Well I managed to survive my first week back to work and survive is the appropriate term.I managed to work at least 40 hrs but there were a couple days where I had to leave early.It's funny,the first few days back I found myself lying on the ground in the back room because I had to take pressure off of my back.I found it funny beacuse when I first hurt my neck in January I was doing the very same thing because I could barely hold my head up.As I stared at the ceiling I couldn't help but think, ''What the fuck?''Needless to say,it's been a rough year.
I don't want to dedicate every post to the negative aspects of my life,though it seems that's all there is sometimes.On a positive note,I did manage to survive two judo classes this past week.Once again,survive is the appropriate term.Everyone was surprised to see me back considering what happened in Jan. and it was nice to see everyone again.I only attended this particular club for a few months before I got hurt but everyone showed a genuine concern.I didn't mention the fact that I was out of work because I hurt my back as well a month prior.
Despite being out for 9 months,coming off two BAD injuries,right in the middle of one,I performed fuckin' awesome.Just running game on people on the ground.Seriously.Not only did I impress myself but one of my sensei's pulled me to the side and told me I hadn't lost a step and actually looked as though I had improved.Little did he know that my back was wasted.The second class that week I was hurtin' and I remember thinking to myself,''What are you doing here?You are gonna cripple yourself.''I don't know if it is stubborness,heart,passion or whatever but right now it's something that I feel I need to do.
As of right now I feel horrible physically,so much for not dwelling on the negative.Really though,I'm probably gonna be out of work again.I'm just that hurt.One hour,one day,one week at a time,that's all you can do.I'm going to attempt to attend two more classes this week.Stubborness,perhaps but I'm leaning more towards the heart,passion end of the spectrum.
I'll tell ya,as much as I HATE my job for so many reasons,it was nice to see the guys again.I also realised the negative impact that it has on my life and more than anything I want to turn the page on that part of my life.I have weighed my options and as soon as my back heals I'm gone.So now all I can do is play the waiting game.Which sucks because I am impatient as a mother fucker.
Now there is something I did want to mention.I have been single for a while,a loong while actually.Just too much shit going on in life and a relationship has been on the backburner for what seems like forever.Anyways,a couple days ago I had a dream.It involved me and a girl just laughing at each other,being rediculous.As trivial as that may sound if you spend enough time in the gutter, something like that is priceless.So with that said,when I get out of this most recent rut that has befallen me,I need to find a woman.
My back is starting too tighten up like crazy so this post is coming to an end.I will try to look at the week before me with the utmost optimism despite the load I bear.Before I go I would like to add that Minotauro was victorious last night it what turned out to be a truly memorable bout.So I would like to give a big 'fuck yeah' to Minotauro.Peace.
I don't want to dedicate every post to the negative aspects of my life,though it seems that's all there is sometimes.On a positive note,I did manage to survive two judo classes this past week.Once again,survive is the appropriate term.Everyone was surprised to see me back considering what happened in Jan. and it was nice to see everyone again.I only attended this particular club for a few months before I got hurt but everyone showed a genuine concern.I didn't mention the fact that I was out of work because I hurt my back as well a month prior.
Despite being out for 9 months,coming off two BAD injuries,right in the middle of one,I performed fuckin' awesome.Just running game on people on the ground.Seriously.Not only did I impress myself but one of my sensei's pulled me to the side and told me I hadn't lost a step and actually looked as though I had improved.Little did he know that my back was wasted.The second class that week I was hurtin' and I remember thinking to myself,''What are you doing here?You are gonna cripple yourself.''I don't know if it is stubborness,heart,passion or whatever but right now it's something that I feel I need to do.
As of right now I feel horrible physically,so much for not dwelling on the negative.Really though,I'm probably gonna be out of work again.I'm just that hurt.One hour,one day,one week at a time,that's all you can do.I'm going to attempt to attend two more classes this week.Stubborness,perhaps but I'm leaning more towards the heart,passion end of the spectrum.
I'll tell ya,as much as I HATE my job for so many reasons,it was nice to see the guys again.I also realised the negative impact that it has on my life and more than anything I want to turn the page on that part of my life.I have weighed my options and as soon as my back heals I'm gone.So now all I can do is play the waiting game.Which sucks because I am impatient as a mother fucker.
Now there is something I did want to mention.I have been single for a while,a loong while actually.Just too much shit going on in life and a relationship has been on the backburner for what seems like forever.Anyways,a couple days ago I had a dream.It involved me and a girl just laughing at each other,being rediculous.As trivial as that may sound if you spend enough time in the gutter, something like that is priceless.So with that said,when I get out of this most recent rut that has befallen me,I need to find a woman.
My back is starting too tighten up like crazy so this post is coming to an end.I will try to look at the week before me with the utmost optimism despite the load I bear.Before I go I would like to add that Minotauro was victorious last night it what turned out to be a truly memorable bout.So I would like to give a big 'fuck yeah' to Minotauro.Peace.
