I'm almost embarrassed to post this, but here goes..
As most people know, I'm a history major, and I usually have the world's greatest memory. I can remember.. relatively trivial things that happened with tickling and feet, years ago.
Lately, I've been having trouble remembering my mom. I mean, I know her name was Sheila and that she was born 1-19-38, was a Democrat, and was someone who loved me immensely, but aside from that, I'm having trouble remembering her, and our relationship.
My aunt says its stress and trauma.
My father was here on Saturday. We spent several hours, and had an open conversation. As I may have posted,. I'm working on starting a new company/product/concept. I cant seem to get a straight answer from my dad if hes retiring/retired, semi retired, or still working. When I discussed the new company, he is for the idea, but also told me hes "Not going to make a commitment at 72 years old". He;'s better at setting up companies than I am, and I'm, hopeful that he can at least help me set it up, and then if we have to get a younger CFO to run it, fine. I'm a salesman, but I know nothing about financial set up of a company, etc.
Tonight, he wrote me an email, and the email said. "Sorry I didnt call, I've been working very hard". Er.. your company is sold, so what is this? Just on Saturday he told me that the sale of another company is not going to be as onerious as the sale he just made.
I've also been doing a lot of thinking about my family, both extended and immediate.
Let's assume for a minute that all my immediate family. My mom, may she rest, my dad, me, all grandparents, aunts, Cheryl, etc, all had/have hurt feelings, and are all guility of not promoting Alan and Mitch to be together and have a reconciliation. Let's also assume that everyone's hurt feelings are valid.
To me, my father;'s cousins are the real villiians in this, especially two first cousins, Sandy, the bitch who attacked my mom, and Gail, the one who attacked me.
Unfortunately, I was informed on Saturday that we are having a whole family shindig for Thanksgiving, including all the people I cant stand. I told my dad in no uncertain terms that if they start bothering me about my work again, and attack either my mother or me, at all, the gloves are coming off. I was at all of these bitches triumphes and tradegies, and none of them lifted a finger to help my dad and me reconcile. I told him that I'm basically going to tell them to go fuck themselves, and that extended family parties wont be happening. He told me "Mitch, youre an adult, and I understand".
He tells me I seem "Angry". Er, I expressed feelings about people who attacked me, this year. How am I angry?
Bottom line, I know what it is. I know in his way, that he cares, but.. I also know he doesnt love me to the ends of the earth like my mom did.
My two best friends think I'm absolutely right, by the way. They told me that I must work to keep peace with him, Cheryl, my uncle, and the immediate family. Cheryl , her children, and my uncle have been nice, so its easy to be nice and civil to them.
I'm concerned about the memory loss. I'm hoping it is just stress. I'm going to post something that everyone already knows, but needs repeating, considering my situation. Mom, I know you loved me unconditionally and always. I love you, always have loved you, and always will love you, now and forever. I miss you like crazy, every day. If there is a place called Heaven,. I hope you are happy and safe. I hope and pray we will be reunited one day in another world, because life without you has not, and will never, be the same.
Mitch
As most people know, I'm a history major, and I usually have the world's greatest memory. I can remember.. relatively trivial things that happened with tickling and feet, years ago.
Lately, I've been having trouble remembering my mom. I mean, I know her name was Sheila and that she was born 1-19-38, was a Democrat, and was someone who loved me immensely, but aside from that, I'm having trouble remembering her, and our relationship.
My aunt says its stress and trauma.
My father was here on Saturday. We spent several hours, and had an open conversation. As I may have posted,. I'm working on starting a new company/product/concept. I cant seem to get a straight answer from my dad if hes retiring/retired, semi retired, or still working. When I discussed the new company, he is for the idea, but also told me hes "Not going to make a commitment at 72 years old". He;'s better at setting up companies than I am, and I'm, hopeful that he can at least help me set it up, and then if we have to get a younger CFO to run it, fine. I'm a salesman, but I know nothing about financial set up of a company, etc.
Tonight, he wrote me an email, and the email said. "Sorry I didnt call, I've been working very hard". Er.. your company is sold, so what is this? Just on Saturday he told me that the sale of another company is not going to be as onerious as the sale he just made.
I've also been doing a lot of thinking about my family, both extended and immediate.
Let's assume for a minute that all my immediate family. My mom, may she rest, my dad, me, all grandparents, aunts, Cheryl, etc, all had/have hurt feelings, and are all guility of not promoting Alan and Mitch to be together and have a reconciliation. Let's also assume that everyone's hurt feelings are valid.
To me, my father;'s cousins are the real villiians in this, especially two first cousins, Sandy, the bitch who attacked my mom, and Gail, the one who attacked me.
Unfortunately, I was informed on Saturday that we are having a whole family shindig for Thanksgiving, including all the people I cant stand. I told my dad in no uncertain terms that if they start bothering me about my work again, and attack either my mother or me, at all, the gloves are coming off. I was at all of these bitches triumphes and tradegies, and none of them lifted a finger to help my dad and me reconcile. I told him that I'm basically going to tell them to go fuck themselves, and that extended family parties wont be happening. He told me "Mitch, youre an adult, and I understand".
He tells me I seem "Angry". Er, I expressed feelings about people who attacked me, this year. How am I angry?
Bottom line, I know what it is. I know in his way, that he cares, but.. I also know he doesnt love me to the ends of the earth like my mom did.
My two best friends think I'm absolutely right, by the way. They told me that I must work to keep peace with him, Cheryl, my uncle, and the immediate family. Cheryl , her children, and my uncle have been nice, so its easy to be nice and civil to them.
I'm concerned about the memory loss. I'm hoping it is just stress. I'm going to post something that everyone already knows, but needs repeating, considering my situation. Mom, I know you loved me unconditionally and always. I love you, always have loved you, and always will love you, now and forever. I miss you like crazy, every day. If there is a place called Heaven,. I hope you are happy and safe. I hope and pray we will be reunited one day in another world, because life without you has not, and will never, be the same.
Mitch
