I wanted to post this in the blog, so as not to cause a stir.
I'm wondering, if finally, almost three years after my beloved mother left me, the old me is beginning to resurface.
I've posted how, except for.. watching Jim Gardner, seeing my friends, work, looking for work, etc, I haven't been interested in much of anything.
Lately.. that's beginning to change, for the better,.
I've posted how I have my BA in History, and just how much I love History, and Politics.
Since my mom died, while I was happy that President Obama won the 2012 Election, it just didn't seem like I had the zest for history and politics that I used to.
It seems that over the past few weeks, in spite of my extreme frustration with my ongoing job search, and the bad interviews, and rejections I've had, that I've again become interested in reading about, history, the presidents, and presidential speeches, just as I used to.. from my age of reason, until my mom took sick and died.
I'm watching inaugural addresses and speeches of the presidents on Youtube, reading history books that I have in my apartment, as well as history articles online.
My dad had made comments to me, over the past three years, of how I seemed not to be interested in anything, except watching Jim Gardner, seeing a couple of people, and going to the casino.
I want to make clear. that my getting back into the things I used to love, had nothing to do with him, or what he said.
I'm one who believes, that, when a horrible event such as losing the closest person to you in the world happens, you have to deal with such in your own time.
My getting back into history/politics, does not mean I don't miss my mom. I still miss her like crazy, every day, and will for the rest of my life. My thoughts were of her at the moment the ball dropped on Thursday morning.
Yet, after almost three years, and all the suffering I watched my mom endure, and I endured with her, it seems that I finally am rekindling interests that show I want to go on with my life.
I probably shouldn't post this, but.,,. it cant get me into much trouble here.
A resolution I made to myself, at midnight on New Years, in addition to hopefully finding a job very soon, and starting the business I want to do in some way, is to find a kind, hopefully at least somewhat, ticklish woman, to share my life with. Next New Years at midnight, and hopefully long before, I hope to have a kind woman to kiss, who I can make happy, and who can make me happy. That must show that I am coming back to myself, because, I haven't felt such feelings, for a long, long time.
I'm wondering, if finally, almost three years after my beloved mother left me, the old me is beginning to resurface.
I've posted how, except for.. watching Jim Gardner, seeing my friends, work, looking for work, etc, I haven't been interested in much of anything.
Lately.. that's beginning to change, for the better,.
I've posted how I have my BA in History, and just how much I love History, and Politics.
Since my mom died, while I was happy that President Obama won the 2012 Election, it just didn't seem like I had the zest for history and politics that I used to.
It seems that over the past few weeks, in spite of my extreme frustration with my ongoing job search, and the bad interviews, and rejections I've had, that I've again become interested in reading about, history, the presidents, and presidential speeches, just as I used to.. from my age of reason, until my mom took sick and died.
I'm watching inaugural addresses and speeches of the presidents on Youtube, reading history books that I have in my apartment, as well as history articles online.
My dad had made comments to me, over the past three years, of how I seemed not to be interested in anything, except watching Jim Gardner, seeing a couple of people, and going to the casino.
I want to make clear. that my getting back into the things I used to love, had nothing to do with him, or what he said.
I'm one who believes, that, when a horrible event such as losing the closest person to you in the world happens, you have to deal with such in your own time.
My getting back into history/politics, does not mean I don't miss my mom. I still miss her like crazy, every day, and will for the rest of my life. My thoughts were of her at the moment the ball dropped on Thursday morning.
Yet, after almost three years, and all the suffering I watched my mom endure, and I endured with her, it seems that I finally am rekindling interests that show I want to go on with my life.
I probably shouldn't post this, but.,,. it cant get me into much trouble here.
A resolution I made to myself, at midnight on New Years, in addition to hopefully finding a job very soon, and starting the business I want to do in some way, is to find a kind, hopefully at least somewhat, ticklish woman, to share my life with. Next New Years at midnight, and hopefully long before, I hope to have a kind woman to kiss, who I can make happy, and who can make me happy. That must show that I am coming back to myself, because, I haven't felt such feelings, for a long, long time.
