I've already posted about the dangers of the procedure that my mom went through yesterday, but, after the test was over, and I saw my mom, she said something that just broke my heart.
My mom, who is so seriously ill, with lung, and perhaps, breast, cancer, went through this dangerous procedure yesterday, and the first thing she said to me, when she saw me after the procedure was : "The one thiing on my mind was not myself, or this procedure, or the fact I might die, but, that my son was sitting in the waiting room, and how upset he is. I so hate that my illness, is upsetting my son, and my sister, so".
That absolutely broke my heart. This woman, my mother, who has this life threatening disease, and the first thing on her mind is that her son is upset and suffering. Is it any wonder why I love this woman so much? All I want her to do is take treatment from the doctor, get well, and live as long as possible. Yes, when they do a procedure on her I get very upset and worried, and yes, of course I'm heartsick that she has cancer, but, it absolutely made me want to break down that as she's lying there, going through all these tests, her main thought is me.
I know my mom's not a saint. She's made mistakes, as have I, and we have our words at times, but, she deserves every bit of love and support I'm giving to her. I will travel to the ends of the earth with her, if it means her life will be extended. God blessed me so much with my mom. I don't want to say goodbye to her for a very, very long time. As cursed as I've been with my psycho, abusive, father, I have been even more blessed by my wonderful mother. I hope and pray that the treatment plan and such, will do what the Dr in NJ said at our first meeting, and extend her life "very long".
Mitch
My mom, who is so seriously ill, with lung, and perhaps, breast, cancer, went through this dangerous procedure yesterday, and the first thing she said to me, when she saw me after the procedure was : "The one thiing on my mind was not myself, or this procedure, or the fact I might die, but, that my son was sitting in the waiting room, and how upset he is. I so hate that my illness, is upsetting my son, and my sister, so".
That absolutely broke my heart. This woman, my mother, who has this life threatening disease, and the first thing on her mind is that her son is upset and suffering. Is it any wonder why I love this woman so much? All I want her to do is take treatment from the doctor, get well, and live as long as possible. Yes, when they do a procedure on her I get very upset and worried, and yes, of course I'm heartsick that she has cancer, but, it absolutely made me want to break down that as she's lying there, going through all these tests, her main thought is me.
I know my mom's not a saint. She's made mistakes, as have I, and we have our words at times, but, she deserves every bit of love and support I'm giving to her. I will travel to the ends of the earth with her, if it means her life will be extended. God blessed me so much with my mom. I don't want to say goodbye to her for a very, very long time. As cursed as I've been with my psycho, abusive, father, I have been even more blessed by my wonderful mother. I hope and pray that the treatment plan and such, will do what the Dr in NJ said at our first meeting, and extend her life "very long".
Mitch
