I'm experiencing something rare for someone like me. Something I haven't felt in years.
Jealousy.
I'm feeling envious. Of anyone who is better off than me. Don't get me wrong, life isn't bad. It could just be better.
I'm jealous of the pretty girls I work with. I mean, there are people I see everyday and have seen everyday for nearly three years and they still don't give me the time of day no matter how nice I am. But believe me, they'll go out of their way to say hello to the other girl.
Ugh, it's just another blow for my self-concience levels. I know that I'm not ugly or fat. I know I'm okay looking, and I've been complimented on my personality and customer service skills. So I don't know why I let these things bother me.
You know what I'm not?
I'm not an 18 year old spoiled little anorexic princess who has a boner for my boss and will hand out my number to anyone who asks. I don't throw hissyfits because daddy won't pick me up. Even when I was 18 I wouldn't do that. I guess it's not so much that guys go out of the way to talk and flirt with her, it's just that I wish they knew who she really was.
Now I feel like I'm ranting.
I used to live with this girl. I lasted as long as all of her relationships. Two months. I'm still feeling scorned by the way I was treated. And thus, the reason why I will never live with anyone younger than me, or female for that matter. Women just piss me off.
I come from a family of all girls. That's probably why.
God, I miss Sean.
Jealousy.
I'm feeling envious. Of anyone who is better off than me. Don't get me wrong, life isn't bad. It could just be better.
I'm jealous of the pretty girls I work with. I mean, there are people I see everyday and have seen everyday for nearly three years and they still don't give me the time of day no matter how nice I am. But believe me, they'll go out of their way to say hello to the other girl.
Ugh, it's just another blow for my self-concience levels. I know that I'm not ugly or fat. I know I'm okay looking, and I've been complimented on my personality and customer service skills. So I don't know why I let these things bother me.
You know what I'm not?
I'm not an 18 year old spoiled little anorexic princess who has a boner for my boss and will hand out my number to anyone who asks. I don't throw hissyfits because daddy won't pick me up. Even when I was 18 I wouldn't do that. I guess it's not so much that guys go out of the way to talk and flirt with her, it's just that I wish they knew who she really was.
Now I feel like I'm ranting.
I used to live with this girl. I lasted as long as all of her relationships. Two months. I'm still feeling scorned by the way I was treated. And thus, the reason why I will never live with anyone younger than me, or female for that matter. Women just piss me off. I come from a family of all girls. That's probably why.
God, I miss Sean.
