After not seeing him for my birthday, I met my father for lunch today.
The deterioration continues.
He wants to get rid of me.
He gave me.. nothing for my birthday. (Yes, I realize he pays my rent, but, he could have given me Something". Nothing, not a penny.
He then suggested that..
"Maybe I should move to another city".
Translation:
He wants to get rid of me.
As bad as things are for me here, I still have,.. my two best friends within reasonable distance, including one across the parking lot, and I'm in familiar surroundings.
I dont drive, and, at least when I moved to Lancaster in 1999, my mom was with me, and we had my ex best friend in town.
He suggested "A Government Job".
The people I know who have those, it took years for them to get such.
He put down the business I want to do.
Yet, hes not planning to throw me in the street,.
Bottom line, he loves how my life is, and just likes to torture me.
When I told him that if things continue like this, I wished I was dead.
All he said is "That makes me very sad".
Yeah, right.
I didnt get into any altercations with him.. I cant make him feel what he doesnt.
I'm supposed to go visit Cheryl later this week.
Its pointless to fight.
I just have to keep trying to find jobs.. take what I have to from him, hopefully less.,. or at some point, hopefully nothing, and see and talk to him as little as possible.
That s all. It's pointless to bitch.. It isnt ever going to get any better with me and him, no matter how conciliatory I am.
The deterioration continues.
He wants to get rid of me.
He gave me.. nothing for my birthday. (Yes, I realize he pays my rent, but, he could have given me Something". Nothing, not a penny.
He then suggested that..
"Maybe I should move to another city".
Translation:
He wants to get rid of me.
As bad as things are for me here, I still have,.. my two best friends within reasonable distance, including one across the parking lot, and I'm in familiar surroundings.
I dont drive, and, at least when I moved to Lancaster in 1999, my mom was with me, and we had my ex best friend in town.
He suggested "A Government Job".
The people I know who have those, it took years for them to get such.
He put down the business I want to do.
Yet, hes not planning to throw me in the street,.
Bottom line, he loves how my life is, and just likes to torture me.
When I told him that if things continue like this, I wished I was dead.
All he said is "That makes me very sad".
Yeah, right.
I didnt get into any altercations with him.. I cant make him feel what he doesnt.
I'm supposed to go visit Cheryl later this week.
Its pointless to fight.
I just have to keep trying to find jobs.. take what I have to from him, hopefully less.,. or at some point, hopefully nothing, and see and talk to him as little as possible.
That s all. It's pointless to bitch.. It isnt ever going to get any better with me and him, no matter how conciliatory I am.
