I am so effin bored I am blogging about nothing. lol. I have been working on my netflix queue to stream on XBL. I have been helping a friend with their computer over the net. I just saw someone log onto skype that I would like to talk to but cant. And it is beautiful out and I am choosing to stay inside in case I might be sick still. Though I really doubt it. I would however feel bad if someone else got sick because of me.
I am not even sure why I am doing these blogs I think I did it at first because i needed to vent. but now I am just like filling up time. I don't know if I will continue these once I am well. I really just don't have anything really to say.
Have you ever gotten completely bored with the forum. Like to the point you no longer even want to visit for the porn? I think I am getting to that point. I don't really contribute much. Everyone I feel any kind of connection with I do not talk to through the forum. And nothing is really jumping out at me anymore causing me to get excited to be on it. aside from blogging recently.
I dunno I sit back and see the community within relative proximity to one another. People visiting with one another, hanging out, or at least have the option to do so if they make the effort. There is just a connection that I am missing with people.
Maybe it is the time I decided to delurk last year . Everything started out well then my father died and it kind of went to shit. and we wont talk about the whole Kathryn thing. Maybe I made a bad impression.
Maybe it was the whole drama earlier this year. Maybe people see that as me being the bad guy. Even though it takes two people to do what was done. I was painted as the bad person. And blamed for things that prior to the incident wasn't going to happen anyways.
I don't know. It isn't like I do not feel welcomed. There are a ton of people here that make me feel that way. It is like, when I was feeling left out a friend was like once you go to nest everything will change. But it really didn't. everyone that I was talking before nest I am talking to afterwards. and I don't feel I made any connections with people. Not with people who frequent the forum at any rate. Well there were a couple of people. People that I feel extremely privileged to be able to spend some time with and honestly get to know. But they were people I still were kind of communicating with before hand.
Ehh who knows I am not even sure what I am trying to say I am basically vomiting thoughts onto my keyboard.
I guess that is all. comment if you want or don't.
I am not even sure why I am doing these blogs I think I did it at first because i needed to vent. but now I am just like filling up time. I don't know if I will continue these once I am well. I really just don't have anything really to say.
Have you ever gotten completely bored with the forum. Like to the point you no longer even want to visit for the porn? I think I am getting to that point. I don't really contribute much. Everyone I feel any kind of connection with I do not talk to through the forum. And nothing is really jumping out at me anymore causing me to get excited to be on it. aside from blogging recently.
I dunno I sit back and see the community within relative proximity to one another. People visiting with one another, hanging out, or at least have the option to do so if they make the effort. There is just a connection that I am missing with people.
Maybe it is the time I decided to delurk last year . Everything started out well then my father died and it kind of went to shit. and we wont talk about the whole Kathryn thing. Maybe I made a bad impression.
Maybe it was the whole drama earlier this year. Maybe people see that as me being the bad guy. Even though it takes two people to do what was done. I was painted as the bad person. And blamed for things that prior to the incident wasn't going to happen anyways.
I don't know. It isn't like I do not feel welcomed. There are a ton of people here that make me feel that way. It is like, when I was feeling left out a friend was like once you go to nest everything will change. But it really didn't. everyone that I was talking before nest I am talking to afterwards. and I don't feel I made any connections with people. Not with people who frequent the forum at any rate. Well there were a couple of people. People that I feel extremely privileged to be able to spend some time with and honestly get to know. But they were people I still were kind of communicating with before hand.
Ehh who knows I am not even sure what I am trying to say I am basically vomiting thoughts onto my keyboard.
I guess that is all. comment if you want or don't.
