I had a good weekend.
moving on... I finally got home today around noon, after a six hour nap on the side of the road somewhere north of Cincinatti. the driving wasn't a problem, not with company with me in the truck. but without someone to talk to, I just had to crank up the tunes and stay in the lines, a lot like coloring! the last leg being much tougher (the “being alone,” not the coloring).
I was thinking about my current situation and what I need to do in order to get all of the aspects of my life in order. one of the things that will greatly hinder the amount of time that I spend on the forum and talking to the friends that I have made here is my impending move to Johnson City. I am moving in with my girlfriend of two and a half years, and after my first NEST I have some new perspective on how I live my life and what I am going to do about these two lives that I am leading. of course, I have the same personality in both of these lives, however, they are completely separate. I find it will become harder and harder to maintain my involvement in both communities at the same level that I do now. the main reason that I even got involved in the forum to the level that I am now (and that's really stretching the word “involved” - really just blogs and chatroom) is because I was still living by myself, and she moved to go to PT school. so I had a semester all to myself, which led to much more free time, and much more involvement in this forum which I have come to love and need. yeah, NEST helped too.
it is inevitable that I will not be able to do all the things that I have become accustomed to these last few months. but I will not disappear forever! I am dedicated to stay and contribute and maintain these relationships that are so important to me, and not because I feel obligated to my friends, but because this is a vital part of Me that needs an outlet. without this forum, and without the people I have met in the past few months, I would be far less happy, and I am thankful for the time that fate has allowed me to spend here.
I have a few options, and I always used to toy with how and when I could MERGE my two lives together, and finally live without the secrets and the dishonesty. The answer has always been, “oh, I'll do it later, whenever I have a reason to do it.” well, I have a reason now, and I never thought I'd have the courage to approach the ones that matter to me and inform them of my other life, the one that this forum has helped contribute so much to, and the one that I couldn't imagine giving up. I will be fine, and I will be happy. no matter what, that's not changing... but man, some other stuff might be real soon.
by the way, thanks for putting up with my subtle hints about the amazing weekend that I had. it wasn't what I expected, but I found the fun and excitement anyway, with the help of some very important and thoughtful people. it may seem as if I was downplaying it in the entry, but it's definitely a joke. I'd write my own appreciation thread about NEST, but I'll leave that to the more expressive and charismatic of our posters here (besides, I'm like the milagros of TMF blogs). I think they have done the weekend justice. and those who know my personality can probably see me laughing at my own joke - my ability to act as if NEST wasn't a big deal as I wrote above. well it was a big deal! and I am the luckiest guy in the world to have encountered NEST the way I did.
heh heh. yeah, we're not together. what do you call a boomerang that doesn't come back? hahahahaha!
-Mel
moving on... I finally got home today around noon, after a six hour nap on the side of the road somewhere north of Cincinatti. the driving wasn't a problem, not with company with me in the truck. but without someone to talk to, I just had to crank up the tunes and stay in the lines, a lot like coloring! the last leg being much tougher (the “being alone,” not the coloring).
I was thinking about my current situation and what I need to do in order to get all of the aspects of my life in order. one of the things that will greatly hinder the amount of time that I spend on the forum and talking to the friends that I have made here is my impending move to Johnson City. I am moving in with my girlfriend of two and a half years, and after my first NEST I have some new perspective on how I live my life and what I am going to do about these two lives that I am leading. of course, I have the same personality in both of these lives, however, they are completely separate. I find it will become harder and harder to maintain my involvement in both communities at the same level that I do now. the main reason that I even got involved in the forum to the level that I am now (and that's really stretching the word “involved” - really just blogs and chatroom) is because I was still living by myself, and she moved to go to PT school. so I had a semester all to myself, which led to much more free time, and much more involvement in this forum which I have come to love and need. yeah, NEST helped too.
it is inevitable that I will not be able to do all the things that I have become accustomed to these last few months. but I will not disappear forever! I am dedicated to stay and contribute and maintain these relationships that are so important to me, and not because I feel obligated to my friends, but because this is a vital part of Me that needs an outlet. without this forum, and without the people I have met in the past few months, I would be far less happy, and I am thankful for the time that fate has allowed me to spend here.
I have a few options, and I always used to toy with how and when I could MERGE my two lives together, and finally live without the secrets and the dishonesty. The answer has always been, “oh, I'll do it later, whenever I have a reason to do it.” well, I have a reason now, and I never thought I'd have the courage to approach the ones that matter to me and inform them of my other life, the one that this forum has helped contribute so much to, and the one that I couldn't imagine giving up. I will be fine, and I will be happy. no matter what, that's not changing... but man, some other stuff might be real soon.
by the way, thanks for putting up with my subtle hints about the amazing weekend that I had. it wasn't what I expected, but I found the fun and excitement anyway, with the help of some very important and thoughtful people. it may seem as if I was downplaying it in the entry, but it's definitely a joke. I'd write my own appreciation thread about NEST, but I'll leave that to the more expressive and charismatic of our posters here (besides, I'm like the milagros of TMF blogs). I think they have done the weekend justice. and those who know my personality can probably see me laughing at my own joke - my ability to act as if NEST wasn't a big deal as I wrote above. well it was a big deal! and I am the luckiest guy in the world to have encountered NEST the way I did.
heh heh. yeah, we're not together. what do you call a boomerang that doesn't come back? hahahahaha!
-Mel
