My New Years Eve/Day was pretty good, overall.
Went to Acqeuduct with my friend Adam, who was visiting me. We had dinner out, watched the ball. I talked to all of my other relatives and friends, and everything seems smooth.
Of course, as they dropped the ball at midnight last night, my thoughts turned to my mom, and how much I miss her. I cant believe she';s gone almost three years.
Adam said something to me right after 12 last night.
He was like "Mitch, as much as I liked your mom, there's a level of me that's angry with her. If she didn't smoke, she wouldn't have suffered for two years, and put you, my best friend, through hell for two years, having to deal with her illness all alone".
I guess, most times, I miss my mom so much that any thoughts of being angry with her, for smoking, and getting cancer, etc, are blotted out.
I was telling my aunt the artist what Adam said last night. My aunt thinks that if my mom hadn't smoked, that my mom would have lived into her 80s, instead of dying at age 74 from cancer. It's highly possible, because supposedly, my mom had nothing else wrong with her, except for the cancer.
I hope that my mom is blissfully happy in Heaven, and that she had a wonderful New Year on the other side. I miss her, every day, and will, every day for the rest of my life.
It's tragic that I couldn't say Happy New Year to her for real last night. Chances are, if she hadn't smoked, she probably still would have been here for me to do so.
Went to Acqeuduct with my friend Adam, who was visiting me. We had dinner out, watched the ball. I talked to all of my other relatives and friends, and everything seems smooth.
Of course, as they dropped the ball at midnight last night, my thoughts turned to my mom, and how much I miss her. I cant believe she';s gone almost three years.
Adam said something to me right after 12 last night.
He was like "Mitch, as much as I liked your mom, there's a level of me that's angry with her. If she didn't smoke, she wouldn't have suffered for two years, and put you, my best friend, through hell for two years, having to deal with her illness all alone".
I guess, most times, I miss my mom so much that any thoughts of being angry with her, for smoking, and getting cancer, etc, are blotted out.
I was telling my aunt the artist what Adam said last night. My aunt thinks that if my mom hadn't smoked, that my mom would have lived into her 80s, instead of dying at age 74 from cancer. It's highly possible, because supposedly, my mom had nothing else wrong with her, except for the cancer.
I hope that my mom is blissfully happy in Heaven, and that she had a wonderful New Year on the other side. I miss her, every day, and will, every day for the rest of my life.
It's tragic that I couldn't say Happy New Year to her for real last night. Chances are, if she hadn't smoked, she probably still would have been here for me to do so.
