things would be different. Lately I think about something that happened over nearly two months ago and how I believe I lost a friend. So I wonder if I had handled it wrong, if there was anything I could have done differently. Heck, I'm not even sure if we're friends or not and that if I ask or say anything if it'll make things worse.
The other thing I'm over-thinking is going to my first gathering later this year. I worry about how it'll go, if I'll make a good impression. It freaks me out. I know it'll probably go well, but it's still scary. Mainly for two reasons: 1) I've never traveled that far alone. All trips I've been on have been with my family so it'll be a new experience for me. And 2) as I've said before, I'll say again; I've never been good in social situations. I'm shy and awkward, especially when put into a new situation. Going to that gathering is almost a must in order to improve and change that. I want to get better at social functions so that going to a gathering isn't so scary. 🙂
Right now those two are the main things on my mind and while they're on mind, my thoughts go in a million directions. Just thinking, thinking, thinking. The gathering will be on my mind for the next several months until I go, while the friendship thing will eventually get filed away like all memories eventually do. Slowly it'll get to the point where my mind accepts it for what it is. It just takes awhile. I'm fine with what happened; it's been put into perspective. It's just that my mind has a hard time letting things go, no matter how much I want it to. It wants to analyze it until it can't be analyzed anymore.
It's just really annoying when my mind won't shut off when I need it to. Maybe writing about it will help, like it was suggested to me by my "little sister".
